Dad Died Today
January 8 2014
Dad died this morning
Nothing changed
The world didn't stop turning
The sun is still in the sky
The days go just as fast
But dad died this morning
January 22 2014
Dad died about 2 weeks ago
I still haven't cried
Is there something wrong with me
Why does everything feel the same
Mom cried
My siblings cried
Did i not love him enough
May 8th 2014
Dad died about 4 months ago
We had his funeral
Michael pushed me into someone
I hate michael
I still haven't cried
I'm starting to think there's just something
Wrong with me
January 8th 2015
It's been a year since dad died
I'm still getting cards
From friends and neighbors this time
I like my new teacher
I'm in kindergarten now
I've started to remember little snapshots from
The hospital
I just try to forget
January 8th 2017
It's been 3 years since dad died
I cry for him now
I cry for the preschooler who always got
Weird looks Because when the girls yelled daddy’s here she couldn’t yell back
I cry for the little girl who always got attached
to her female teachers
And never knew why
I cry for my only memory is that of myself
Standing in the door of the hospital room for the
Third week in a row
I saw a man in the bed before me
Wires and tubes running through his arms
His chest rose and fell without a sound
His feet move gently under the thin covers
His brown hair falling out all over the white stained pillows
But i didn't see dad
Because dad was at home waiting for me to
get out of the car
Dad had gotten me strawberries from the
Store
Dad was okay i thought or so i wished
January 8th 2019
Dad died 5 years ago
Nothing changed
The world didn't stop turning
The sun is still in the sky
The days go by just as fast
But hugs feel more hollow
Strawberries aren't as sweet
Summer nights are colder
It's been almost 10 years since dad died
Im 13 years old now
I don't think about him that often
But the little emptiness i feel in my gut sticks
All the same
When you get off the bus today
Or when you throw your bag in the backseat
Of your car
Or when you kick your shoes off at the door
Tell your dad you love him Because I cant
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