HOW CLOSE WAS YOU TO BEING ME?
THIS TOPIC IS RARELY DISCUSSED IN THE OPEN. MY STORY BEGAN IN THE DARKNESS, I WISH TO BRING IT TO LIGHT.
IT STARTED IN MY FAMILY AS FAR BACK AS MY GRANDFATHER, THEN UNCLES, DAD , STEP FATHERS A COUSIN, AND BOYS DOWN THE STREET AND A STEP BROTHER. YET NOT ONE OF US SPOKE OUT. HOW MANY COULD WE OF SAVED IF WE FELT SAFE TO SPEAK? THIS HAPPEN TO MANY OF MY FAMILY MEMBERS, MY AUNTS, COUSINS, MYSELF , A BROTHER, A SON , A DAUGHTER AND MY STEP SISTERS,
THESE ARE THE ONES I KNOW OF,
THEY DON'T WRITE MUSIC SONGS ABOUT IT.
IT'S KIND OF TABOO TO SPEAK ABOUT IT, AS IT IS WITH ANY TYPE OF ABUSE, I THINK THE SHAME OF IT WAS KEPT HIDDEN FAR TOO LONG,
WE HAVE THE# ME TOO MOVEMENT THAT DID NOT EXIST BACK THEN. THERE IS ADDICTION HELPLINES ,SUICIDE HELPLINES. ABUSE HELPLINES , BUT NONE OF THESE IS MADE EASY ACCESSIBLE TO A CHILD.
ALTHOUGH IT CAN BE OUTSIDERS, IT'S USUALLY YOUR OWN FAMILY MEMBER. THIS IS PART OF MY STORY.
AND JUST ........
HOW CLOSE IT WAS TO BEING YOU?
THINK HARD AS TO WHO?
HE ONLY DATED WOMEN WITH TWO DAUGHTERS OR MORE.
BLINDED BY WHAT'S IN STORE
NO MOTHER IN THE HOUSE
JUST MY FATHER ONCE HER SPOUSE
BEHIND THE DOORS OF CHURCH
TH IS WHERE HE SEARCH.
YOU TOOK MY SILENCE
FOR YOUR ALLIANCE
YOU STOLE MY INNOCENCE
FOR YOUR SIN FULLNESS
ALWAYS MADE TO WEAR SILKY WHITE
IN THE DARKNESS OF NIGHT
I'M NOT THE ONE YOU WED
GET OUT OF MY BED
I CRIED OUT TO GOD
YOU'VE LEFT ME FLAWED
I'VE NO ONE TO TELL
OF THIS LIVING HELL
HE LEFT ME BROKEN
WORDS UNSPOKEN
I FINALLY REACHED THE AGE
NO LONGER IN YOUR RANGE
I'M NO ,LONGER OF USE
YOU'VE CHOSEN ANOTHER TO ABUSE
I SHOULD OF SPOKE OUT
TOO LATE FOR THE DOUBT
ONE WEAKER THAN I
SHE CHOSE TO DIE
NO LONGER IN YOUR GRIP
FROM WORLD SHE WAS RIP
NOT THE MAN THE WORLD HAS SEEN
NOW OUR GOD WILL INTERVENE
NOW YOUR DEAD
AND GOD HAS SAID
TO HELL WITH YOU
YOU'LL GET WHAT'S DUE.
IN REMEMBRANCE OF BETH.
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