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My weakness


Wondrous of many blessings.
Smiling never a frown.
My prayers, Lord, are  suddenly being ignored.
I've taken a tumble of  fallen down
Lord, my life was plain and simple  
How did it come to this?
Lord, now I carry a  burden so deep
A torn up life not easy to fix
Hard to get my prayers before I sleep
Bleeding only internally!
Feeling very minutely!
God, have you deserted me or is it me who deserted you?

God, my Lord, my savior, how could you abandon me?
Must I drown in my own sorrow?
Must I wake up like this today and tomorrow.
Why have you left me, or is it me who left you?

God, I need you like never before.
When I wake up,
When I head out the door.
Tormented in a mood ring of stock
Heavily my tears hit the floor.
God, do you not feel me, or is it me who no longer feel you?

God, what is your plan for me?
What things did I not see?
I asked for you to forgive me in my ways of sin.
Why do you let him provoke me?
Lord, I forbid for him to win.
Relieve me from his gutless pain.
God, do you not believe me, or is it me who no longer believe in you?

God, do you not hear my call
My pitiful excuses make me weak and small
In your eyes, I no longer feel tall
I remain cursed in every single fall
Lord, only you can break this wall
Do you not see me on my knees
Must I beg and crawl?
I am at your mercy, crying out with grief
Open the path to the lighted hall
O' Lord, the day you judge me before your throne
Please tell me it was a lesson for me to stand up on my own
God for now I will end this talk
With the dignity to never look back
I ask if you were there on my endless journey of a relentless walk?


Copyright © | Year Posted 2010

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Date: 6/19/2015 4:12:00 PM
Though you ask many questions, you write clearly and we can follow easily your trend of thought. Often we already know the answers to our questions, but we keep looking for reassurance. Love your sincerity in these words. Don't we all have doubts and faults?:) hugs // paul
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Date: 10/1/2014 12:37:00 AM
Very deep, well written as always.
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Date: 7/21/2013 1:54:00 AM
pd don't forget to see my soupmail by tomorrow. Also I will have two for you there
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Date: 9/10/2012 5:01:00 PM
I wrote a piece titled "Who's my maker" im not sure if it's on here. I wrote a long time ago(15-20 yrs.) If it's not on here and interested let me know and i'll post it. Love your poem, not sure if I agree to whom it's too.. TC
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Date: 8/13/2012 2:21:00 PM
Its good to examine your realationship with God P D,, enjoyed the thoughts you shared here yours Joe..)
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Date: 8/4/2012 1:08:00 PM
awesome piece here, my friend - glad I chose this one to read. Hope you're having a great weekend
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Date: 8/2/2012 7:09:00 PM
I love the beauty of your initial self doubt - so much strength is required for this degree of honest reflection Linda - you honor Deity with your unpretentious considerations and artwork - the last three thoughts in the first stanza are painfully delicious! In revering Deity you have reverence for yourself my Sphinx - masterful honesty,with respect, J.A.B.
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Date: 7/31/2012 12:44:00 PM
I am a c atholic but still question it a strong subject i wrote one called the almighty on this hope you like nice write x david scott
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Date: 6/30/2012 6:57:00 PM
God is there everyday making us in the fire. it makes us strong when we hold on and believe that He is there. for He is. stop murmering and finish what God started. or you'll be in the wilderness for a long time.
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Date: 6/29/2012 10:54:00 PM
An excellent talk with God..Love how you question him and return question yourself..though we should never question God, I do understand what you were saying it!!
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Date: 6/21/2012 8:00:00 AM
heartfelt write, PD - wanted to read your first post on Soup : )
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Date: 6/15/2012 8:59:00 PM
WOW,I can relate p.d this is great writing!
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Date: 12/14/2011 11:27:00 PM
i see,,,it is times like these that we are most loved by him,,,when the eleventh hour has come,,,and there is no more time,,,we think,,,thank God he is just and true,,to forever be there for us,,with his gifts of friends,,gifts of love,,,gifts of knowledge that we wont make the same mistakes again,,,thanks for the words,,and honesty,,,for i can see your struggles as my own....and we will stand again.....
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Date: 12/27/2010 9:11:00 AM
it's talks like these that get's his attention. i've been where you are and i prayed that very same prayer. but what it got me was God showing me where he was in everything that has happened in my life. He even explained April to me in away that i understood. i still cried but i understood. john
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Date: 11/12/2010 6:44:00 PM
I love this piece P.D. Everyone struggles with faith and religion, and I just stopped believing. Long story, but I love that you write so openly about the times you feel neglected even by "God" and question who is the wrong, or what is the reason. I respect Christians who think! and hope on to faith but not because they accede. Love IT!!!! Oh, and I was hoping you could read and comment on my Angel (AKJ) or the Family piece. They need love lol and you always know what to say
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Date: 10/28/2010 9:35:00 PM
P.D.--How are you doing? Why are you leaving? Are you just taking a break? Do you have writer's block? I think you are holding out on a big secret, and I feel left out....see you around sometime in the future. Take care!~CA
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Date: 9/26/2010 8:13:00 AM
Love the prayer conversation ... hope you heard the answers. You are his gift to us, and poetry his gift to you.
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Date: 9/19/2010 5:22:00 AM
Beautifully written with so much emotion. I could easily relate, Thank you for your comment on my work.
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Date: 8/24/2010 4:15:00 AM
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Date: 8/19/2010 6:20:00 PM
awesome poem... very personal... thanks for sharing:-) this is exactly where i am at in my life right now to quote " Must I wake up like this today and tomorrow."
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Date: 8/15/2010 8:26:00 PM
He is always there when unexpected lol I love that about him .. GOD BLESS Sometimes even I feel like he is not listening or left but that is just when he shows up.
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Date: 8/8/2010 7:12:00 AM
A beautiful Poem from your crafted pen. Great lamentation for the light of God. But often pains and sufferings are given to us, so that we may come out from these difficulties with more strengths and courage. In every faith it is given to us to test our courage, patience and devotion. You have very beautifully expressed your words. Great poem showing the inner depths of your mind and heart. Love and best wishes….Ravindra…. Poet D
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Date: 7/28/2010 9:01:00 PM
Beautiful write! He does get out attention at times.
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Date: 7/24/2010 7:39:00 PM
Sensitive subject these days.You're words are quite interesting... Gary
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Date: 7/15/2010 12:46:00 PM
You are an awesome Slam poet!! Great writing! Thank you for sharing your talent. Love Lainie
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