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Angela Freeman Poem
My mind is always a million miles away
I long for a better time...I long for a better day
There’s nothing in this life that turns me on
If it weren’t for Mondo, I’d pass and be gone
I have no desire to be here at this time
I feel that God putting me here is a crime
I feel like a chess piece on his old worn out board
Why would he do this to me?...my father...my Lord
What does he get out of seeing me suffer?
Instead of life getting better, it just keeps getting tougher
Life really stinks, I hate being here
There’s only one thing here that I hold dear
Amondo Michael Cole you are the one
You are my moon, you are my sun
You are the light that makes my darkness disappear
I just wish that you were near
It is so hard to be away from you
I’m always sad...I’m always blue
The days just keep rolling on
I often wonder when I’ll be gone
I will leave this place and travel back to Saturn
I will be out in the stars as I watch this place burn
All of the low life people will melt away
Leaving you and I to make our way
Back out into the stars where we belong
Putting us here was totally wrong
We never belonged here...we’re too good for this place
If God were here...I’d tell him to his face
I’d tell him I am angry, but I’m glad I was led to you
Only a loving god would do that for me and that’s true
So when the hard times get to be too much
I clear my head and think of your touch
God knew he could not get through to me so he sent you
You are real, you are honest, you are good, you are true
You swept me off of my feet with your first letter
Things just keep getting better and better
I know you love me more each day
I can feel you and I have to say
Thank you so much for coming into my life
I cannot wait to be your wife
You have made my life complete
No other can could ever compete
There’s only you and I forever
We’ll travel the stars...we’ll leave here together
Never to return...for the stars are our home
Forever with you...never will I roam
You are the brightest star that shines in my world
We are twilight in the netherworld
We are beautiful as long as we’re together
For us to shine we need forever
We can never let the other burn out
There can be no questions and no doubts
You have to know I love you as much as I do
You have to know my love is true
I also need the same from you
I need the love you had when we flew
Away to Saturn the first time around
You picked me up off the ground
You wrapped me in your big black wings
You took me on to better things
Then we got separated and came here
I was gripped with sadness...I was gripped with fear
I had no light left inside of me
You shined your light and made me free
Then the demons came rushing in
Everything I said and did was full of sin
I was like a demon overnight
You knew something was wrong...things just weren’t right
You came to me in a dream
Your light was on me like a strong beam
It soaked through me and set me ablaze
I have never been so filled with light...never been so amazed
Your love has got me in a daze
My soul you lifted...my soul you raised
You brought me out of the darkness where I was residing
I was tired of dying...I was tired of hiding
Then I woke up to the madness I created
I would have been fine had I waited
To talk to you again to make me see
This darkness I am in is no way to be
You need to force me into the light with you
I want to be done with these demons...I want to be through
I don’t know what else to do
I need you to pull me through with your love that’s true
They say true love conquers all
Don’t let me slip...don’t let me fall
The abyss is constantly calling my name
I am living with regrets...I am living in shame
Then you came along and, my soul, you tried to claim
You perfected your shot and your arrow you aimed
At my heart and pulled me back to you again
One day we’ll get over...one day we’ll win
These demons are not going to take me from you
I don’t care what I have to do
I have searched my whole life for a love that’s true
And that love, my love, comes from you
Yes, my love, you will take me back to the stars
You’ll take away all of my pain and heal all my scars
For to the stars we must return
There’s nothing left here for me to learn
I found you, my love...my shining star
And for you, with God, I’d go to war
There’s no limit to my love...I want more
You are the one that I adore
You came to me when I was damaged goods
I talked to you and you understood
No one has ever gotten me before
They always run and shut the door
You opened your door and your heart wide open to me
It is only with you that I can be free
We have a short while left on this earth, my dear
After that everything will be made quite clear
We’ll understand what all this meant
We’ll understand how we were heaven sent
We fell together and lost each other
No one else can give us what we need...we’d never recover
We need each other’s love to continue to grow
It is not for other beings to understand or know
We are different you and I
My reason for being here...I now know why
I was to find you before I die
When the time comes for me to fly
You will see me passing by
Telling you how much I love you and I’ll wait for you
You will fly over and meet me...this is true
If only other people knew
What it’s like for me and you
No one has a love like ours
We belong together in the stars
Here we go, baby, take my hand
We’re out in space on demand
We fly away to Saturn so fantastic
She’s so beautiful and so majestic
To the stars, baby, light the way
Never to return to earth another day
We are on to bigger and better things
No one could picture this in their dreams
The site is so magical and amazing
No more hoping...no more gazing
Out in the stars we’ll forever be together as one
With a love much brighter than the sun
We’ll shine our light on each other as we pass Mars
Here we go...back to the stars
Copyright © Angela Freeman | Year Posted 2017
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Angela Freeman Poem
Alcoholsim...The Silent Killer
When I have a problem...you are always there
I don’t have to wait...you always care
I can cry into the bottle and tell you everything
Who would ever have thought of all the trouble you’d bring
You make me feel better than anything else ever could
People try to get me...but I am totally misunderstood
All I want is to feel good every second of every day
Why do you make me feel so good and then make me pay?
