Anxiety

Alone in this bed pondering the thoughts that make me fear the morning. Why am i like this? Is it the anxiety? Or just the way i am? I feel as if i’m on my last breath. Am i alive or dead? Do i do this to myself or is this normal? It’s been this way since i was in middle school. Too tired to be awake during the day its as if i was made to be awake during the night I’m afraid to be alone, could this be something causing these feelings? I don’t know what to do