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Memory Go Round

Memory Go Round

I’m on the Memory Go Round
Repeating every thought and sound
Yet no answer is found
Inside my brain I feel my heart pound
My clock tick talking
Because it’s too tightly wound
On this circular motion I’m bound

Yesterday today and tomorrow 
are bound together by sorrow
Up and down motion quicksand slow
Capitulation inside my brain
Questions to answers I’ll never know
The Memory Go Round horror show
Infusing my being head to toe
Each turn feels like another blow

Riding toy horses with maniacal eyes
Memories sickeningly familiar I despise
Reigns held tightly as I hold on with my thighs
Feeling the fear inside me sink and rise
I smile at distant pretty musical lies
while wondering if pretending is all that wise
Then with each rotation my inner child dies
And no one cares when he cries

It seems that familiar doesn’t provide rest
this Memory Go Round is my test 
Other’s crimes will never be confessed
on these funhouse images I’m obsessed 
Rotating from East back to West
Paint peeled and yellowed, wood splintered
I must get free, time to jump off and be blessed.

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M. L. Kiser

Date: 9/12/2018 5:11:00 AM

Well-penned; you've described the aging memory, rather well. I can so identify with this poem.

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 9/13/2018 8:41:00 PM

Thanks for your visit.

Freddie Robinson Jr.

Date: 7/26/2018 12:02:00 PM

Another modern Renaissance existential gem, Richard. You are a true Thinking Person's poet. This beaut made me really think. GREAT poem! Love and smiles.

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/26/2018 3:17:00 PM

What a nice thing to say. I endeavour to make complicated ideas simple. Thanks for the visit, soup mail and your latest poem.

Vladislav Raven

Date: 7/19/2018 9:36:00 AM

Hi Richard, another deep, full, emotional write from your golden pen. You open your heart to the pain within this write. A wonderful metaphor used for your deep thoughts. Wherever your poetic journey takes us it is always an honour and a pleasure to read. Your poetry makes the reader feel my friend. Have a wonderful Thursday. Your friend always....Mike.

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/19/2018 9:59:00 AM

You are kind, thanks Mike.

Eileen Manassian

Date: 7/16/2018 10:46:00 AM

Wow! I want you to break free...then again, it's from pain that beauty is born. This is an amazing poem, Richard. One feels the intensity of the ride...the pain...and the longing for healing. Hugs

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/16/2018 11:38:00 AM

Hugs back to you.

Brandy Nicole

Date: 7/12/2018 1:17:00 PM

Even though humor is found in this, your thoughts touch the heart in many ways. For those that have memory loss, it is very sad. Yes, moments around the mind like to go around and around at times. Many emotions tangle around your words. ~ Brandy

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/12/2018 2:08:00 PM

Thanks for the visit Brandy. Drop by any time. ;0)

Nette Onclaud

Date: 7/12/2018 11:36:00 AM

i get into this roller coaster of a mind's ride, rich... truly engaging piece!.. now, where was i going on this one?.. lol and huggs

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/12/2018 1:14:00 PM

It’s okay it will eventually bring you back to the exact same spot. Hugs Rick.

White Wolf

Date: 7/11/2018 1:28:00 AM

I know you meant "too tightly wound". Lol, just the grammar nazi in me. You make this multi rhyming form look too easy, matey! A wonderful job, Richard.

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/11/2018 8:08:00 AM

Thanks, I corrected it. Much appreciated have a great day.

Faraz Ajmal

Date: 7/10/2018 7:54:00 AM

What a lovely and interesting write it is, I am sure that everyone is being in that situation where they think of their whole life,believe me no matter how rich a person is, he too will have happy as well as sad moments, good as well as bad moments, that is how life is, sometime sweet, sometime saline, good luck and have a really nice day

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/10/2018 8:35:00 AM

Thanks Faraz, you as well.

Connie Marcum Wong

Date: 7/9/2018 7:12:00 PM

A wonderfully creative piece that I can relate so well to Richard! I do believe continued reading keeps the mind sharp. : )

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/10/2018 12:06:00 AM

Thanks Connie, your mind is Indeed sharp.

