little flower
I once was a pretty flower
Untainted by the wind
People flocked to see me
As I bloomed in the spring
But now as the spring fades
I can feel it washing away
My beauty and excellence
My security and grace
I have the same stem
Same name same face
But I no longer attract the sun
Instead a deep stormy gray
Is it something I did
or wanted to say
Or is it simply my pure youth
slipping away
Cause now as I walk through the world
all I feel is envy
Why does she get pure roots
While mine are twisted and muddy
Why is her hair so silky
While mine is a big knot
Is beauty an attribute
Or something that’s taught?
For I once felt pretty
As I floated through the world
But now I feel big
Far to much for a girl
Like I’m watching from branch
Rather than being in the moment
Like my heart is to hurt
On the verge of exploding
My cheeks are no longer pink
Instead a sick green
Like my sister and my mother
And her mother before me
I watch as they look in the mirror
And hate what they see
But when I look at them
All I find is beauty
But they don’t believe it when you tell them
Neither do I
So our petals wither
As we scream at the sky
Why am I not like her ?
Where are my blue eyes?
Why does my skin wrinkle
While hers delicately shines?
I can’t love my flaws
That I’m an individual
So I paint my face
And weep at the vigil
Of what once was mine
And faded in the night
How can I believe
That my future is bright
When the world I know
Is scared of life
Of growing old
and waving goodbye
I know its awfully twisted
But I believe their burning lies
Let their crooked thoughts
Tarnish my teary eyes
Cause I want to be pretty
So full of grace
But how can I be pretty
If I hate my own face
So I watch as my thorns grow
And I get meaner each day
Jealousy running through
My ink blue veins
For I once was a pretty flower
Untainted by the wind
But now I’m an ugly person
And I’m scared of what that brings
Copyright © beddy mouks | Year Posted 2024
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