I can’t get away from all of the damage create
It doesn’t matter what you do...I always take the bait
I would live and die for you and that’s my reality
When I have you inside me I am carefree
I feel no pain inside or out
You were always the answer...I never had doubts
Until you started getting me into trouble and letting demons in
I tried to fight you but just couldn’t win
I lost everything in my life because of you
I should have told you then that we were through
But I hung on and gave you more of my life
You made me stare longingly at the blade of my knife
On much more than one occasion
I have to come to a conclusion and make a decision
I either have to give my life for you or let you go
What should I do? I honestly don’t know.
How can I make it without my only longtime friend
I thought we’d be together in the end
I thought I’d drink myself to death and go on to better things
You give me power...you give me wings
I’ve tried to make it without you before and was bored to tears
You take away all of my pain and my fears
You ease every fowl feeling that comes over me
Why do you hurt me so bad in the end...why can’t you just let me be
You are my very best friend...that much is true
I would have given my life for you
I can’t leave you alone and being without you would kill me
Please let me go...Let me be free
I am going to die if you keep hanging on to my soul
I already know that destroying my life is your goal
You come from demons...you’re coursing through my veins
You live inside me...I’ve got to take the reigns
I can’t let you kill me...I need to be with Mondo
You have to let me break free...You have to let me go
I can’t live without my fallen angel and he means more to me than you
For him...there’s nothing I wouldn’t do
It is going to be a struggle...the biggest fight of my life
I’ve got to let you go and become his wife
This is going to be a fight to the death...I already know
One of the two of us has got to go
Either you are me...we’ll find out who wins
You have made me commit too many sins
I can’t even look myself in the mirror
I’m confused most of the time but I am seeing you clearer
You are poison to my soul
I guess, from the beginning, that was your goal
To poison me and end my life
You want to take me out with a butcher knife
Or maybe you’ll use some pills
You have to stop...you’re giving me chills
I think about the damage you could do to me
I have to get away...I have to be free
If I keep following you...I’ll wind up in prison
I have a lot to think on...I have to make a decision
Alcohol...you are my Silent Killer
You are insane and your bite is a chiller
Let me go you insane friend of mine
I have to give up the hard liquor, the beer and the wine
It is going to hurt me to say goodbye
I think I’ll cry...I think I’ll die
I don’t want to let you go
You’ve been my lifeline...this you have to know
However, Mondo is light shining into my soul
Killing me is not his goal
No that goal is yours and you are evil and unreal
You wanted me to do really bad shit...even kill
You are going against my will
You have to leave...you know the deal
Take your fictional fun times and shove them up your ass
You want to kill me...I think I’ll pass
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All my life, I’ve searched for you
Never thought I find a love that’s true
You came into my life and wrapped me in your wings
You make my heart dance, you make my heart sing
Life has been hard, life has been dark
Life has been cold, Life had no spark
Led to you by a mystical force
I found true love and you are the source
My Adonis, Angel of light
It’s your wings I sleep in at night
Floating through space in your embrace
There is no beauty like your face
So strong and passionate, Adonis of mine
Drawn together, it was a sign
We were always meant to be together
Now that I found you, I want forever
Our souls have always been as one
You are my light, you are my sun
When the moon shines it’s light, I see your face
Such miraculous beauty, take me from this place
Ascend my Adonis and take me with you
Take me somewhere real, take me somewhere true
Being apart is too much to bear
