Depression and Sadness
I was living in darkness
My world came down
Crashing on me
I felt like someone
Stabbed me and twisted
The knife and pulled
My heart out of chest
I wanted to escape reality
I wanted to be erased
I wanted to die
I felt so alone
Friends really weren't friends
I had cut both wrists
I jumped into traffic
I still couldn't die y
It's not my time
GOD replied when you finish
My assignments you will go home
I had overdosed on crack
My heart had stopped by
Grace of GOD and his healing and
Miracles he showed me
What my death bed
Would be like if I
Didn't get out of darkness
Go back to being in light
You can't serve two God's
Our GOD is a jealous GOD
So I started to change
My surroundings and environments
And got olive oil and anointed my whole
House speaking GET THEE BEHIND ME
SATAN YOU HAVE NO
AUTHORITY IN THIS HOUSE NO
WEAPON FORMED AGAINST ME
SHALL PROSPER GO TO
THE PIT OF HELL WHERE
YOU BELONG IN JESUS NAME AMEN
ALL I CAN SEE
WAS SHADOWS OF DARKNESS
SURROUNDING ME WHERE I GO
I HAD OPENED THE PORTAL
OF HELL AND DIDNT NO
I LET SATAN'S DEMONS INTO MY LIFE
I HAD TO PRAY AND ASK GOD
TO TAKE THESE EMOTIONS
FROM ME MAKE ME PURE
FORGIVE ME FOR MY SINS
COME INTO MY HEART
AND GUIDE ME SHOW ME
HELP ME AND LOVE ME
TAKE THIS HURT
PAIN ANGER RESENTMENT
ABANDONMENT NEGLECT
RAGE SUICIDE THOUGHTS
HOMICIDAL THOUGHTS
AND GUILT AND BLAME
AND SHAME AND SORROW
AWAY FROM MY HEART
MY CHEST IS POUNDING
IT HURTS SO BAD
NO ONE LOVES ME
NO ONE WILL ACCEPT
ME OF WHO I AM
NO ONE CARES FOR ME
NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME
WHY AM I HERE ON EARTH
MY OWN CHILDREN HATE ME
WHAT DO I POSSIBLY HAVE
LEFT HERE LET ME DIE
MY WORLD HAS BEEN
TORN UPSIDE DOWN
I HAVE NOTHING
WHY WONT YOU JUST LET
ME DIE I DON'T BELONG
HERE ANYMORE
THEY DON'T LOVE ME
NOR DO THEY WANT ME
IN THEIR LIVES
IM SO DEPRESSED
DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO
Copyright © Shannon Melke | Year Posted 2017
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