Exoneration

These days, when He watches her, she unconsciously moves 
                      a fringe of hair to veil her eyes, 
and even that is cause for His chagrin. 

The nights He comes home wasted, smelling of beer,
 He minces her with vile slurring words, incoherent bile 
that       slices holes and seeps      into      her soul 
                     until she feels her entrails          quiver.    

If she dares to speak, He seizes that moment to play Lord and Master 
       and put her in her serfage place (though ironically, the plebian is He).  
He screams at her, “What is that?      What’s that you say?” 
She yearns to know the shibboleth He seeks from her, 
                       that magic utterance      to take His wrath away. 
But they are words not granted her. 

Remission is not hers inside His house. And when the beatings begin,
 she bows on knees enfeebled, soundlessly submitting. 
          From this she has learned she will receive a swifter castigation. 

Afterwards - through the rumbling of His stirring in the bed beside her, 
she lies stone-like, replaying in her mind 
         what has become a more and more familiar fantasy:  
A young man, debonair and kind, touches sandy locks and moves them gently 
         to the side. He holds her face and smiles into her eyes.  
Life with such a man, she thinks, will be for her one day, 
                                                                            exoneration.


Written March 18, 2014 / 
for Shadow Hamilton's The Dark Side of Love Poetry Contest
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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A   Avatar
February 6, 2016 at 4:14 PM
Andrea, Congrats on "Your Dark Side of Love WIN!!!" XOX ~LINDA~
Onclaud Avatar
February 5, 2016 at 1:44 PM
i quiver upon reading this fine write, andie.. sweet congrats!..huggs and hug five
Scars Avatar
February 4, 2016 at 1:07 PM
Wow Andrea, so powerful and I LOVE the way you presenting your free verse, really cool *Smiles* -luloo
Gentry Avatar
February 4, 2016 at 9:26 AM
Congratulations Andrea on your win with this well-written dark write. Many disturbing layers to this. I like how you kept it real. A 7
Turner Avatar
February 4, 2016 at 7:56 AM
Well written on a very dark subject, Andrea. Congratulations on the win.
Hamilton Avatar
February 4, 2016 at 7:44 AM
dark, deep and full of suspense Andrea a significant poem congrats on 3rd place hugs
Allison Avatar
February 4, 2016 at 6:43 AM
dropping back again with my congrats Andrea:-) hugs Jan xx
Lane Avatar
February 4, 2016 at 6:24 AM
A somber story, Andrea, but so much truth for so many. Congrats on your placement.
Marcum Wong Avatar
February 4, 2016 at 5:00 AM
Congratulations on your placement near the top with this great entry Andrea.
Babcock Avatar
June 12, 2014 at 3:05 PM
I could feel the chill as I read this poem. How can a person beat another person and let this abuse go on. You said it so well in this poem. I hope and pray these gals will get out of that situation for no person should have to put up with abuse. Excellent poem. love phyl
Guillermo - Fraser Avatar
June 8, 2014 at 3:43 AM
oh my!!!!!! this is a compelling write for women.. :( knowing that such happens make me scared of getting married.. but seriously i feel sad about this reality.. each words are full of sadness, pain, hurt and a blind to dying hope......
Sirak Avatar
April 23, 2014 at 6:37 AM
Yep, I knew it when I read it the first time. We have a winner! Congrats.
Roberts Avatar
April 21, 2014 at 10:12 PM
Congratulations- Andrea ....Seren
A   Avatar
April 21, 2014 at 6:37 PM
Hola Andrea, awesome.... , Loved how you extracted this one away. Congratulations, this is a great win, for such a painful and realistic theme, when writing about this topic, In which phantom's around Abused Women. Have a nice day:) ~LINDA
Macfarlane Avatar
April 21, 2014 at 5:50 PM
Andrea, this is a powerful and heartrending write. Big congrats on a well deserved win. Hugs
Allison Avatar
April 21, 2014 at 4:39 PM
Brilliant poem on such an emotive subject. Well deserved winner. Hugs Jan x
Flach Avatar
April 21, 2014 at 3:59 PM
Thank you for entering the contest, Andrea and congratulations on your placement. This poem - like you, yourself - is very unique. I found this poem to be intelligent, descriptive and intriguing. I was left with the thought at the end, that the "young man, debonair and kind" that she fantasizes about, might actually be what she thought she was getting before the abuse started - interesting thought - but, it may just be my own. Joe
Torres Avatar
April 21, 2014 at 1:06 PM
a heartfelt story of a woman who'd been abused by the man she used to love...sad but true... a debonair can be a demon... beautiful poem!! Congratulations, Andrea!!! :O))
Walker  Avatar
April 21, 2014 at 12:49 PM
Beautifully felt Andrea... Congratulations on your win in the contest... Verlena
Horne Avatar
March 23, 2014 at 2:26 PM
super-powerful write, Andrea
Sirak Avatar
March 22, 2014 at 7:23 AM
Fantastic depiction of a abuser, full of graphic and intense images. I think I just read a winner.
Pettit Avatar
March 21, 2014 at 12:13 AM
This so-called "man" is not worthy of exoneration if he (your capitalization of the "H" makes me think you are describing God) treats her this way. Looks like a good entry for Joe's contest.
Austin Avatar
March 20, 2014 at 11:09 AM
Put this man in the Coliseum with the lions. Hear the roar of the satisfied women who he has savaged. That is exoneration. Love, daver
Watson Avatar
March 19, 2014 at 11:08 AM
I love the words but confess the way the poem is laid out confused me , I must keep reading this until I grasp it.
Anish Avatar
March 19, 2014 at 10:49 AM
Nice depiction of a fantasy. WE all have dreams! Peace & Love Matthew Anish
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