Bloody Nest

I can't believe I thought that.
In the shadows of my soul the whispers lingered. It murmured and elegantly sat massaging my last ego in the stool of regrets. My being was lied to, stomped at, shot with words anchored with rays of 
acidic venoms.

The truth choked me. 
It served anguish on 
my haunting mind. 

It's hypnotic that I once fancied a strangling viper that vapours the juice from my melted eyes into the mountain of torture.
I stumbled, I swayed to life's thorns of abyss and ensnared by love's cruel crumbs of illusion.

The bruises painted on my canvassed face chuckled at every punch till I lost the willingness to see the glory of the full moon in dark clouds. 
My eyes sank into the fire.
My eerie turquoise lips screamed out blue lavas. 

I was the sulfur who dared not escape the volcano. Those blows made me regurgitate. 
Made me lose my sapling smile.
Orchestrated the loss of myself.

I was thorn from my flesh like onions.
My blood, alarmed in pickled beet hues and I gushed like cano cristales, dangling on the verge of a slit through the wrist. 
I didn't want to leave my pumpkins 
I didn't want to see them watch me either.

It was selfish to dance with such folly. 
To roam in that nightmare of a dream.
It was selfish to leave them suffering the most but my eyes failed me.
My voice joined the chorus
My legs? The soil rejected them. 

A breezy glance of creamy smile after 
every hit. The devil's only laugh.
How do I make it painless?
No one is saving me from this. 
The world would plea I endure
They won't not believe, and neither did I.

Time stood still dancing to my whims. 
The wind in pretence, flinched.
The night? It barely covered my shame. 
I watched the hessdalen lights take flight without crawling on me.

Do I let his grey kicks 
take the last accolades
Or should I grab them 
myself, taking the glory?

It's bewildering, I thought that I was loved. 
I can't believe I thought that taking my breath would make it easier and filter the pain.
For every dig and storm he imprinted on me, 
I forgive myself.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2024

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May 24, 2024 at 12:27 PM
Hey Tonye, I love how your poem delves into the depths of personal turmoil and the painful realization of being deceived in love. The imagery of shadows lingering in the soul and whispers massaging the ego in the stool of regrets creates a haunting atmosphere, capturing the internal struggle and disillusionment. The metaphor of being lied to and stomped on with words anchored in acidic venoms paints a vivid picture of the emotional and psychological toll of betrayal. The truth serves anguish on the haunting mind, highlighting the devastating impact of facing reality.
George Avatar
May 24, 2024 at 5:47 PM
You've said it all. You have such wonderful insight Silent. Thank you always.
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May 23, 2024 at 11:28 PM
I thought that I was loved. The greatest illusion of all when it isn't true. Best give ourselves what we need and be kind and compassionate, we so need it, after the volcano erupts
George Avatar
May 24, 2024 at 6:32 AM
True true! Thank you Rose.
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May 23, 2024 at 11:23 PM
“I was the sulfur who dared not escape the volcano. ” what a brilliant metaphor! Gosh dear tonye! This poem, i can feel the acidic venom that you’ve tasted and how the world around including soil and air failed you! You deserve better , and sometimes it’s necessary to be selfish! In this selfish world! We need to prioritize and set boundaries for our own mental health and future! This poem is a powerful punch soul hitting! And i found the prompt line inspiring too altho i went too metaphorical. Not everyone can understand or comprehend depth of words used and youv done it so well dear tonye! I felt this poem deeply best wishes
George Avatar
May 24, 2024 at 6:35 AM
Oh, dearest Ink, I'm glad you liked it. Thank you dear.
George Avatar
May 23, 2024 at 10:51 PM
I find your poems a little above my level and hard to explicate or decipher. Still I can feel their depth and the complexity of the metaphors you use. To live in a bloody nest is so hard. Instead of warm embraces, if one gets constantly kicked, life will turn miserable. Still if one can forgive, it is grace. A powerful poem with lofty diction and great vocabulary.
George Avatar
May 24, 2024 at 6:35 AM
Haha dear Valsa. Thank you for visiting.
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May 23, 2024 at 7:16 PM
I appreciate the reflective nature of your poetry, Dear Toney. It captures the shared feeling of being tricked by fake affection. The emotional impact of your tale is really poignant.
George Avatar
May 24, 2024 at 6:36 AM
Yes it is. Thank you Dear Sotto for your wonderful insight.
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