Didn'T You Know

Decisions..decisions Incisions..incisions Because, didn't you know? It was my body. Why? I am human I have emotions and feelings too, don't I? Or at least I did Rip out my heart, tear out the innocence I'm trying ...I'm trying to make sense But there's this hole you drove me to Yes..you You're heading the wrong direction I said in desperation This black empty place That I first saw in your face And you smile as you replace My kindness with fear Eternal tear Drop drop.. thighs.. thoughts Tug of war as I fought Rip my dress off As you rip out my soul Tear off my heels Leave me in fear Bruises and scratches Cuts and scars Breathing so hard But you love it all...I see it in your eyes Force yourself inside The terror in my face It makes your heart race Pull my hair and stop my breath I just want to go home..I just want to home I'll do whatever you want just please let me go Because ...didn't you know I have a son I am a mother I am a daughter He needs me it can't be over & I'm not done! I know If I run I'll die If I go along I'll cry For the rest of my life Some days I truly wish you would have just left me for dead I should have gone out fighting instead But, I chose to cowardly survive Now all I want to do is lie You kept living life The evil in your eyes As I die everyday inside & I need you to feel my terror & I need you to feel my pain So you can understand the chaos that I feel inside everyday So you can try to understand how I still fight to stay But he took something powerful from me that day What am I fighting for? I'm not so sure anymore Because, didn't you know? It was my body. Why? Decisions..decisions Incisions..incisions