Bipolar

I am bipolar, That’s what they say, Maybe the mood swings. Gave me away, Maybe it was the battle going on; Much deeper inside, That caused me to run, That caused me to hide. Peaks and valleys, up and down, Try to stay the course, They pull and they push, twisting, Tug and shove, inside out, I am powerless to this force, I am not living, just existing. The world is full of wonders, Happy breezes are blowing, The fresh air tastes sweet, My aura radiates, I am glowing, Roaming free on the open range, Mania rules on the peak, Soon it will change. This evil is back, Taunting me, haunting me, An overbearing cloak of black, Do not cross me, Or you will come to regret, The beast that swims, In my twisted sea. It’s too late, It has begun; crystal clear, Eyes wide open; heavy breathing, Tunnel vision and hate, The beast is seething, No time to run, no time for fear, Submit to fate. Regret is a vengeful troll, Who is always around, Rage is the noise, making a deafening sound, Anger is a blanket, suffocating my soul, Tortuously slow, Eating me alive, keeping me cold. No place to turn, nowhere to go. Never give in, never give up hope, In view of the trouble ahead, Buckle up and try to cope, Remember what I said, This is you destiny, punishment for your sins, To wait for history to repeat again.
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Kendrick Avatar
November 2, 2025 at 2:58 AM
There are meds for mental issues today so go see a mental health professional. Congratulations on your poem being featured on home page. Sara K
Christian Avatar
February 25, 2025 at 1:34 AM
well done on your featured poem. thanks for sharing
Swan Avatar
March 1, 2024 at 1:44 PM
Wow. What a rough sea you sail in. May you and and your crew keep your little boat sailing until the seas are calmed. J
Kerttula Avatar
November 11, 2023 at 2:53 PM
I am in AWE of this poem. It is not only well written but people fighting other battles can relate to your poem. I am not Bipolar but in mourning due to my husband passing. I feel those highs and lows, happiness and sadness sometimes at the same time. Thank you for sharing this poem. I am sure there are many other people can relate to your poem. Wonderful job!!! judi
Kettle Avatar
November 8, 2023 at 5:18 PM
I have bi polar and can definitely see myself in this poem, ty for writing it.
Finnis Avatar
May 7, 2023 at 4:09 PM
You perfectly captured the duality and the tortured waiting for the pendulum to swing. Wow!
Amato Avatar
February 12, 2023 at 4:33 PM
Samuel, I like your poem. Your honesty - right at the start is powerful, and continues through out the poem. Extremely difficult subject, (I totally relate) the pace and images bring the "ups" and "downs" sharply into place. I like the VISUAL shape of the poem...strengthens the poem. I usually don't care for rhyming poetry but I do in this piece. ___ good write. Thank you for sharing.
Lewis Avatar
April 25, 2022 at 11:04 AM
Totally brilliant... insightful and to the brim full of resonance, at least for me. I'm simply amazed and grateful. TJ
Seeker Avatar
February 1, 2022 at 8:09 AM
Thanks for bringing this to everyone’s attention. Powerful write
Scragg Avatar
August 11, 2021 at 12:18 PM
This poem is a powerful way to raise awareness Samual. It's interesting to gain the perspective of the sufferer. The more any mental/emotional health is addressed the better, I think. Thank you for sharing this. And congrats on it featuring on home page. Natasha.
J. Avatar
May 12, 2021 at 6:19 PM
Glad to see this featured! This is awesome! I love the feel of the whole work. Excellently done! All the best, Jonathan J.
Moss Avatar
November 22, 2020 at 9:55 AM
I relate but do not experience. Not me but somebody close. Well shown even from my limited perspective. A curse indeed that no one can reason away. Stay strong, good job expressing.
Mubyana Avatar
May 10, 2015 at 5:43 AM
Glad this poem has been featured. It's well written and deeply moving. It is wonderful.
Scardigno Avatar
May 8, 2015 at 7:26 AM
"Never give in, never give up hope." Powerful! I have written on this subject as well, but from the pov of the person living with someone with the disorder. Congrats on being featured!
A  Avatar
May 3, 2015 at 8:30 PM
Samual, Congratulations on having your poem featured this week. SKAT love
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May 3, 2015 at 8:15 PM
SAMULA, Dropped by to say hi and congratulate you on having your poem selected by Soup's Administration. This is a wonderful poem to have featured on the homepage. ~Always & Forever~ LINDA
Mantra Avatar
March 7, 2015 at 7:18 AM
Great job!
Poetry Avatar
March 4, 2015 at 10:34 AM
Boy can I relate to this! I suffer from Borderline Personality disorder and understand the feeling of almost helplessness completely.
Harper Avatar
May 22, 2013 at 8:05 PM
Excellent, Samuel, you tell us and share some of the difficulties of this condition, I have members of my family that share it, all the best to you.
Timperley Avatar
May 21, 2013 at 1:38 AM
Very dark poetry Samuel, I have heard of Bipolar but now I am getting an idea of what it is like through your write. Not nice at all, I will pray for sufferers of it. Great write. God Bless. Dave.
Gregory Avatar
May 20, 2013 at 11:26 PM
this is a good poem;...to wait for history to repeat again... poignant, keep making these issue transparent for us to read and reflect.
Badounts Avatar
May 20, 2013 at 9:55 PM
Greeat dark Poem\ genuine, introspective, honest. mixing good and evil and giving resolution at the end> clearly stated good work
Allen Avatar
May 20, 2013 at 6:06 PM
I appreciated the inside view from someone else of this affliction. I have also written on this subject. I call it ''The Manic Nightmare'' I intentionally wrote it without punctuation so it would be read breathlessly. Keep up the good work Tlee.
Koven Avatar
May 20, 2013 at 11:47 AM
The agony of mental illness is sometimes indescribable. You have created for others to see a glimpse into this hellish world. Your words capture the chaos of this otherness. It is a exceptional accomplishment.
Walker Avatar
February 17, 2012 at 6:15 PM
This is beautifully written, so descriptive. You take all those emotions of the ups and downs and make it very relatable and understandable. Wonderful write.
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