Didn'T You Know
Decisions..decisions
Incisions..incisions
Because, didn't you know?
It was my body.
Why?
I am human
I have emotions and feelings too, don't I?
Or at least I did
Rip out my heart, tear out the innocence
I'm trying ...I'm trying to make sense
But there's this hole you drove me to
Yes..you
You're heading the wrong direction
I said in desperation
This black empty place
That I first saw in your face
And you smile as you replace
My kindness with fear
Eternal tear
Drop drop.. thighs.. thoughts
Tug of war as I fought
Rip my dress off
As you rip out my soul
Tear off my heels
Leave me in fear
Bruises and scratches
Cuts and scars
Breathing so hard
But you love it all...I see it in your eyes
Force yourself inside
The terror in my face
It makes your heart race
Pull my hair and stop my breath
I just want to go home..I just want to home
I'll do whatever you want just please let me go
Because ...didn't you know
I have a son
I am a mother
I am a daughter
He needs me it can't be over
& I'm not done!
I know If I run I'll die
If I go along I'll cry
For the rest of my life
Some days I truly wish you would have just left me for dead
I should have gone out fighting instead
But, I chose to cowardly survive
Now all I want to do is lie
You kept living life
The evil in your eyes
As I die everyday inside
& I need you to feel my terror
& I need you to feel my pain
So you can understand the chaos that I feel inside everyday
So you can try to understand how I still fight to stay
But he took something powerful from me that day
What am I fighting for?
I'm not so sure anymore
Because, didn't you know?
It was my body.
Why?
Decisions..decisions
Incisions..incisions
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