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Flirt with Whitney
Flirt with fear
Life is good
But I rather be anywhere but here
Body aches from pushing out tears
Driving on the road of life
Eyes is watery
So I can't steer
And I'm getting dizzy
Stomach very queezy
Thank god for Sprite and tylonal
Thank god for my other half that completes me
Haven't eating anything about in 22 hours
Aye some coochie though
Way better than wheeties
Some days I feel like Rafliki
Other days I feel like Simba
D'Andre is down in the dumps
Lord we have a dilemma
I'm facedown like someone shot me
Heart pumpin heavy
Nose snotty
Talking to the depression hotline on the potty
Walking out the bathroom I couldn't look at the mirror
cause sometimes i dont like what the displays
And I know you get tired of my negative and negated ways
But that's just how I feel
Am I pose to hide my feelings
I said me and mirrors have an up and down relationship
Not all the the time do I view myself as appealing
One day I'll be happy with the way I look
It's like a banana that you have to keep peeling
At the end of the day YOU have to be happy with yourself
Disconnect all the self neglect
You can't just put your needs on a dusted shelf
Spirit is broke
Plus my glasses are broke
I can't see anything
But I can see the confusion
My feelings are display
This is not a dilutions
I don't need institution
Talking to Whitney
Things are slowing improving
Stomach is flipping
But I'm not pissing or pooping
Words slowly pour out to Whitney
I'm slowly regrouping
Her words are soothing
Mine are barely coming out
Cause of the coochie I ate
Exercise for my mouth
It was very good
Correction very very great
My favorite thing to have on my plate
Slowly improving my mental state
But my physical stature is feeling not so great
Thank god for Wifey
Thank god for Wifey
Cause when I don't like me
At least shE still love me and likes me
The tears have stopped
My crinkled face stage is threw
I kiss Whitney and then look past her
And then my eyes come upon you
Looking at you
Makes my stomach hurt
Thinking about you
Makes my stomach hurt
Just the sound of your name
Makes me lift up my shirt
And grab my belly
You needa start eating right
That's what my peers tell me
But it's you that makes my bowels move
I could be be having the day of the duration
And looking at you just throws my body outta groove
It doesn't even have to be that time of the month
It's either hit you
Or hit the blunt
Sorry to be blunt
But your presence
Is far from a present
You belittle me to near nothing
To you I'm a peasant
But to me you're just the reason my stomach aches
Tape handing off my chest
From repairing my heart break
I see you and rush to the commode
I'm tired of feeling like this
Using all this toilet paper gets old
You act nice on Tuesday and mean on Wednesday
I don't know if I should be sold
I don't know if I can keep making these trips to the toilet
Everybody thinks I got Wifey pregnant
But it's me and you that need to have an appointment
The stomach pain is cause of you
I cramp up with your every word
This feeling is for the birds
I'm so tired of you
My stomach is tired of being terrorized with terds
You enjoy seeing me unchill
Gravely ill
My my my
My mental motivation gravitates Johnny Gill
I just come and pay my bills
Try to pay you no mind
But my confidence you kill
My efforts you murder
Are you jealous cause your life is black and grey
Mine is purple and blue with a hint of sherbet
Why do you try to hurt me so much
I'm a grown man
Far from a gerber
And Whitney told you I was just like her
I know you heard her
Should I go on any further
I'm just tired of getting treated like this
Feeling like this
Feeling like a big hunk of piss
It'll be a year in August
But will I make it to March
I've cried more tears over you
Than my mother when she used to hit me with spray starch
I may be little
But you've chose the wrong tree to bark
I'm not scared of you
I won't flinch or fart
The villain of all the virgerousity
You must love playing the part
I have tried pepto bismol and other gismo
And stomachs still hurting
Milk of magnesia isn't working
But I'm on my last leg
I just wanna quit being hurt
I don't wanna have to beg
So I thought I'd just ask
Even though we're not students
I thought we could have a little more class
I feel like manure
On the floor
Tears pour
Comfort comes and I roll over and hear a crack
It's my glasses
I can't stand this
I feel like nothing
A rotten pumpkin
I'm the ugly duckling
Quit making assumptions
You need some D in your life
Get to humping
With the tears comes the cussing
Mozzarella sticks I smell in the oven
Can't bring myself to eat
That's why I'm still a munchkin
I shouldn't be here
I should be Lindsay Lohan'n and Hillary Duff'in
Huffing and puffing
Puffing snot
You could stab a person In the back
With your smile on 100 watts
You've been cooking this up for a lil minute I bet
But don't expect revenge in my pot
Bawl blockage and cum clots
I'm already suffering from this and what not
I know you're hurting to
But to hurt someone else you said why not
Why me
Please stop
Just because I don't live in a 4 bedroom house
Doesn't mean I sleep on a cot
