Before Now
Times gone, forgotten
Left in the past
Harsh winds of life
Have broken my mast.
Swept no direction
Lost in my pain
Thoughts of happiness
Now a faded old stain.
Corners of loneliness
Fraught every day
Words of contentment
Stand in my way.
Shadows of grief
Swallow my soul
My mind falls deeper
Never ending black hole.
Swaddled in sadness
No smiles laughs or cheer
A stranger my reflection
The future never clear.
Don’t see myself
As I did before
Deepness of sorrow
Right to the core.
No light in the tunnel
No light at the end
No invitations
To RSVP send.
My life is on hold
I don’t have the keys
Many surround me
But not one of them sees.
Barbed wire held me
Right from the start
As clouds of grey
Consume my heart.
Feeling so desperate
The hole has been dug
Now nothing to stop me
From pulling the plug.
Copyright © Maria Hobden | Year Posted 2020
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