Christmas Alone

I sit alone looking out of my frost-covered window watching the snowfall upon the trees, upon the ground My thoughts are lonely I stare at a snow-covered mound where a lamplight glows watching the snow cover everything it touches wondering why I am alone staring at falling snowflakes looking through frost-covered glass feeling empty It's Christmas! Dear God, it's Christmas! and I am alone I haven't been alone in forty years and I have no understanding nor reason to celebrate no joy this Christmas My tears fall like snowflakes and my heart has become bitter and cold as Winter So I sit here and stare, thinking of nothing trying not to remember all the Christmas days spent before This is a new pain, a new hurt so I sit alone looking out of my frost-covered window trying not to break down again thinking lonely thoughts filled with shadows moving through snow-covered limbs of the pines she loved that hang above the grave of my beloved