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Bipolar

I am bipolar, That’s what they say, Maybe the mood swings. Gave me away, Maybe it was the battle going on; Much deeper inside, That caused me to run, That caused me to hide. Peaks and valleys, up and down, Try to stay the course, They pull and they push, twisting, Tug and shove, inside out, I am powerless to this force, I am not living, just existing. The world is full of wonders, Happy breezes are blowing, The fresh air tastes sweet, My aura radiates, I am glowing, Roaming free on the open range, Mania rules on the peak, Soon it will change. This evil is back, Taunting me, haunting me, An overbearing cloak of black, Do not cross me, Or you will come to regret, The beast that swims, In my twisted sea. It’s too late, It has begun; crystal clear, Eyes wide open; heavy breathing, Tunnel vision and hate, The beast is seething, No time to run, no time for fear, Submit to fate. Regret is a vengeful troll, Who is always around, Rage is the noise, making a deafening sound, Anger is a blanket, suffocating my soul, Tortuously slow, Eating me alive, keeping me cold. No place to turn, nowhere to go. Never give in, never give up hope, In view of the trouble ahead, Buckle up and try to cope, Remember what I said, This is you destiny, punishment for your sins, To wait for history to repeat again.

Copyright © | Year Posted 2011




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Date: 11/22/2020 9:55:00 AM
I relate but do not experience. Not me but somebody close. Well shown even from my limited perspective. A curse indeed that no one can reason away. Stay strong, good job expressing.
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Date: 5/10/2015 5:43:00 AM
Glad this poem has been featured. It's well written and deeply moving. It is wonderful.
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Date: 5/8/2015 7:26:00 AM
"Never give in, never give up hope." Powerful! I have written on this subject as well, but from the pov of the person living with someone with the disorder. Congrats on being featured!
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Date: 5/3/2015 8:30:00 PM
Samual, Congratulations on having your poem featured this week. SKAT love
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Date: 5/3/2015 8:15:00 PM
SAMULA, Dropped by to say hi and congratulate you on having your poem selected by Soup's Administration. This is a wonderful poem to have featured on the homepage. ~Always & Forever~ LINDA
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Date: 3/7/2015 7:18:00 AM
Great job!
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Date: 3/4/2015 10:34:00 AM
Boy can I relate to this! I suffer from Borderline Personality disorder and understand the feeling of almost helplessness completely.
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Date: 5/22/2013 8:05:00 PM
Excellent, Samuel, you tell us and share some of the difficulties of this condition, I have members of my family that share it, all the best to you.
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Date: 5/21/2013 1:38:00 AM
Very dark poetry Samuel, I have heard of Bipolar but now I am getting an idea of what it is like through your write. Not nice at all, I will pray for sufferers of it. Great write. God Bless. Dave.
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Date: 5/20/2013 11:26:00 PM
this is a good poem;...to wait for history to repeat again... poignant, keep making these issue transparent for us to read and reflect.
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Date: 5/20/2013 9:55:00 PM
Greeat dark Poem\ genuine, introspective, honest. mixing good and evil and giving resolution at the end> clearly stated good work
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Date: 5/20/2013 6:06:00 PM
I appreciated the inside view from someone else of this affliction. I have also written on this subject. I call it ''The Manic Nightmare'' I intentionally wrote it without punctuation so it would be read breathlessly. Keep up the good work Tlee.
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Date: 5/20/2013 11:47:00 AM
The agony of mental illness is sometimes indescribable. You have created for others to see a glimpse into this hellish world. Your words capture the chaos of this otherness. It is a exceptional accomplishment.
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Date: 2/17/2012 6:15:00 PM
This is beautifully written, so descriptive. You take all those emotions of the ups and downs and make it very relatable and understandable. Wonderful write.
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Date: 2/6/2012 12:12:00 AM
Wow this is such a good write... I can relate to this, I've had many intense emotional ups and downs recently and they really take a toll on my quality of life. Regret is something that is especially bringing me down. But you are not being punished for anything because in reality we ALL do things we regret or feel guilty about. It's a part of being human. Never give up, it's going to be ok in the end :)
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Date: 2/5/2012 10:15:00 AM
What an amazing write! I loved this Samual. Such deep emotion penned for all the world to see. Thank you...Jon
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Date: 5/11/2011 9:26:00 AM
It's not a punishment. I work with kids. The roller coaster emotional effect is tough to deal with. Determination, and a sense of purpose can put these kids ahead as they have a stubborness that is a prerequisite for success. Never never never quit. God Bless. Vince
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Date: 5/7/2011 9:18:00 PM
Samual,, Congratulations on your featured poem this week... Wishing you a wonderful mothers day.. :-) p.d.
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Date: 5/6/2011 3:20:00 PM
Wow.. I like it. You might think I'm crazy when I say this but it seems to me that bipolor people are one the the nicest and one of the most interesting people I've come across. I'm just sayin. I enjoyed your poem. :)
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Date: 5/2/2011 8:09:00 AM
Congratulations on your poetry being featured this week Samual. Love, Carol
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Date: 5/2/2011 3:03:00 AM
The imagery makes is so real! Writing can be a very comforting vent to your angst. Enjoyed your good work.
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Date: 5/1/2011 7:07:00 PM
Very moving and horrifying at the same time. You captured it well and I got a glimpse of your world. good work.
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Date: 5/1/2011 1:11:00 PM
Congratulations on your poem being featured this week, Samual
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Date: 5/1/2011 10:04:00 AM
Samual, congratulations on having your wonderful poem featured this week~~
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Date: 4/19/2011 5:14:00 PM
This is a wonderful write and a real good description of bipolar. I know too well, I have two siblings with this dreaded disease. One that wishes to stay normal the other refuses. It is so misunderstood. Best wishes to you and continue to write, it is the best therapy. Caryl
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