Pages of Life.
I'm so confused.. I have no idea what to do, what way to go, and when? I hate that feeling
when you see everything moving to fast, like all the bad stuff in your life is happening
to quick, and you wanna grab it so you can control it, but you cant!!!!!! Its like you
want to make sure everyone around you is happy even though your the one sitting in the
dark crying or even holding it all in so that no one knows! Some times when you see
something in your life going wrong, you tend to tell yourself every things going to be ok
when you know damn right its not and you want to hold on to that even when everyone around
you notices it and tells you what you don't what to hear! I'm tired of failure, I am tired
of hurting. I look back at my life and the things I've done and ask myself that maybe if i
would of done this than this wouldn't of happened or its like if you knew it would of
turned out this way you wish you would of never done that. But hey its how life is right!?
I have to really find out whats going on cause i don't what it to bit me in the ass.......
I have to keep telling myself that im not alone and there are a lot of other people out
there feeling the same way or even worse. i hate not know whats going to happen next cause
then im not prepared for what ever it is! Have you ever wanted something so much and then
in the end you cant have it or even you think your going to have it for a long period of
time and it stuck in you head like you carved in to a tree but really your mind and then
it cant happen and ever where were you go you see that tree and it hurts so much to see
that and know that it is not going to happen! One of the feelings i hate the most is
regret, that hurts the most! I even feel like im in a crowded room and no one notices me
and it just makes me drift away more and more to where your mind plays tricks on you.
Really this all makes you think who really cares about you or even if your friends really
are your true friends! well the pages of life have turned and its time to read on in the
story cause theres is no story if you really spend time in that one part of it cause
you'll never know what happens next if you don't go ahead............................
Copyright © Noel Gerardo | Year Posted 2008
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