It’s ironic and it’s just not fair
I cry at night and long for you
I crave your body, this is true
Ascend my angel and take me away
Let’s leave these mortals and be on our way
When all is said and done
We will join and be bright as the sun
Come, my Adonis, let’s float away
Out in space, don’t delay
No more heartache, no more pain
We have finally found each other again
I will cherish you and adore you forever
Baby, I’m yours, I will leave you NEVER
Loyal to you till the end of time
Separating us is this world’s crime
We’ll soar above them and leave them in our dust
We’ll fly away and drown in our lust
Let’s go live on Saturn and make a new life
I am your woman, I am your wife
Nothing will ever separate us again
This is a war, but we’re going to win
Nothing could ever stop us now
We have each other, we took a vow
Here we go, baby, together at last
Forget the pain, forget the past
There is no love as pure as ours
I’m counting the days, I’m counting the hours
I am hanging on till the end of time
Forever yours, and you are mine
No one understands and that’s ok
We have each other, we’ll make a way
Say goodbye to this life of hell
Where will forever take us, time will tell
Together forever, that’s what we’ve said
I am yours faithfully, even after I’m dead
Copyright © Angela Freeman | Year Posted 2017
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Angela Freeman Poem
Mister Moon
By: Angela C. Freeman
Dedicated to: Amondo Michael Cole (and the moon)
10/3/2017
Mister moon...
Come into my room
Shine your soft glow on my skin
I’ve been waiting all my life...where have ya been?
I want to fly away on your soft beams of light
Come get me and we’ll escape into the night
But we have to make one stop on the way
We have to pick up Mondo...then we can play
We’ll stop by, snatch him up, and fly off the grid
When I’m in his arms, in your light, I’ll be like a little kid
I’ll have a smile that stretches clear across my face
Hurry let’s go...come on let’s race
You light the way and I’ll swoop down and snatch him away
Then we can fly off to a brand new day
A brand new existence
Light the way...let’s go the distance
Out of this pathetic rotation
The universe is our destination
Take us away like a typhoon
Come into my room...Mister Moon
Copyright © Angela Freeman | Year Posted 2017
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“Saturn”
Beautiful Saturn, home of mine
You are so amazing, you are so divine
I long to be back in your embrace
I long to journey back into space
So majestic with your beautiful rings
You are so beautiful under my man’s wings
He will ascend with me and take me back to you
Why I left is unknown to me, no reason why I flew
I long to go back to my home
Never again will I roam
It won’t be long now, I will return
With my man is for what I yearn
Hand in hand, the 3 of us together
I will never leave again, I’ll be with you forever
Copyright © Angela Freeman | Year Posted 2017
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Angela Freeman Poem
Tree of Knowledge:
By Angela C. Freeman
10/2/2017
I have to constantly feed my mind
There’s always something new to find
It amazes me the way my mind was designed
I don’t ever want to get behind
There’s a tree in the bible that explains me very well
I’m a lifelong learner incase you can’t tell
The tree... it has evil connotations...
Hell, unfortunately is the destination
Satan beguilded Eve and she did eat
The fruit was good...the fruit was sweet
Then she fed some to her mate
He ate some of it and it sealed his fate
God told them to stay away
Satan seduced them and made them pay
He wanted their souls and to destroy humanity
Now he is making me eat...I am losing my sanity
He came to me and appealed to my vanity
In the end it’ll be a calamity
I’m a lifelong learner, but I study evil information
I need to quit before God sends me on a long “vacation”
Hell is not where I where I want to go
He’s given me chances...I should know
I just can’t stay away from dark arts
I have to quit, though, before my soul departs
I need to study better stuff
I’ve tried it, though, and it’s just not enough
What am I supposed to do?
