Happy-go-lucky

Happy, happy, let's be happy No more tears, let's not feel crappy Music blaring I'm in the zone I feel the most safe here at home Trying to not let darkness creep in My darkest days get me in a spin Ignore the noise, its coming through Darkness **sigh** is now in the room Fighting the demons one on one To be happy or sad, I feel so torn Depression my most faithful friend Happiness now at the end Body shaking, losing sleep No pills on earth can help, I'm in too deep Here we go again, its time to end Pills or blade, my usual trend In and out of bipolar I go Always heading into the unknown Keep it at bay is all I asked But that itself is an impossible task Triggered this time by betrayal and lies Ill health too from the genes I despise Not my fault this time its true But only I can make it through Happy, happy, let's be happy Music blaring, but theres only silence Thoughts in my head go round and around Crying myself to sleep is where I can be found My loyalty has turned to distrust Speak to people..only if I must Who knows when this cycle will end All I really need is a friend Body aches starting strong I just need to get to the end of this song Music blaring, my happy place But i can't hear the words its all just bass Speech now slured, vacant look upon me I'm in the depths of depression im so lonely Still trying to make it to the end of the song But its over and out from me..move on Happy, happy, let's be happy There's a brightness shining down upon me Is this relapse now at an end? Is my heart and mind now on the mend? Music is my therapist Avril's playing ...yep I hear it Word for word the song is playing I made it through with all my praying Music blaring, songs on repeat I will never admit defeat Knock me down as much as you like But a true heart will always win the fight Darkness now its time for you to go I have to say you put on a good show But for now let's part ways You will NEVER be able to stay Happy, happy let's be happy No more tears, let's not feel crappy Music blaring.....im so happy But I feel it inside, its coming back Turn the music up...but theres total silence Depression is back, darkness too Off to battle we go for round two So the cycle begins again, to live or die, i need some restrain Music is my happy place When i hear the lyrics again I will know i am safe Music blaring...songs on repeat I'm ready for you darkness whenever we next shall meet.