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Me Myself and I

I want to keep you safe from all this harm
The shouting the hitting so you keep Calm
I am determined to stop him touching you
He never left you alone he bloody knew
Hurting you in such an ugly cruel way
I will protect you so you won’t become prey
His evil way of attacking, was because he can
I’m older now, becoming a much stronger man
The fast river between us will get  much stronger
The helpless life you gave me will be no longer
All that power you once had over that little child
I have become clever, smarter you won’t get me riled
Your accomplice was trained to be as bad as you
She was not a mother, just part of you, evil two
I will make it my only mission to keep him by me 
This is so he can feel safe & warm till I get him free
He has suffered far to long now, I will make it stop
My strength the Lord gave me will carry me forever
I am ready to conquer you, this will be my endeavour
He’s with me now so go elsewhere if you ever dare
He will be with me now, as for you I don’t care
My love is for him now that’s been waiting to share
That’s just me, myself and the world out there

Copyright © Brian Anderson | Year Posted 2016



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Being Perfect

What is perfect? Do we understand what it really means
Is it a standard, a longing or just another pipe dream
It can make you so frustrated and sometimes even scream
Is it just behaviour or a feeling to get it right
Can we ever let it be finished to give us shear delight 
I struggle to achieve this, to be happy just for me 
Sometimes being that perfect is where you want to be
I find it hard to reach that level and want to give it up
You keep searching in your soul incase you don’t measure up

Does everyone else see it, this struggle I endeavour
Will I never stop looking? Or is this with me forever 
Am I trying to please someone other than myself
So when is it all over, I can be put back on the shelf
Is there such a perfect something that can make you happy
Will I ever look and think you have done enough
And have reached the end here’s your happy Valley
Don’t keep looking, thinking it’s still not finished
Cause your heart, your soul will simply just diminish
Try to see you have done enough, the journey is over
Try be satisfied, happy and feel warm all over
You were already perfect in every way
So put away the rule books and stop the judging 
Open your heart and be more trusting.

Copyright © Brian Anderson | Year Posted 2016

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Unwanted Love

Why is being touched so hard for me
It should be soft and lovely like being free
But for me it’s none of these things
When it feels as if a thousand wasps sting
I am scared with feelings of things gone by
Pain and sorrow of wickedness I don’t know why
I long to be touched with feelings of deep love
That seam false, not Gods promise from above
I get mixed messages of what I feel they can’t be real
My tears of loss with a lack of understanding
I am not soaring way up high, I’m just crash landing
being touched with lust and compassion I can’t see
It’s sometimes fear and torture attacking me
I just want to feel the value in my heart
Not the suffering other stuff that tears me apart
When you have been abused right from the start
I’m not able to work it out on a doctor’s bar-chart
Why am I not able to reach the very top
Feel fulfilled with love and a cherry on top
Just the awful feeling of past happenings
The scared ways of life’s hardening 
I just want to embrace all that lost love
Stop attacking, let me take of my boxing gloves

Copyright © Brian Anderson | Year Posted 2016

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Feeling Hidden

Why do I feel different and always so tense
I sometimes feel outcast by a very big fence
I struggle with company especially family 
I just don’t fit in and have loads of anxiety
They don’t understand what I’ve been through
The torture and evil things that they could do
I just wanted the love like mothers give to you
My evil one and stepfather to, were a bad curse
No earthly child could never ever want to trust
You always have to be on guard, he just hates you
The things he did always leaves the head torn in two 
I’m older now with to much hurt and unwanted pain
Like your carrying a bad smell with a nasty ugly stain
I just want to go far away in my own hidden forest 
Watch the stream see the trees no one to be a pest
So please try to understand how I feel inside
I just want to be like you so I don’t have to hide

Copyright © Brian Anderson | Year Posted 2016

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Forgiving Myself

How to forgive yourself is hard for me
I am trying to stop him so I can be free
Where is your forgiveness to rescue me
You can ask God to take you home
Or you can sit and suffer and be alone
Forgiveness comes from the heart 
Letting it go can be the place to start
I know I’m not to blame for any of this
Why is this life for me not sheer bliss

How do you forgive such wicked things
I’m not God or a heavenly Angel with wings
My heart is to fragile and it hurts to much
I even struggle with the simplest touch
I often wonder what’s wrong with me
The scars are deep they make you flee
How do I ask to forgive for all that’s wrong
It’s been all my life, it’s not been strong
I am to fragile with life long hurting pain
 forgiveness to me is not removing a stain
You need to understand the pain still remains

