Forgiving Myself

How to forgive yourself is hard for me
I am trying to stop him so I can be free
Where is your forgiveness to rescue me
You can ask God to take you home
Or you can sit and suffer and be alone
Forgiveness comes from the heart 
Letting it go can be the place to start
I know I’m not to blame for any of this
Why is this life for me not sheer bliss

How do you forgive such wicked things
I’m not God or a heavenly Angel with wings
My heart is to fragile and it hurts to much
I even struggle with the simplest touch
I often wonder what’s wrong with me
The scars are deep they make you flee
How do I ask to forgive for all that’s wrong
It’s been all my life, it’s not been strong
I am to fragile with life long hurting pain
 forgiveness to me is not removing a stain
You need to understand the pain still remains

I ask you God to forgive me with all my heart
Take it away and give me the fresh start
You stood by me in times of despair
So bad that nothing can ever compare
The worst thing of all was being left to suffer
The feeling of hurt that life can’t get any tougher
You need strength to forgive which I have no more
Help me someone it hurts to much to just ignore
Maybe I’m not ready to forgive even myself 
Am I just another Victim to be put on the shelf
 Help me forgive myself so that one day I am free
Copyright © | Year Posted 2016

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November 5, 2016 at 8:31 AM
Brian , this writing is full of such great depth of emotion. You have been heard. Bless you.
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