My Weakness

GOD Wondrous of many blessings. Smiling never a frown. My prayers, Lord, are suddenly being ignored. I've taken a tumble of fallen down Lord, my life was plain and simple How did it come to this? Lord, now I carry a burden so deep A torn up life not easy to fix Hard to get my prayers before I sleep Bleeding only internally! Feeling very minutely! God, have you deserted me or is it me who deserted you? God, my Lord, my savior, how could you abandon me? Must I drown in my own sorrow? Must I wake up like this today and tomorrow. Why have you left me, or is it me who left you? God, I need you like never before. When I wake up, When I head out the door. Tormented in a mood ring of stock Heavily my tears hit the floor. God, do you not feel me, or is it me who no longer feel you? God, what is your plan for me? What things did I not see? I asked for you to forgive me in my ways of sin. Why do you let him provoke me? Lord, I forbid for him to win. Relieve me from his gutless pain. God, do you not believe me, or is it me who no longer believe in you? God, do you not hear my call My pitiful excuses make me weak and small In your eyes, I no longer feel tall I remain cursed in every single fall Lord, only you can break this wall Do you not see me on my knees Must I beg and crawl? I am at your mercy, crying out with grief Open the path to the lighted hall O' Lord, the day you judge me before your throne Please tell me it was a lesson for me to stand up on my own God for now I will end this talk With the dignity to never look back I ask if you were there on my endless journey of a relentless walk? By:PD