I ask you God to forgive me with all my heart
Take it away and give me the fresh start
You stood by me in times of despair
So bad that nothing can ever compare
The worst thing of all was being left to suffer
The feeling of hurt that life can’t get any tougher
You need strength to forgive which I have no more
Help me someone it hurts to much to just ignore
Maybe I’m not ready to forgive even myself 
Am I just another Victim to be put on the shelf
 Help me forgive myself so that one day I am free

Copyright © Brian Anderson | Year Posted 2016



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A Mind Full of Hurt

Why am I not strong when my feelings hurt inside
They took away all I had left me feeling blind
She ripped my heart out while he battered my soul
What’s it all for as you are thrown amongst the coal
Where was my hug after the evil deeds were done
The bullying always struck pain like a quick handgun
I had feelings of a different kind frozen to the core
The hurtful kind so bad they are locked behind a door
Why was I not loved like any other young soft child 
Instead of these two wicked mad crazies gone wild
They would laugh if I made a mistake of any kind
The evilness look of being morally wrong in the mind
Why did you strike me again and again so hard it swells
Sometimes I was marked so hard it started to smell
Where was the loving care I was entitled to 24, seven
I kept thinking it was all stored up waiting in heaven
Why did I have to be given to that very evil, evil man
Who let him carry out his bloody wicked plan
Please my guardian angel keep looking over me
Take away the bad thoughts so I can be let free
Open your arms my Lord & be there just for me
 how much more I can take please don’t forget about me

Copyright © Brian Anderson | Year Posted 2016

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Days of Pain

My passed few days have been really quite dark
They have struck me deep right to the heart
My head has been tormented with awful things
They just keep at me like savage hornet stings 
Why didn’t others see what I was going through
The nasty things he did, they just grew and grew
I was left to struggle with every passing day
My plans were to go away so I never have to stay
Walking on the edge of life was never far from me
I just wanted it all to stop so that I could be set free
I am still carrying all these sad thoughts in my head
I feel like a lost spider, with life hanging on a thread
Why does hurt ache so much every long passing day
I am losing all my strength in a draining kind of way
I will just keep going with no where else to go
 like walking in a blizzard till you freeze in deep snow

Copyright © Brian Anderson | Year Posted 2016

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My Fight Pain You Don'T See

Trauma and pain are much the very same
They attack  you inside both you can blame
One minute you freeze or down on your knees
The pain inside grabs and stabs, stabs, stabs
Waves of disappear that no other can compare
Your mind starts racing and out of control
It spins it’s self round and crushes your soul
 pain grabs you, hitting every part of the body
You fight it hard, please help me somebody
He’s in your mind destroying your Calm 
Sending his evil to attack like a butting Ram
Your away in the evil place, he has you trapped
It’s all to late your caught, you are now kidnapped
Your beaten once again, he's ripping you apart
It’s only a matter of time till he tears out your heart
The stuff he has left you with for him another day
You will be hunted cause you, your just prey

Copyright © Brian Anderson | Year Posted 2016

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Face To Face

I want to look into your face so I can see the disgrace
I won’t let you see my anger, so you can hunger
I want to stare at your eyes to your demise
I will be free so let me be

You are ugly in every way and will make you pay
You carved away to disgrace my soul
It’s now my turn to put you back in the hole
Look at me if you dare, Now its my turn to scare

Look at me with this determined expression
You tried to terrify me when I was young
Now I am more powerful than your tongue
You never let up, at  little, weak small me
You got away with it I can see

I am looking at you to see your reaction
Don’t look away I want my satisfaction
I won’t let you get to me ever again
Get out off my life this is the end.

Copyright © Brian Anderson | Year Posted 2016

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Intamate Feelings Inside

Why is being intimate so very hard
It can make you happy or very sad
To let others in your deep inner core
To let them inside that tightly shut door
Things are hidden for reasons unknown
The stuff that’s lost but somehow grown

It can stop your feelings or being touched
Shut you down and bury you under ground
What do you say without being hurt
It’s telling all them then you get burnt
Struggling with emotions everyday
Causing the pain to never go away

Having closeness is to reveal all you have
Is risking your trust inside a bee hive
Being left to carry the pain that I hold
How do I get better before I grow old
Who do you trust and who do you not
I have lost everything and feel caught

How do I open to experience love again
Let my heart heal, so I don’t have to abstain
Letting me share what is trapped in my heart
I know I have to  some how make a start
Bit by bit it will take me some time
I want that freedom back, it will become min

Copyright © Brian Anderson | Year Posted 2016

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