Your indirect comments and sneak dissing
Are like having my glasses in your hand and your crush the lens with rocks
I know your life is on the rocks
But you don't have to take it out on others
Just cause they're not the creme of the crop
I'm just sitting here letting you hurt me day after day
I'm not gunna run jump skip or hop
Something needs to be done
I have the lock
But you got the key
You gotta start somewhere even its its with building blocks
Threatening my spouse with termination and glocks
You was looking for a reaction
But a crinkled up face is all you got
And I realized through it all
Me and my spouse is all I got
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If I told you would you listen
If i told you would you perceive me as a monster
If I told you would you go and judge
My unborn beautiful daughter
I'm warmhearted
With the potential to get even hotter
But why bother
I chose not to
And from that I'm perceived as moody
Keep you on your toes
It's my destined duty
A couple mean mugs and blank faces
I keep a handful in my Arsenal
Funny voices and laser looks
What is this a carnival
If I told you would you scrutinize
Feed me tables and lustly lies
I'm willing to explain it to you
Here I lie
Wide open and ready
If I have the tenacity to tell you
Would you brush it off and forget me
If I told if I told you
And the sad thing is that I already did
And you just looked at me in disgust and called me an immature little kid
Should i explain the blank faces and acratic attitudes
It would be easy to bloop on you with all my feelings
But I dare be a different dude
Is it worth being exposed emotionally
Do I want my feelings all up in the nude
I know all about you down to your ankles, diabetes, And glaucoma
Next Ima find out you have tumors
Thought you could shoot me down with rumors
But I chose to shoot you down with silence
And that really got your panties in a bunch
Really baffled your bloomers
See if I told you
You would use it as amo
People are F'd up
And I know you would stoop that low
If I told you
Which I have and I thought I was being sensual not stupid
I'm tired of going through it
Lord Jesus Lewis
Blank faces is my cover and I'm proud to be the author
You won't even bother to read my 1st page
I guess I'm the perceived monster
What do you have amnesia
The most important time that I need ya
You say I need to drink to help me think
I'm not even old enough to look at a margarita
Let alone buy one
I'm shutting down
My words are all gone
You ddnt listen
I learned my lesson
Now everybody is asking what's wrong
And I can't stand partakers meddlin
Ima start holding stuff in
My faces are an outcry
This is not for play play or pretend
Do you think I put on a mask
Just listen just listen
That's all I asked
I thought you was gunna understand
Am I kinda unique
No no no
I'm a monster I'm a freak
Don't even hand me a tissue
When you see a tear hit my cheek
Let it fall
Cause that's what my hopes just did
I reached out to you and you hid
I reached out for the box of tissues
And you attempted to reach my heart
Access denied
To you I cried
And you crawled
I told you
And away you shyed
My hopes and heart died
And you tried to resuscitate
Get those clamps off of me
You're a little too late
Ugh
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On January the 11th
We embarked on this beautiful journey
I trusted you with my heart
I knew you wouldn't hurt me
I glance at my left hand on my ring finger
And the ring sings
Beautiful things
Your love and devotion
Gives me wings
Gives me something I never had
My kids look at you as a dad
My flaws
You don't look at them as bad
Around I feel amazing
You're the color of a raisin
But
You've changed the color of my heart
Your presence is what my heart is craving
I know you always deliver
I love you
And I want you to always remember
I know sometimes I overreact
I know sometimes I have hint of crazy
But you accept me for me
And you accepted to be my lady
Alongs I have you my love my homie
I'll never ever b lonely
Never hungry
The priceless moments we share
Laying on the living room floor eating pizza with extra cheese and pepperoni
And talking about what medicines do to the liver
And man or woman that tries to flirt with you
Ill kill him and kill her
And we'll eat him and her with the tacos you cook
You know me like a chapter book
And you're not afraid to turn the page
You don't mind my age
Motley is proud of us
She applauds us
I'm in love with someone special
You're not just a girl who drives a Taurus
I love your nephew
Cuddling up in Pisces Paradice
Like it's an igloo
My shoulder is your tissue
My heart is your canvas
They can't handle is
Heroes in a halfshell
I love when they can't stand us
When you're in love
You look at life differently
Motley kept telling me
Then it started hitting me
This is more than an epiphany
I'm living out my dream in reality
Cinderella can be mad at me
Cause my princess charming
Is alluring and alarming
Eyes that are wind taking and warming
Dreads that'll make Rastafarians drop dead
Live out this dream
And not just in my head
Dreams come true
But true enough
We can get through
Anything with the 2 of us
2...not 3,6, or 4.
