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In My Blood For Contest

I have two mothers
One gave birth 
The other gave me life
I was chosen
I was loved
I was wanted
But I was different
My adoptive family of pale complexion  
My dark features were in my blood

I was a loner
Shy and withdrawn 
I felt like I didn’t fit in  
I was mischievous 
Somewhat naughty
Questioned everything
Always rebelling
I thought I knew better
Challenging is in my blood

Anger runs through my veins
I still felt abandoned and unloved
I had so many questions
I was an unfinished jigsaw
Pieces missing from my life
What she is like?
Does she ever think of me?
Wonder where I am now
Imagining is in my blood

A troubled teen
With child yet still a child
A much older violent partner
With full mind control
I thought I knew what I was doing
But I didn’t and I lived a nightmare
Surviving as a true single parent
Would she be proud of me now?
Guilt is in my blood

Years have passed
The jigsaw is complete
I met her 
It seemed she accepted me
But the sad truth was
I didn’t like her
She wasn’t how I imagined
Her two younger children took preference
And she rejected me a second time

So now I know some answers
Some she refused to share
The anger is long gone
We no longer speak and I am glad
Rejection has been a part of my life
Lies and secrets too
I still think I know best
My kids turned out fabulous despite the poverty
They knew they were loved from the beginning
Loving them is in my blood

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Skat A

Date: 12/10/2015 10:38:00 PM

Hi Sarah, :-) Congratulations with your wonderful win! *SKAT*

Sarah Bryant
Date: 1/5/2016 7:35:00 AM

Thank you Skat :)

Poet Destroyer A

Date: 12/10/2015 10:16:00 PM

Congrats on your wonderful and sweet win. LINDA

Sarah Bryant
Date: 12/11/2015 11:38:00 PM

Thank you Linda, I am over the moon! Getting 1st place gives me such confidence and encouragement :) Sarah

James Inman

Date: 12/10/2015 2:02:00 PM

Beautiful write Sarah.

Sarah Bryant
Date: 12/10/2015 3:50:00 PM

Thank you James :)

Dr. Upma A. Sharma

Date: 12/9/2015 10:02:00 PM

Wonderful write Sarah .. congrats on ur first place win!

Sarah Bryant
Date: 12/10/2015 8:03:00 AM

Thank you Dr Upma :)

John Hamilton

Date: 12/9/2015 9:41:00 PM

Congrats Sarah well deserved first place

Sarah Bryant
Date: 12/10/2015 8:02:00 AM

Thank you John :)

Sandra Haight

Date: 12/9/2015 3:36:00 PM

Congratulations on your top of the podium win, Sarah! Excellent! Sandra

Sarah Bryant
Date: 12/10/2015 8:02:00 AM

Thank you Sandra :)

Pandita Sietesantos

Date: 12/9/2015 11:56:00 AM

Congratulations on your awesome first place win! pandita

Sarah Bryant
Date: 12/10/2015 8:01:00 AM

Thank you Pandita :)

Jan Terry

Date: 11/30/2015 11:18:00 AM

Good for you. You've learned that the blood origin running through our veins is no guarantee of love. Love is nurtured as we grow emotionally and physically. A very deeply felt and moving write. I hope the write was cathartic. Good luck in the contest but you really have already won. hugs.

Sarah Bryant
Date: 12/9/2015 8:07:00 AM

Thank you Janece, I always knew that deep down, I haven't seen my birth mother for over 12 years and I am ok with that. Blood is not always thicker than water. I actually have 3 mothers as my dad remarried so I also have a step-mother who is absolutely lovely. I am thrilled to bits this poem got first place, and thank you for your comments. Poetry is written from the heart :)

Sarah Bryant
Date: 12/9/2015 7:51:00 AM