Chaotic Thoughts
Awaken in this reality,
This realm of chaos and
Utter confusion, I'm lost yet
I'm comforted by the noise in
The air that I find my
Thoughts drowned.
What you ask is
Not of me to partake, for
I've missed my turn at
Being cared for, the way
I care for all of you.
How could this
Be? I've not an
Ounce, an inch, a clue of
How this came to be.
Mass destruction lingers...I cry -
Time ticks on and
On.
Childish imperfections are
Frank and apparent like unto
The stench of mold, the
Taste of rot..!
Am I alone in this
Struggle? This battle? This fight? I
Must be - for one look in each
Direction leaves emptiness of miles
And miles long-
But - thanks to you and
You and --- (sigh)
I've found strength in
All I do
I've found courage to
Stand on two,
I've grown up when I
Could have fallen-
I've tried harder when
I could have
Quit.
Thanks to these, at times
Impossible feats
I've become a person of
Stature,
One that others might choose
To befriend.
Although time does
Fade and
Open wounds do heal
And people forgive (some
Forget,)
I do love but...
I will always remember.
Copyright © Ashlyn Russell | Year Posted 2005
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