The days sleeping on the floor
Humbled us as a couple
No one else in our bubble
We're a football team
With only us 2 in the huddle
Motley has taught me how things can evolve
From just a simple cuddle
That's how we ran outta yogurt
I like when you talk like a baby
I like the fact that you think Ima hit a growth spurt
One of us is always alert
One of us is always optimistic
You'll kiss me
Rather than using lipstick
Special cords in my heart
Everyday you always hit those
But I don't think you get it
I love you
Your cinnamelts and biscuits
I love you
More than words can ever exhibit
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Daylight dies
Blackout the sky
Does anyone care
Is anyone there
Enjoy this life
Pop open a Sprite
Roll over to the right and kiss my wife
She's fast asleep
Daylight is trynna come
It's trynna creep
When she wakes up she feel the wetness of the kiss
On her cheek
She'll smile
And I'll feel accomplished
Living life with her
I don't feel like a novice
I ponder all my thoughts cause they all have her in it
At dinner until she sits down
My meal i won't even begin it
Very often through the day she's swims and lingers through my mind
And sometime I have to crack myself in the jaw
And ask is this beautiful girl really mine
Just thinking about how your dreads graze your face
We was Waffle House eating bout to say grace
But my eyes kept poking open
Heart was beating in and outta my chest
It was cold so my Nipples was showing
It wasn't the access lotion that had my face glowing
It was knowing that I get to live my life to the fullest
With the most special girl imaginable
Any muck we will get through this
Your eyes low and gorgeous
What you hide behind them only I know
There was days where your room and the bathroom
Where the only places you'd go
But now tomorrow Ima fly you to the moon and back
Ill pay for the trip alongs you pay for lunch
I'm sure your cool with that
Sweatpants
Most likely all gray or black
We've both came a long way
And I refuse to backtrack
I just wish I could take away your past pain
October 16th i found myself in your arms and I cried
And there was times I came over
And I knew your tears you was trynna hide
Both on emotional rollercoasters
A year later we're at Cedar Point riding rides
We hundreds of feet in the air
But next to you I feel super safe
And you'll always be there
I don't have to worry or chase
We was at Ruby Tuesday that one Tuesday
And you sure ddnt mine putting me in my place
I love just lounging around in our place
Cause earlier this year we both barely had one
But now every Sunday either I wake u up with kisses
Or we get awaken by the sun
Everyday we soak it all up
No one other than you makes me feel the way you make me feel
And you don't get mad when I drink outta your cup
Calm and at ease
Walking the bridge
Through our ears we feel the breeze
Small to the world
But to each other we feel like 1000 foot trees
Siri says the weather is about 49
But whenever I'm around I'm around you it always feels like 104 degrees
Overdrive overdrive
That's where my heart is going
Right next your heart
That's where my heart is going
Daylight is dim
And we just walking down 4th street
Your heart is pouring and it's far from boring
And mine has taken a seat
And I don't miss those seats at the laundromat
Hauling your clothes downstairs
Cause Flex is frugal, no fun, and fat
House smelling like marijuana and old towels
Old blunts and foul bowel
Battery's being switched from toy cars to the tv remote
So sometimes you can't turn the dial
Now we got 5 tvs
Both got full time jobs and a Ford Taurus from 2003
Bevelyn Kaye is proud of you
Angela Renee won't say it but I know she's proud of me
It won't be dark forever
So smile a little bit and open up your curtains
I know you're hurting
You have me so you'll be fine
Open up your blinds and quit being blind
Blind to the fact that It won't be dark forever
So drawl your curtains back
Both our worlds was was once dark and black
But you had my back and I had your back
I remember that look in October 2014
I'm up here pullin rent money out of my socks
Both our living situations were on the rocks
Flash forward a year later we're at waterfront park
Playing on rocks
And having you in my life rocks
Cause things are quick to get rocky
But we're just 2 young people living it up
Now our peers try to copy
I remember that look in your eyes
Walking down the chicken steps in July
Dodging the heat and all those flies
But it's better than dodging Winston
Hunger pains and period pains kick in
