In Those Moments

Why did I have to commit? Will I be well on the day? What if the dark clouds roll in And take all my joy away…. I don’t trust myself to speak When I know I’ll just bring pain I hibernate in my world Until I am once more sane I lessen the dose in fear I won’t be able to cope A little less every day Reaching the end of my rope I resign myself to chance Some “friends” might just walk on by Some will think it’s high drama When I break down and I cry There’s the gnawing pain of truth That I’m not completely well I’m either in paradise Or plunged into deepest hell Then to try to find the words To explain this parody That the smiling dancing girl Is bedridden broken me The words just die on my lips For no one can really know That the struggle that I face Is draining creative flow In silence I keep away Until the sun shines on me In those brief and sweet moments I’m alive and truly free Eileen Manassian Ghali