Beautiful Scars Poet Abecedarian

New Year's Eve Blues

After the day I had I could care less

   Being sad is all I wish to do tonight

     Confetti in crowds makes me stressed

         Dear Lord, I wish we could reunite


Everyone left to hang out downtown

   Friends no more because I do not drink

     Going to bed as they watch the countdown

        How long until these memories go extinct?


If only I had a moment to spend with you

   Joke and laugh and remember our yesterday's

      Karen, please visit and lend me a tissue

        Lonely me just needs to know if you're ok


Mad at you for taking on the whole world

   New Year's Eve you killed yourself

     Opportunities you could never afford

        Praying constantly for your mental health


Quiting while living and dying in vain

    Regret swallowed you like a tornado

      Sadness has left bleeding tears that stain

          Treacherous lava from your volcano


Using and drinking became your hell

  Violent outbursts in the family room
 
    Walking alone and drunk you fell

        Xanax was eventually your doom


You need to know how sorry I am

    Zero smiles because of Karen JoAnn



Date Written: December 31, 2015
For the contest: Contest Forms-A
Sponsor: Broken Wings

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Jan Allison December 14, 2016 at 3:13 PM so lovely to read this again LuLoo such an emotional poem:-) hugs jan xx

Darren White December 14, 2016 at 2:42 AM Hugs for you Laura, I won't say congratulations because that sounds so painful here....

Constance La France December 13, 2016 at 1:49 PM Laura, congratulations on your win in my contest with this emotional write, the pain is felt in each word, well done ~

Barry Stebbings December 13, 2016 at 12:22 PM Congratulations on your win, Laura, with this heart felt piece. // Barry

Janice Canerdy December 12, 2016 at 10:21 PM This well-written, WINNING poem is so heart-wrenching, so REAL. Janice

Eve Roper December 12, 2016 at 10:17 PM Congratulations on your win, sweet lady Hugs Eve

White Sage January 1, 2016 at 7:32 PM Touching and devasting, i couldn't escape sinking down...

CayCay Godwin January 1, 2016 at 6:06 PM P.S. I read the comments below. I am here, in the USA. My State is Virginia, yours? CayCay (and I have never liked drinking, but am not without some bad habits, shh - don't tell). Read my poem "One More Last Call" about my sibling's addiction issues - or not, depends on what you can handle this moment ... CayCay Beautiful Scars January 1, 2016 at 6:22 PM You are so sweet CayCay. I feel like I just met you! I've been here for over 2 months but I love the fact I have run into yet one more amazing woman and poet. Soupmail me whenever you wish! I'm always available. I'm going to go read it right now. Thank you for your kind words and inspiration you have given. God Bless -Luloo *smiles* hugs* *thanks* <3

CayCay Godwin January 1, 2016 at 6:03 PM LuLoo - right? I don't know where to begin, that you can take what I believe are true emotions (not a fictional write) and let them flow under this restrictive structure is most impressive! And, although you named specifics, this write hits home for me and, I know, others. Every time I read you I am genuinely impressed - you've got the gift. As for me, I was asleep way before midnight and would like right now to think of you as smiling! 7 ... CayCay

Jan Allison December 31, 2015 at 7:08 PM oh LuLoo this is so so sad an end to a life from addiction:-( I find New year quite depressing and toast it in with a cup of tea as I rarely drink too :-(hugs Jan xx Jan Allison December 31, 2015 at 7:18 PM Lets say I don't know anyone else on the Isle of Man who posts here lol:-) hugs Jan xx Beautiful Scars December 31, 2015 at 7:17 PM I feel like everyone I know doesn't live in USA! I feel like the black sheep! hehe Jan Allison December 31, 2015 at 7:11 PM It would be lovely LuLoo:-):-) maybe one year we will get to the US again - its been many many years since we last visited and there are so many people I would love to meet! :-) hugs Jan xx Beautiful Scars December 31, 2015 at 7:10 PM Why don't you live in USA??? Why don't I live by you?? I could have a latte and you can sip on tea :)