I'm concerned and you're wincing
I hated to see you like that
Was I gunna have to start pimpin
Nowadays when we pay rent we celebrate like we won a championship
Eating WildEggs, BDubbs, and Chipotle
To humble ourselves we eat chips
Every night before bed wether you're dog sleep or dog dead
The words I Love you leave my lips
When someone utters your name
My heart turns front and back flips
I love when you're you
Yourself
If it's not you then I don't want anyone else
We may not infinite money
But our love has infinite wealth
Kisses from you
Are good for my health
You accept me as an elf
Shorter than the kids at Ice Skating
I love you I love you
There's no doubt there's no debating
F a promissory note
When it comes to bills
There will be no belating
You saying yes to my future marriage proposal
Is the only thing I am waiting
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We came upon this captivating connection
Not by force
But by rejection
People longed for your sexual expressions
But I know deep down inside that your heart was in another direction
Your heart wanted peace of mind
Someone to understand it
Especially when it got in a bind
I can tell it wanted to escape
No groceries in your house
But you had a lot on your on your plate
Sometimes your thoughts was the only thing you ate
Many times when u wasn't home
There was hoopla going on in your Holly Hills estate
They left you in the dark
And often you just escaped to the darkness
They left you to rot and die
And then they was prolly gunna smoke the carcus
Seeing you go through that was the hardest
But I was going through my struggles
Had fears that I would parish alone
And that we would never become a couple
Sorry I was a bystander
Just kno I was in your corner
I refused to scamper
Indescribable stench in Apartment T2
And it's just not the laundry hamper
During the day i couldn't wait for our nighttime chatters
You was mine and I was yours
No one else mattered
Your stories so captivating
Words like a beautiful sunset painting
And more of your allusive attention is what I'm craving
The folks in the next room are heated and hating
But let them be jealous
And we're in love
Theres nothing they can tell us
We're in love
And we don't even know it
I've been knowing you're the one
I just had to wait on that moment
A breathe of fresh air
But u took my breathe away
May 26th is one of my fav days
I ddnt just give you the key to the house
I gave u the key to my outsides and insides
Now we're on the way Cedar Point
And I predict you're gunna scream on all the rides
I'll prolly scream to I'm not gone front
You make me so drunk and high
Just one hug from you is like hitting a blunt
I ddnt even say what a kiss does
Go sit down
I'll wash the dishes with plenty of suds
House is clean and bills are paid
You have me and I have you
No need to be afraid
Sometimes I wonder if I had spilled my heart sooner
Would we even still be here
But we've managed to be in each other's life's for 3 years
Even when times when your sis would leave you Boogie
And she would be drinking cumm and beer
Back when your working 3rd shift at UPS
And I'm stocking shelves with Zahir
Some how we was always connected
And almost everyday I look back at this improvised journey
And yell Woah this is epic
Every single time I said I Love you
I meant it
The passion that you exhibit
Makes my heart run Marathons
And erupts the flow of my lysosomes and lipids
When we touch there's so much power
Your inner thoughts I wanna devour
Your smile I want to consume
Your laugh I want to gobble on
I don't care who's in the room
Day by day is our motor
Even tomorrow is too soon
Take our time Ets do this right
Eat our Dots
And drink our sprite
Food stamp just kicked In
So we'll be iite
You'll kill the competition
While I kill the dust mites
Marry you
There's no might
The only question is when and where
But no need rush
We have eternity to prepare
Noonie called it 1st
That was a year and a half ago
And we've both been through the worst
But those times are dead and over
You need a roof
We're both co owners
You need to cry
Here's my shoulder
You see Flex
We'll choke her
You see happiness
Well I see it everyday
Everyday when I wake up
And peer you way
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Her cognition is sporadic
Longing for her to relax
And display calm tactics
Lay on my chest like it’s a hammock
When she isn't calm
I can't stand it
Cause behaviors like these in women
Can easily become habits
It won't happen to my woman
