The Effects of No Confidence
Iv'e pondered life in so many ways
and for so long
i feel like iv'e fell down a hole
iv'e witnessed the wind blowing on my skin feeling like a hug from gods
iv'e heard birds in different trees of a forest making separate sounds that put a song to nature
iv'e suffered for trying to love
iv.e suffered for trying not to love
iv'e seen my mistakes and begged on my knees to forgive me and let me live
iv'e watched everyone i know grow and create familes and become happy
and i still stayed in the same place
i ask my self constantly when is it enough
when can i take my throbbing heart and put it back in my chest
and let my self be excited again
Every time i think about doing better and moving forward
i get a feeling in stomach that gods saying NO
or Not right now
i find my self miserable and being able to think about doing better with out thinking im going to it up
to me i feel like the biggest fool i know because i know what im capable of i hide my self away like im beast that only notices beauty
But Its not what ive done it what im afraid i might do
Copyright © Ethan Mcwhorter | Year Posted 2022
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