Dad Died Today

January 8 2014 Dad died this morning Nothing changed The world didn't stop turning The sun is still in the sky The days go just as fast But dad died this morning January 22 2014 Dad died about 2 weeks ago I still haven't cried Is there something wrong with me Why does everything feel the same Mom cried My siblings cried Did i not love him enough May 8th 2014 Dad died about 4 months ago We had his funeral Michael pushed me into someone I hate michael I still haven't cried I'm starting to think there's just something Wrong with me January 8th 2015 It's been a year since dad died I'm still getting cards From friends and neighbors this time I like my new teacher I'm in kindergarten now I've started to remember little snapshots from The hospital I just try to forget January 8th 2017 It's been 3 years since dad died I cry for him now I cry for the preschooler who always got Weird looks Because when the girls yelled daddy’s here she couldn’t yell back I cry for the little girl who always got attached to her female teachers And never knew why I cry for my only memory is that of myself Standing in the door of the hospital room for the Third week in a row I saw a man in the bed before me Wires and tubes running through his arms His chest rose and fell without a sound His feet move gently under the thin covers His brown hair falling out all over the white stained pillows But i didn't see dad Because dad was at home waiting for me to get out of the car Dad had gotten me strawberries from the Store Dad was okay i thought or so i wished January 8th 2019 Dad died 5 years ago Nothing changed The world didn't stop turning The sun is still in the sky The days go by just as fast But hugs feel more hollow Strawberries aren't as sweet Summer nights are colder It's been almost 10 years since dad died Im 13 years old now I don't think about him that often But the little emptiness i feel in my gut sticks All the same When you get off the bus today Or when you throw your bag in the backseat Of your car Or when you kick your shoes off at the door Tell your dad you love him Because I cant