Temporary Impact
Dad
Our blood doesn't relate
But our hearts do
For me, do you have any hate
For leaving too
Do you ever miss
What we once had
Does it have to be like this?
Does it make you feel bad?
Will you please call
I miss you
Am I the problem after all?
Was it not the right thing to do?
Are we not family?
Like we once were
I must face reality
That you are no longer my father
Is that what you want?
Will it make you happy?
Im tired of you being nonchalant
Do you even see im unhappy?
When people ask how many kids you have
Do you include me into your answer
Or have we split in to halves?
If so, I pray you'll reanswer
Im trying so hard
To have what I thought
Was my dad as my guard
Without you leaving for me to rot
You filled all the roles
11 years you were with us
Tied with mine and moms souls
You left with so much to discuss
You took my sister
Away from everyone
June 13th, is the last I've seen her
I miss her more than the sun
Do you remember?
You took me to my first dance
The father daughter
When I first gave you a chance
The first time I called you dad
Watching your reaction
The face you had
Lit up with a surprised reaction
Is all of that just gone?
Everything we used to do
Especially fishing at dawn
Im writing too much, is this my cue?
Yes, I know the damage done
But why does this mean
The family has to be gone
I thought I was helping, not making a scene
Im sorry, I really am
Can I still call you dad?
Or does that make you leave and scram
I get it, but you were the only dad I had
You sent me a text
You want to get together
Is getting together frequently next?
We were making progress, hopefully for forever
My smile when you asked to see me
I felt our connection re click
How pathetic I must be
To let my hopes rush back so quick
Will you bail once again?
Then I must lie and say its okay
When really all I feel is pain
Will it always be this way?
You always let me down
But I never stop loving
The father that never let me drown
In the pool, and in natural living
No matter the times where you ignore me
My heart will always love you
Along with the family that will always be
What was once not split in two
Our memories will forever
Be ingrained in my heart
The times spent together
That will never tear me apart
I love you dad
Well, my temporary impact...
You gave me life I never thought I could have
I hope sometime again, we will interact
Copyright © Lydia Seeley | Year Posted 2023
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