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Peace of Mind

In the mere blink of a nightmare, I found myself rechained and trapped where my peace of mind had once before collapsed. The die has been cast, an old challenge from the past, one I thought long ago smashed, has incited another battle and painfully thrashed my peace of mind like collateral damage to aloofly leave behind. It’s twenty-seven years later, and I’m altogether strength-wise lesser for this matter. I’ve got mighty prayers but the sum-total of tassels for the best in life have battered and frayed my energy. It is retired and at rest, not lying in wait for another day or test. Now, I’ve no choice but to fake it, declare it is just hiding and there’s no abiding such when it's time for fighting. I know I screamed denial, felt a heavy weight disintegrate all to black. I remember holding him, sharing a crying jag while watching my peace of mind pack. My very heart, my special needs son, now full grown and still at home, woke me in the night in a state of fright, “Mama, I think I just had a seizure.” The next day came four more and my peace of mind took its suitcase out the door.

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Date: 7/31/2025 2:16:00 AM
Dear dear Caycay, I ready to give battle along your side and help that sweet son of yours. How I suffer to see children sick. Alas I am so far away from you. May you find peace, Hugs.
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Date: 7/31/2025 2:10:00 AM
My sweet, CayCay, I am so saddened by your news and my prayers are for you and your son. You, who shows nothing but kindness to everyone, I shall always remember you as the first to welcome me to this site. Know that you are in my thoughts and my heart, hoping that this too shall come to pass. Love and hugs, my dear poetry sister.
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Date: 7/30/2025 9:04:00 PM
It sounds like you're in the midst of trying times. It's hard to slay a monster only to have it rise again. I'm hoping for the best for you and your son.
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Date: 7/30/2025 12:53:00 PM
Very touching and heart wrenching poetry, I can't say I understand as I've never been a parent but,,,I empathize with your difficult situation. Blessings to you dear poet!
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Date: 7/30/2025 8:09:00 AM
Nothing is stronger than carrying burdens silently, as mothers do. Prayers for you and yours...Frederic
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Date: 7/29/2025 9:07:00 PM
My thoughts and prayers with you and your son. He is blessed to have you. I can read in your words how much you love him, though it seems your nerves are really raw. Hugs :)
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Date: 7/28/2025 11:00:00 PM
Oh a Mother's Love for her children is bittersweet... it comes with mild insanity. I remember bringing my first one home and getting so overwhelmed...Bless your heart and your son. I try to say this encouraging quote when I feel like that..." do everything you CAN do, then let God do everything you CAN'T" it is what works for me to let go of that control that burdens me with such worries. Thinking of you and your boy! What a beautiful expression of this trial in your life. Xo
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CayCay Jennings
Date: 7/29/2025 12:25:00 PM
I am grateful for the quote and will hold it, thank you for sharing it with me. Sincerely, thank you. Watching my son suffer while assuring him all is in divine order is extremely difficult and I'm sure you and most everyone, easily understands that. God is holding us both, I know. Thank you, Crystol for the warmth in your comments. Poetry hugs ... CayCay
Date: 7/28/2025 5:35:00 PM
For once, I'm speechless. This just blows me away, CayCay. ~ Screaming for Help
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CayCay Jennings
Date: 7/28/2025 6:57:00 PM
Say prayers, please. Hugs ... CayCay
Date: 7/28/2025 12:06:00 PM
- A life that many do not know, and that most people do not have to deal with, CayCay - The need for care is endless ... - A deeply emotional poem ... a topic that needs daylight - hugs
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CayCay Jennings
Date: 7/28/2025 12:22:00 PM
You have been exposed to the world of epilepsy it seems. So far, his are myoclonic seizures, the 'milder' ones and, of course I've already scheduled doctor appointments. Oh, are there going to be doctor appts but this time I don't have an employer stressing me out about time away from the office on top of stress about my son. Thank you, Anne-Lise. Poetry hugs ... CayCay
Date: 7/28/2025 8:28:00 AM
The deep emotional upheaval and concern that come with being a parent of a child with special needs, especially during medical emergencies, are explored in your wonderful poem, CayCay. It considers the difficulty of preserving mental stability in the face of ongoing difficulties and the sense of powerlessness that results from seeing a loved one suffer.
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CayCay Jennings
Date: 7/28/2025 10:38:00 AM
For you to read and comment w/o me visiting you first says a great deal, means your comments are sincerely heart delivered. You must have loved/love someone with special needs. In my life, poetry has been my therapy, and this just spilled out last night, very little revisions needed. It's pure coincidence there is a Peace of Mind contest. So glad you came by ... CayCay
Date: 7/28/2025 5:43:00 AM
Dear CayCay, Reading your poem this morning moved me deeply. The way you’ve laid bare the struggle for peace of mind and the way it can feel so fragile, so easily shattered and yet so fiercely clung to. It speaks volumes about your strength and the weight you carry. I’m so sorry for the pain and fear that moment brought you and your family. Summer Blessings, Dear CayCay, Daniel
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CayCay Jennings
Date: 7/28/2025 12:02:00 PM
Thank you, Daniel. I wondered if you would read this and recall my poem, "Daddy and Appendicitis' as entered into your contest because I talk about the seizures STOPPING in that write. I believe you did feel it, poets can't be 'wimpy things'. I appreciate your comments. Poetry hugs ... CayCay
Date: 7/28/2025 5:36:00 AM
Oh CayCay your powerful poem completely grabbed and tugged at my heart. I understand anxiety and its hold ….depleting all peace of mind and for me accompanied over the years with panic attacks. I am so sorry your son suffers and has suffered with those seizures CayCay….life is not easy especially when our child or loved ones are suffering….Big Cuddles my friend! Debx
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CayCay Jennings
Date: 7/28/2025 12:07:00 PM
Deb, thank you for sharing emotion with me. Anxiety goes into my left arm, and it actually feels good to beat my arm with a wooden meat pounder or to my digestive track, upsetting my guts. Thank you for your empathy as it may go into the universe as prayer manifesting perfect health. I embrace your message. Poetry hugs ... CayCay
Date: 7/27/2025 11:05:00 PM
WOW! I did not anticipate that explosive ending...then the closing lines... . "The next day came four more and my peace of mind took its suitcase out the door." I am without words...stunning.
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CayCay Jennings
Date: 7/28/2025 12:09:00 PM
Wayne, I cannot think of a more fulfilling comment than 'I am without words'. When that happens to me it means the poem effectively blew me away. Thank you for taking the time to share your reaction to my poem. Poetry hugs ... CayCay
Date: 7/27/2025 9:09:00 PM
Hardships in live and endurance.Challenges in life well described.
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CayCay Jennings
Date: 7/28/2025 12:11:00 PM
Thank you, Akham, for the visit and comments. I must come see you someday, don't know that I've had the pleasure yet. Poetry hugs .... CayCay
Date: 7/27/2025 8:39:00 PM
Excellent CayCay, I wish I couldn't say I can identify with this, but I can. For me it was 26 years of dealing with health problems with my late wife. There were times I just wanted to stand on a mountain top and scream while I pulled my hair out. Well done, this touched me in places few ever have. Ron
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CayCay Jennings
Date: 7/28/2025 12:18:00 PM
I, too, wish you couldn't say you identify. Unfortunately, if one can't, they've either simply not experienced that type of pain yet, the fates were especially kind to them, or they have a numb heart. Are the fates ever that kind? As a poet, I'm thrilled to have touched you that deeply. Poetry hugs ... CayCay

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