Chasing the Man In the Moon

Chasing the man in the moon When I was a child all I wanted was a little warmth, some love and maybe a smile Not asking for too much I thought that it could make my life worthwhile The house was always cold it never became a home so I learned to be all by myself always alone Outside there was peace away from the chaos I found my solace in the darkness as the smiling face of the man in the moon shone down on me I thought to myself he is a kind and gentle man always happy and bright always waiting for me, only me in the stillness of the night. I was a scared little boy looking up at the expanse, of the eternal night sky, always questioning, always wondering...why? Then I would see in the heavens his smiling face of approval and I felt for the very first time that I was special to someone, that someone cared about me. Even though it was cold inside the house, I felt warm outside even in winter as I basked in the warmth of the smiling face of the man in the moon. As I grew older, the days would grow colder, and the nights were filled with ever more gloom, so I looked out my window searching the night sky looking for my shining light my special man in the moon When I bought my first car I would spend endless days and nights on the road looking for some place that would welcome me home. Up above me I would see that smiling face shining down on me in the distance always... in the distance... He seemed so large at times so close to to me I could almost touch him so...sometimes I would drive all night thinking somehow, if I went fast enough I could get closer to that kind man but...when dawn would break... so would my heart as I could see him slipping from my grasp vanishing away from me in the infinite horizon. I've spent my whole life running as fast as I could but I see clearly now that it's done me no good I've wasted my life waiting and hoping, for my fathers smiling face for his approval, for his loving embrace. The years have passed by quickly and I see the end is coming soon so...I guess I'll have to finally give up chasing the man in the moon. John Derek Hamilton June 20.2016