Tim Smith

Date: 7/9/2018 12:44:00 PM

Many times we get stuck there and have a hard time getting off... wonderful metaphor Richard

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/10/2018 12:07:00 AM

Thanks Tim.

M. L. Kiser

Date: 7/9/2018 12:11:00 PM

Been there...well penned poetry.

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/10/2018 12:08:00 AM

Thanks M.L. :0)

Kyle Kriticos

Date: 7/9/2018 10:55:00 AM

I can identify with these feelings Richard and you wrapped them all together wonderfully. The level of creative introspection here is 10/10. I tell you we poor our hearts out in this site they need to start paying us! Xd

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/10/2018 12:11:00 AM

Ha ha, maybe they’ll provide free counciling services. Thanks for the visit.

Casarah Nance

Date: 7/9/2018 9:20:00 AM

What a ride! This can mean so many things and a reader can find themselves as the subject of the piece. Brilliant descriptions and comparisons. hugs x

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/10/2018 12:13:00 AM

You are sweet, thanks Casarah. Hugs Rick.

Becca Teagan

Date: 7/9/2018 8:54:00 AM

I love the creative way you express memories of the past. I love the image of the merry-go-round, with the pretty music playing in the distance, meanwhile you're clinging to the pony, riding out the fear. And the best is that final line, the one that offers hope. Well done, friend.

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/9/2018 8:58:00 AM

Hi Becca, I hope all, is well with you. Thanks for the visit. Hugs Rick.

Alexis Y.

Date: 7/9/2018 8:42:00 AM

Wow! Richard, This is a deep verse. I'm going to read this again to get a better understanding. I see down below that you told Lyric Man that your website can give better insight to this well written piece. I'm my way:-) Alexis

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/9/2018 8:45:00 AM

Thanks Alexis, I appreciate you reading the piece and the comments.

Maria Williams

Date: 7/9/2018 3:47:00 AM

Each of us has our own personal merry-go-round I feel. That part of our life where we just don’t feel as though we’re moving forward the way we should. Life going round in a circle, not allowing us to get off. A most interesting flow of thoughts Rick, intriguing.....Maria hugs

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/9/2018 7:51:00 AM

Thanks Maria for the visit and hug.

Arthur Vaso

Date: 7/9/2018 1:31:00 AM

ah what poetry, this simply resonates with me! To say any more would be a confession!

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/9/2018 8:58:00 AM

Tell me more Arthur. I have my couch in a perfect spot looking out at the lake.

Lyric Man

Date: 7/8/2018 9:22:00 PM

How many layers are really on this onion.. this one travels deep and wide, Richard! It's fascinating and I wish you had notes giving us some clues as to when and where the rabbit trail ends!

Lyric Man
Date: 7/9/2018 10:24:00 AM

I will visit your site before the setting sun rest this day!

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/8/2018 10:51:00 PM

If you go to my website www.wisedummypoet.com it has a link to my book. In it all is revealed. Thanks for the comment and visit.

Carole Duet

Date: 7/8/2018 6:53:00 PM

What an interesting poem...yes, the Merry Go Round of Life can be daunting, boring, scary or happy, any and all of these. It's just up to us to control it as much as is possible.

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/8/2018 10:52:00 PM

Thanks Carole. :0)

Sunlite Wanter

Date: 7/8/2018 6:19:00 PM

I think this poem is deeper than what it seems to be on the surface. I enjoyed it in any case.

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/9/2018 7:51:00 AM

Much appreciated.

Harry Horsman

Date: 7/8/2018 4:29:00 PM

Oh, the Carousel of spinning yarns, delving in to the dark side,,Wonderful poetry though..Oh and has for form,,whats wrong with Rhyme?

Anne-Lise Andresen

Date: 7/8/2018 2:50:00 PM

- Many feelings, Richard - It seems like what you've experienced has been bad for you, and you're trying to forget it while you're unable to get rid of it - We make it possible to put things behind us ... trying to avoid thinking about the bad experiences we want to forget about - We must forgive, to move on - A great poem - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Vijay Pandit

Date: 7/8/2018 11:21:00 AM

Deep in thoughts and message, your poem is enlightening. You expressed the essence well in your last line..Jump free, time to get off and be blessed..well done, Richard.