I'M Sorry I'M Wrong
I expressed how I'm feeling again,
that you dread
After you left, my words went through my head
I listened painfully to myself,
my same old song
it's not only your fault, I'm sorry
I'm wrong
To say; you've hurt feelings,
what you 'don't do' for me
How your lacking interest, is 'making' me be
the loneliness I feel, your burden to bear
I need to own up
my part, my share
It 'is' all the little things we don't or we do
Building resentment, letting it stew
You are closest to me, so all you have
or haven't done
has become an easy vessel,
my insecurities to run
If you only; 'Loved me better'
My heart says; You can
then I would love better, the person I am
I see my hurt feelings have always been there
Sorry I'm wrong, not yours to repair
The reality is;
I don't know how to get through,
loving myself without,
validation from you
I truly believe I judge,
who I am and can be
Solely on how, I see you seeing me
I've put you up front, to suppress not project
something within, you might see or detect
I'm not confident or tough, as I seem to be
I've never embraced, loving me for just me
When you step off the pedestal,
I've put you
I feel you see me differently, as unlovable.
I see it too.
I used to see myself, a long time ago
Through eyes of close friends, how they saw me
mattered so
Through time I saw clearly, that's no way to live
relying on others, their approval to give
I learned I'm okay, who I am
so I thought
until now with you, my old baggage I've brought
It's not up to you to 'make me', anything.
The onus on me, my own identity to bring
With all of that said; You have your own part to play
a relationship takes two,
meet each other halfway
We both have our needs, our challenges and desires
Nice words and kind actions lifts one up and inspires.
Together acknowledge, being attentive and kind,
will make us love better, each others design
Respond to the good, have a positive plan
To honor ourselves,
to love better, we can
I've learned when I'm loved and accepted, my self-love expands
Copyright © Okanagan Bell | Year Posted 2016
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