Temporary Impact

Dad Our blood doesn't relate But our hearts do For me, do you have any hate For leaving too Do you ever miss What we once had Does it have to be like this? Does it make you feel bad? Will you please call I miss you Am I the problem after all? Was it not the right thing to do? Are we not family? Like we once were I must face reality That you are no longer my father Is that what you want? Will it make you happy? Im tired of you being nonchalant Do you even see im unhappy? When people ask how many kids you have Do you include me into your answer Or have we split in to halves? If so, I pray you'll reanswer Im trying so hard To have what I thought Was my dad as my guard Without you leaving for me to rot You filled all the roles 11 years you were with us Tied with mine and moms souls You left with so much to discuss You took my sister Away from everyone June 13th, is the last I've seen her I miss her more than the sun Do you remember? You took me to my first dance The father daughter When I first gave you a chance The first time I called you dad Watching your reaction The face you had Lit up with a surprised reaction Is all of that just gone? Everything we used to do Especially fishing at dawn Im writing too much, is this my cue? Yes, I know the damage done But why does this mean The family has to be gone I thought I was helping, not making a scene Im sorry, I really am Can I still call you dad? Or does that make you leave and scram I get it, but you were the only dad I had You sent me a text You want to get together Is getting together frequently next? We were making progress, hopefully for forever My smile when you asked to see me I felt our connection re click How pathetic I must be To let my hopes rush back so quick Will you bail once again? Then I must lie and say its okay When really all I feel is pain Will it always be this way? You always let me down But I never stop loving The father that never let me drown In the pool, and in natural living No matter the times where you ignore me My heart will always love you Along with the family that will always be What was once not split in two Our memories will forever Be ingrained in my heart The times spent together That will never tear me apart I love you dad Well, my temporary impact... You gave me life I never thought I could have I hope sometime again, we will interact