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when I wear your blouse feels like a hug from heaven ~ I’m missing you mum 06/19/23

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Constance La France

Date: 6/23/2023 8:39:00 AM

Jan, beautiful Senryu, I can feel the love and pain, well done !

Jan Allison
Date: 6/23/2023 3:45:00 PM

thanks Constance, I seldom write personal poems like this, hugs jan xx

Tania Kitchin

Date: 6/20/2023 4:50:00 PM

Jan, so sorry, a sad poem full of grief, may your wonderful memories and mementos bring you comfort.

Jan Allison
Date: 6/21/2023 11:26:00 AM

Thanks Tania, you have been here for me through thick and thin and its thanks to your limerick contests I came back to soup and started writing again:-) hugs Jan xx

Andrea Dietrich

Date: 6/20/2023 1:20:00 PM

So sad, Jan. Sorry your mom passed away.

Jan Allison
Date: 6/21/2023 11:25:00 AM

As you know, it was one of the major reasons i took time out Andrea, thanks for your support on and off soup xx hugs jan xx

Paige Turner

Date: 6/20/2023 8:46:00 AM

sending hugs x

Jan Allison
Date: 6/21/2023 11:25:00 AM

You can see a different side to me now Paige:-) hugs jan xx

Joanna Daniel

Date: 6/20/2023 4:55:00 AM

Very emotional and tender, Jan:)

Jan Allison
Date: 6/21/2023 11:24:00 AM

Thanks Jo:-) hugs Jan xx

Alkas Poetry

Date: 6/20/2023 4:49:00 AM

he who feels, carries a noble feeling, a gif in the heart, beautiful my poet friend, salute alkas

Jan Allison
Date: 6/21/2023 11:24:00 AM

Thanks Alkas xx

Eve Roper

Date: 6/19/2023 8:14:00 PM

heart felt verse ,,, lovely my friend

Jan Allison
Date: 6/20/2023 1:26:00 AM

Thanks Eve, I seldom write poetry like this but had to share. hugs jan xx

Kim Merryman

Date: 6/19/2023 8:11:00 PM

A beautiful, emotive poem, Jan. I'm sorry for your loss. Blessings, Kim M

Jan Allison
Date: 6/20/2023 1:25:00 AM

Thanks Kim, I used to visit nearly every day there is a gaping hole in my life:-( hugs Jan xx

Kim Rodrigues

Date: 6/19/2023 4:26:00 PM

All my mom’s clothes are still in her closet. Dad holds onto all just where they are…but occasionally when I clean his home, I wonder in and put her sweater to my cheek. We miss our sweet moms. Heart hurts…

Jan Allison
Date: 6/20/2023 1:24:00 AM

Aww Kim its so hard to let go - her clothes smell of her favourite perfume:_( hugs jan xx

Ann Gilmour

Date: 6/19/2023 3:28:00 PM

Dear Jan So sad to hear your dear Mum has passed and these few words are so full of emotion and love - a beautiful poem Jan. With kindest thoughts Ann xx

Jan Allison
Date: 6/19/2023 3:34:00 PM

Thanks Ann it was the main reason I took time out of soup, although I had originally planned to focus on my book but mum was put on end of life care from June until she passed in November, I used to visit almost every day so it has hit me so so hard and it is taking time to find some sense of normality in life. hugs Jan xx

Mystic Rose Rose

Date: 6/19/2023 3:09:00 PM

oh Jan, I have my moms old sweater and her night gown, it will be sitting in my closet until one day I go meet her. I so understand this, love xo

Jan Allison
Date: 6/19/2023 3:12:00 PM

Thanks Vie, its not like me to write personal poems but this one came to me as I was wearing an item of mum's clothing for the first time since she passed away. I had always loved it and couldn't bear to let it go to the charity shop. hugs Jan xx

Sotto Poet

Date: 6/19/2023 2:13:00 PM

Jan, this concise piece of writing encapsulates an immense depth of emotion. Its poignant sentiments are elegantly conveyed, leaving a profound impact on the reader.

Jan Allison
Date: 6/19/2023 2:21:00 PM

Thanks Sotto, I wrote it on my phone whilst on a walk before work. After I had posted it my son asked me if I was ok, I said its a poem about grandma.. he asked me to read it to him but i simply passed him the phone. I could see he was as choked up as I was. hugs Jan xx

James Marshall Goff

Date: 6/19/2023 1:11:00 PM

Felt this one Jan...I keep an old pair of work gloves Dad used & still wear them, seems to center me...nice Senryu

Jan Allison
Date: 6/19/2023 1:15:00 PM

I can relate big time James. Its taken some months to even begin to clear her belongings which have been in our garage. thanks for dropping by. Hugs jan xx

Ilene Bauer

Date: 6/19/2023 1:05:00 PM

Jan, this says so much in just a few words. So touching and beautifully expressed…

Jan Allison
Date: 6/19/2023 1:06:00 PM

Thanks Ilene, its an emotional piece for me but I never know what will spring to mind. I prefer humour but this piece had to be written

Lin Lane

Date: 6/19/2023 12:59:00 PM

Don't let go of her with your memories of her or her clothing. It keeps her close to you. Love you, Jan. Hugs.

Jan Allison
Date: 6/19/2023 1:41:00 PM

Thanks Lin, hubby cleared her room I couldn't go in the care home after she passed away...I still haven't been through the door. There have been bags and boxes in the garage which he has gone sorted and will bring me bags to go through. it's so so hard:-( hugs jan xx

Lin Lane
Date: 6/19/2023 1:09:00 PM

Take your time, Jan. It's a lifetime of memories that you're going through. It's something you must do alone, but don't forget I'm thinking of you.

Jan Allison
Date: 6/19/2023 1:05:00 PM

thanks Lin I was wearing one of my favourite items of her clothing scribbled this down on my phone on a morning walk. I am going through her clothes slowly, guess these things take time. hugs Jan xx