Ptsd
I remember…
I remember nothing.
My memories don’t serve me
like peace doesn’t serve you.
As if you went to Korea for war
And never came back.
even though, I see you every day.
When you give me that look
Control and abuse exert into the air
As my innocence and love
Leave the room.
I remember being terrified,
But mostly hurt. Hurt from
You causing the pain.
Hurting my mom physically
And hurting myself emotionally.
You griped her neck, like a
Batter with one strike left grips
A bat, hitting for home.
I remember running out the house;
Running from the person I’m
Supposed to love and want.
Someone who is to teach me how
To love.
I only learned how to hate.
I remember the absence of innocence
I cannot recall bliss.
I remember abuse, I remember pain.
I remember nothing.
Copyright © Elijah Suarez | Year Posted 2018
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