HOW CLOSE WAS YOU TO BEING ME?

THIS TOPIC IS RARELY DISCUSSED IN THE OPEN. MY STORY BEGAN IN THE DARKNESS, I WISH TO BRING IT TO LIGHT. IT STARTED IN MY FAMILY AS FAR BACK AS MY GRANDFATHER, THEN UNCLES, DAD , STEP FATHERS A COUSIN, AND BOYS DOWN THE STREET AND A STEP BROTHER. YET NOT ONE OF US SPOKE OUT. HOW MANY COULD WE OF SAVED IF WE FELT SAFE TO SPEAK? THIS HAPPEN TO MANY OF MY FAMILY MEMBERS, MY AUNTS, COUSINS, MYSELF , A BROTHER, A SON , A DAUGHTER AND MY STEP SISTERS, THESE ARE THE ONES I KNOW OF, THEY DON'T WRITE MUSIC SONGS ABOUT IT. IT'S KIND OF TABOO TO SPEAK ABOUT IT, AS IT IS WITH ANY TYPE OF ABUSE, I THINK THE SHAME OF IT WAS KEPT HIDDEN FAR TOO LONG, WE HAVE THE# ME TOO MOVEMENT THAT DID NOT EXIST BACK THEN. THERE IS ADDICTION HELPLINES ,SUICIDE HELPLINES. ABUSE HELPLINES , BUT NONE OF THESE IS MADE EASY ACCESSIBLE TO A CHILD. ALTHOUGH IT CAN BE OUTSIDERS, IT'S USUALLY YOUR OWN FAMILY MEMBER. THIS IS PART OF MY STORY. AND JUST ........ HOW CLOSE IT WAS TO BEING YOU? THINK HARD AS TO WHO? HE ONLY DATED WOMEN WITH TWO DAUGHTERS OR MORE. BLINDED BY WHAT'S IN STORE NO MOTHER IN THE HOUSE JUST MY FATHER ONCE HER SPOUSE BEHIND THE DOORS OF CHURCH TH IS WHERE HE SEARCH. YOU TOOK MY SILENCE FOR YOUR ALLIANCE YOU STOLE MY INNOCENCE FOR YOUR SIN FULLNESS ALWAYS MADE TO WEAR SILKY WHITE IN THE DARKNESS OF NIGHT I'M NOT THE ONE YOU WED GET OUT OF MY BED I CRIED OUT TO GOD YOU'VE LEFT ME FLAWED I'VE NO ONE TO TELL OF THIS LIVING HELL HE LEFT ME BROKEN WORDS UNSPOKEN I FINALLY REACHED THE AGE NO LONGER IN YOUR RANGE I'M NO ,LONGER OF USE YOU'VE CHOSEN ANOTHER TO ABUSE I SHOULD OF SPOKE OUT TOO LATE FOR THE DOUBT ONE WEAKER THAN I SHE CHOSE TO DIE NO LONGER IN YOUR GRIP FROM WORLD SHE WAS RIP NOT THE MAN THE WORLD HAS SEEN NOW OUR GOD WILL INTERVENE NOW YOUR DEAD AND GOD HAS SAID TO HELL WITH YOU YOU'LL GET WHAT'S DUE. IN REMEMBRANCE OF BETH.