In My Blood For Contest

I have two mothers One gave birth The other gave me life I was chosen I was loved I was wanted But I was different My adoptive family of pale complexion My dark features were in my blood I was a loner Shy and withdrawn I felt like I didn’t fit in I was mischievous Somewhat naughty Questioned everything Always rebelling I thought I knew better Challenging is in my blood Anger runs through my veins I still felt abandoned and unloved I had so many questions I was an unfinished jigsaw Pieces missing from my life What she is like? Does she ever think of me? Wonder where I am now Imagining is in my blood A troubled teen With child yet still a child A much older violent partner With full mind control I thought I knew what I was doing But I didn’t and I lived a nightmare Surviving as a true single parent Would she be proud of me now? Guilt is in my blood Years have passed The jigsaw is complete I met her It seemed she accepted me But the sad truth was I didn’t like her She wasn’t how I imagined Her two younger children took preference And she rejected me a second time So now I know some answers Some she refused to share The anger is long gone We no longer speak and I am glad Rejection has been a part of my life Lies and secrets too I still think I know best My kids turned out fabulous despite the poverty They knew they were loved from the beginning Loving them is in my blood