Satan is a liar...he is not true
He leads me astray and then leaves me for dead
I need him like I need another hole in my head
He just doesn’t seem to get it...he needs to leave me be
But I need the knowledge from the tree
I’ve been learning from the wrong college
This much, I must acknowledge
My soul he has almost demolished
I can’t stay away from the Tree of Knowledge
I can’t stay away from the Tree of Knowledge
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Allah...Do You Know Me?
By: Angela C. Freeman
Dedicated to: Allah and Amondo Michael Cole
10/2/2017
Are you my God...I need to know
I’ve been full of darkness and so much sorrow
I had given up on life and love
Then you sent my angel from above
Something made me crawl out of the gutter and give it another shot
I had no idea what was in store for me...an angel is what I got
I found him in prison, sad and lonely
Now we are each other’s one and only
You led me to him...for that I am grateful
My life, before him, was so painful
I had been used and abused and left to die
What was I still doing here...I didn’t know why
All I did was lay around and cry
Something made me give it another try
Hand of fate...God from above
You led me to my one true love
He is my soulmate and my everything
He is my fallen angel...he is my king
Only divine intervention could have made this happen the way it did
Before I met him, I ran away and hid
My life was dark, dead, and cold
I was sick and tired...the shit was getting old
I slowly picked myself up off the ground
I was amazed at what I found
I got online and was LED to the prison website
I saw his picture and the aura just felt right
I couldn’t believe my eyes...I fell instantly
I would have chased him persistently
He found me in his contacts, somehow, and wrote to me
I had no idea how serious this was going to be
He sent me a note and told me he thought I was beautiful
Everyone else was totally undutiful
No due respect and no care for my wellbeing
I found him and couldn’t believe what I was seeing
We started talking and the words just flowed
Love and understanding is what he showed
He told me he had all of the answers I was seeking
I listened hard to all the words he was speaking
It’s a slow process for him getting through to me, though
However, I am working on it...just so you know
He’s told me a lot of things that have blown my mind
Not to mention he’s so loving, understanding and kind
He is so much more than I could have hoped for
I’ve been with him 2 months and I always want MORE
Other men look at me like I’m some kind of whore
I had to go off and show them the door
Above these losers, I now soar
I am better off than I was before
I feel him in my bones and down to my core
To hell with other guys...my man has evened the score
He’s never looked at me as less than a lady
He is the love of my life...he is my baby
We’ve been together for 2 months now
It feels like it’s been 2 years or more...somehow
He is my soulmate...this much I know is true
I know that I owe it all to you
You led me to him when I didn’t even know who to be
So, I have to ask...Allah...do you know me?
