My Fear

Say their fool you are just a tool
I’m the monkey on your back
From the day you were born
I have cut you no slack

Your deepest fear I’m always here
Just one shot away
To slide that needle into your vein
Spinning the world away

Your wooden beast, I’m your feast
I know you feel my call
I just live here in the shadows
Waiting for you to fall

Write your write trying to fight
What is a part of you
But in the end know my friend
You and I are not through


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The hell we aren't, never again. 
I have no idea if a monkey is a 
Wooden beast but after being a
junkie inside and out for over
twenty years this is a fear that 
is a part of my everyday. I praise
God for another day clean. 
Written for Matt's contest, mj
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009


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Date: 6/15/2009 7:04:00 PM
Hi, Michael! I like to congratulate you on your winnning poem in Matt's contest. It's extemely hard to put our past to rest; it reminds us how we were then...making us ponder over them with deep sadness. But the good news is that we must move forward and rely on God to guide us every step of the way! A very sad poem, reflecting the remorse of a past life and a heart willing to change. Wishing you continued success, Andrew. Warms Regards to your family.
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Date: 6/14/2009 4:49:00 PM
Michael, Congratulations on your well deserve placement in Matt Caliri’s “Funnest-Hardest Poem Ever. And for each new day- clean. You go! You're number 1... Lovingly, Dane
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Date: 6/12/2009 8:45:00 AM
Interesting write here, Michael. 2nd stanza/3rd line is either a Freudian slip (smile) or a play on words. Vein with an "e" is in your arm ... Vain with an "a" may be in your mind ... LOL ... anyway, congratulations on your win in Matt's contest !! Hope you let us know soon about your bionic knee ...
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Date: 6/11/2009 6:20:00 AM
Congratulations on your win.. awesome writing
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Date: 6/10/2009 5:36:00 PM
Congrats Michael on your well deserved win in Matt's contest! Love, Shar
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Date: 6/10/2009 5:35:00 PM
LCongratulations on winning in every sense of the word. Joyce
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Date: 6/10/2009 4:33:00 PM
Love the ending of this poem which leaves the reader with hope and inspiration. Congratulations on being one of the winners in Matt's contest. Enjoy your honor! Blessings to you for your ongoing faith messages. Keep on writing. Karen
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Date: 5/18/2009 2:38:00 PM
Nice poem! I like how you give contrast to teh fears that we all need to overcome! Good luck in the contest!
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Date: 5/10/2009 9:09:00 AM
mj... you bare your soul....and set us all free....thanks...jmg
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Date: 5/9/2009 5:55:00 PM
All the best in the contest, Michael, ... the one we face we in life ... the victor's faith is victory before the roll call of our work ... this is another great work ... keep shining, poet of light.
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Date: 5/8/2009 9:30:00 AM
Oh gosh Michael, see this is what I mean about you. Thank you for those wonderful comments and for sharing such special things in your life with me. You and your wife are such amazing people. Chills, tears, you just are constantly inspiring, loving and so giving. Honestly do not know why I am so lucky to have your priceless, and deeply treasured friendship. A rare blessing I will always hold so near and dear to my heart, that is you. Love, Shar
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Date: 5/8/2009 9:13:00 AM
You are and will remain better than most people I know, in every way. An excellent entry. Good luck Michael. Love, Shar
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Date: 5/7/2009 7:15:00 PM
You inspire all of us to confront our own "beasts" which take many forms. The one of which you speak is sinister indeed, but now you can hold your head high and help others overcome obstacles. God bless you, MJ. Love, Carolyn
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Date: 5/7/2009 4:59:00 PM
Michael...you have the ability to write and "spread the word".. What a special gift God has given you... and given us who love you.You've got a place for sure in the contest. BG
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Date: 5/7/2009 3:21:00 PM
fear not GOD cos he loves you,he loves us all,as we are,not better,not greater,he knows every hair we have in our head,and he welcomes us like his lost son,and fear not evil cos God is greater,fear not your past,its not there to condemn you,but its there to help you appreciate whom you ve become,no one is perfect,we are all sinners but Jesus loves us,and we are safe my friend--wonderful write,we all pass this fear many times,JUST TRUST in GOD'S LOVE---CHARMA
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Date: 5/7/2009 2:14:00 PM
God always take care of his children. Have faith and know He is always there for you. You fought the beast you conquered. God Bless Phyl
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Date: 5/7/2009 11:31:00 AM
Good luck in Matt's contest Michael. Please remember,You are a very special man, and you mean a lot to a lot of different people. The comments I've had on the tribute poem to you to testament to this my friend. Don't let the devil break you and let you give up on something you love, and people you love, and who love you! KEEP WRITING! You are FULL of HOPE and INSPIRATION! YOU ARE LOVED! ~TRUDY~
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Date: 5/7/2009 11:07:00 AM
Brother Michael, thanks for the love on my poem this morning and for laying it out....you are a heck of writer yourself and I always enjoy your writes...be well.
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Date: 5/7/2009 10:32:00 AM
IN All theese things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us, Romans 8 verse 37. you ar victorious MJ through Jesus our Lord, take care my dear friend, God bless you from diane
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Date: 5/7/2009 10:29:00 AM
a great poem MJ, you are free you are a child of God and as such the evil one can not lay a hand upon you, God bless you from diane
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Date: 5/7/2009 9:38:00 AM
You were delivered from the beast, you will be fine....God will take care of His children....always, Christy
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