Unwanted Love
Why is being touched so hard for me
It should be soft and lovely like being free
But for me it’s none of these things
When it feels as if a thousand wasps sting
I am scared with feelings of things gone by
Pain and sorrow of wickedness I don’t know why
I long to be touched with feelings of deep love
That seam false, not Gods promise from above
I get mixed messages of what I feel they can’t be real
My tears of loss with a lack of understanding
I am not soaring way up high, I’m just crash landing
being touched with lust and compassion I can’t see
It’s sometimes fear and torture attacking me
I just want to feel the value in my heart
Not the suffering other stuff that tears me apart
When you have been abused right from the start
I’m not able to work it out on a doctor’s bar-chart
Why am I not able to reach the very top
Feel fulfilled with love and a cherry on top
Just the awful feeling of past happenings
The scared ways of life’s hardening
I just want to embrace all that lost love
Stop attacking, let me take of my boxing gloves
Copyright © Brian Anderson | Year Posted 2016
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