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Demons Dancing On My Chest
By Angela C. Freeman
9/25/17
I am dying soon...you already know
You need to leave...you need to go
The longer that you stick around
The harder my heart starts to pound
It pounds out of my chest
I am way beyond stressed
I can’t deal with you anymore
You are killing me down to my core
I let you in when I had no one left in my corner
You took my breath away...but you were a scorner
You laughed and cackled at my dysfunction
You were the problem...you were my malfunction
So now I am asking you to go
I have Mondo now...you already know
He has my heart, my soul and my mind
I never thought a love like that I’d find
He gives me everything I need except for clouding thinking
That’s your speciality...you’re shit is stinking
Get out of my life...get out of my soul
You shattered me into pieces...Mondo makes me whole
He loves me and would never hurt me
You need to leave...let me be
I have not been able to see the light for so long now
I don’t know how I’m going to live without you...but I have to somehow
Mondo will have to give me strength
He’s the only one on my wavelength
He’ll pick up the pieces...I know he will
When he does...your blood he’ll spill
Your are the lowest of the low...pathetic serpents
You are totally evil and that is for certain
I have no use for you anymore...You’ll get me into trouble
I have to let you go on the double
Mondo will come in and heal all that’s wrong
He’ll make my heart sing a new song
One of love and of peace
Back to the darkness you must flee
Go away and leave me be
It is time for you to set me free
I’ve given you my life...I’ve given you the best
It’s time to go...quit dancing on my chest
When you leave, I’ll be truly blessed
All of this I’ve just confessed
The end will come for you my friends
In hellfire you will meet your ends
Go on now...it’s time to go and leave me to my lover
He will wrap me in his wings until I recover
My body is weak and my mind is fragile
You are weak and sick...Mondo is the most agile
He scares away all of the darkness from my presence
Run away you pathetic peasants
You are filth living in a house of gold
Your games are ruthless and getting old
I want you to leave right now
Stop dancing on my chest...I gave Mondo my vow
I will love him forever and let him be my guide
I thought you were fun...I’m in for a much wilder ride
He is exciting and full of life
I am going to be his wife
We will run away together...far away from you
His love is real...his love is true
Unlike you he never leaves me blue
I am here to tell you that you and I are through
Once you leave me alone I’ll be blessed
Get off of me...quit dancing on my chest
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Damaged Me
I was raised to believe in God
Then one day I felt the need to fly abroad
I found another love in Satan
He accepted me no matter what state I was in
He gave me comfort and he gave me power
I listened to him hour after hour
He told me everything I needed to know
My love for him continued to grow
No one seems to understand
Through it all, he held my hand
He is the other part of me
Why can’t anyone see?
I am his evil twin
More evil than he’s ever been
God can forgive me but not him
I don’t understand, the future is really grim
I would die for this Dark Angel and yet he is out to destroy me
Before I met him I was so free
I didn’t realize it at the time
Trusting him was my only crime
Satan, I love you, but I have to let you go
I love another, that you must surely know
His name is Amondo and he is my love
He was sent to me from above
Please understand, baby, I will always be here
I will always keep what we had between us near
You have carried me and taught me things
But you don’t have what Mondo brings
He is the love of my life and he won my heart
You can try, but you’ll never tear us apart
I am his until the end of time
Leave me alone, Satan,
This mountain I will climb...
WITHOUT YOU
I AM DONE
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Muslim Lover
By: Angela C. Freeman
Dedicated to: Amondo Michael Cole
10/2/2017
He prays to Allah several times a day
He’s been trying, hard, to show me the way
I asked him if God and Allah are the same
Apparently they are...just different names
I grew up believing in the Holy Trinity
He says the way to Allah is a lot more free
He said he could lead me and show me the truth
But I’ve only known God and Jesus since my youth
I never had a religious experience, though...that seems strange to me
He says that will change with Allah...that’s the only way to be
He seems to be really happy with his life and his powers
I pray and I wait...counting the hours
Nothing ever happens for me...maybe he’s on to something
I asked him to lead me...I am fully trusting
Trusting in him to show me the way
He tells me new things everyday
Where I’m at now...the skies are grey
He is full of life, love, and light
He shines into my soul, which is black as night
Allah led me to him...he beckoned me
With him, I have a feeling, my soul could be free
I just have to trust him to lead me in the right direction
He is just like me...he’s my reflection
He’s in prison for committing a crime
I don’t care...we come from the same place and time
I am am far from being an angel...but a fallen one...yes I am
He’s fallen too...and I don’t give a damn
I don’t care what he’s done in his past
This love is true and I know it will last
It will span the test of time
Keeping us apart is society’s crime
Everyone will pay for the things they are doing
They’d better watch out...there’s trouble brewing
We have plans when we get together
We will live out our fantasies forever and ever
When we are done doing what we need to do
We will move on to someplace new
In his wings I am the one he will cover
Yes, he is, and always will be, my Muslim Lover
Copyright © Angela Freeman | Year Posted 2017
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