My Heart's Disease

I thought I had the cure to this very simple sickness. By destroying the need to flow the feelings of interest and deception. I took it in influence when I believed I had to do to be cruel. But the sickness brings itself back with just a dose of love. I need to not have a heart to heart with anyone or even myself. I want the grasping of assurance that I can keep the heart of my emotion's under the weight of my heel. I don't want to hear what the heart wants, I want to hear what I can say to make my heart stop! Stop with all the turning of my choices, and to only turn which way I should flow with the way I want to go.