She's in love
That's it
She can sit in the couch
Or lay her marvelous body on the mattress
By her side I am her servant
At her service
She's my queen
No doubt she deserves this
I observe frequent wants
I analyze constant needs
And her dreams come with immediate results from me
There's no such thing as greed
Her expectations
I command myself to exceed
Because it's my Heart she keeps stealing
My feelings have no ceilings
Have no walls
It's all about her everyday
Answer her every beck and call
Call me what you want
But she calls me John Boy
And I call her baby
Every day is Valentine's Day for her
It's called love far from crazy
I daydream
And I fantasize
She wants me to ratify
I see it in her eyes
I see her thoughts
Breathing harder
Body getting hot
I love the uniqueness
That lies inside her soul
I place Campbell’s Chunky Soup and some chunky kisses
In her dinner bowl
When she doesn't get her way
Her chest gets hella swole
Seeing her beam
Is my daily goal
Go and marvel her under the covers
Just like a mole
Bond with her berries
This is my safe haven savior
It's far from scary
This is the woman I enjoy every lick of
This is the woman I want to one day marry
I still reminisce about our 1st kiss
Now I shower her with kisses
That led to other activities
No matter how tired I am
She's entitled to all of my energy
The Laughs we share
Of course she cares
Together tackling lions, liars, and Bears
Sleep together holding her in my arms
All while we're holding hands
And it's my duty to bring Valentine's Day everyday
That's how I ended up being her forever man
Our relationship is steadily budding
I'm enjoying every step of the journey
Cause we haven't even came close to the summit
I still want to meet Roddy and your other cousins
Take Jayden trick or treating
And help him carve pumpkins
It's February
But every day is Halloween
Taste your candy
Vanilla filing comes out
And so does screams
Improved results
Since I put Coach Motley on my team
My dream cum conclusion came true
And so did my dream.
Drink that drink that
Like its candy concocted codeine
Drink her devotion
Cause she's my queen
I'll do anything
No questions asked
No back talk or sass
Get her a peace backpack from Razz Razzmatazz
Write a poem about her past
Then write one about her time with Jazz
Love her love her in every way
It's about to be March
And for her it's Valentine's Day
I'll fight every obstacle that tries to deteriorate
Tax season
Give Pisces Paradise a little decorate
We'll never desolate
Lewis told us to wait
So we'll get married when I'm 28
I hate relying on holidays
To make sure your heart is straight
Every day is Valentine's days
Every day is Xmas
Whether were racing go carts
Or eating McChicken no lettuce
I'm proud of you
And more proud of us
We made it through The Lew
And Flex's cloud of dust
Go home and sit down
And watch Penny Proud and a Puff
Put walls up from others
We need to tint our car
But even before Creamy the Car
We have to remember what made us who we are
Talking all night till the next day
Hit a nerve
Then I wipe your tears away
Kiss like it’s the last time we'll meet
I know what you're thinking
No no need for you to speak
Legs tangled in the Spider-Man sheets
Our senses are enhanced
I give a glance
You start to feel the wander
Of my curious hands
Your voice getting raspy
Either you're Horny of getting the itus
The other stuffed are in the living room
But Shadow and Am'Aya Mouse sleep beside us
Cracking our toes in sync
Only setting us up for arthritis
At least know what's coming
We both hate surprises
She's my hynes
And I'm affectionate starving
Hearts is beating double time
You can hear the echo throughout the apartment
Rub your butt
Skin soft as Charmin
Every time you move
I hear it and feel it because the headboards lose
An effortless kiss
Is an extraordinary boost
It brings sonic rings and shivers down my spine
The constellations align
No one can break our bond and bind
Why start crying
When we're incredible fine
You're my future, love, Xmas, Easter, my Valentine's
But most importantly you’re infinitely mine
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'm extinct
I'm irrelevant
Rare off day today
Go to to store and see if I can pilfer a couple xmas presents
Raise me this way
My moms ddnt
But my deviation has allowed me
Woke up this morning with a headache
Plus I'm drowsy
Took the wrong Quil
And now I'm feeling too gnarly
One wrong step and I'll take a spill
Against NyQuil you won't win
I really need to sit down so my head can cease its spin
But I'm a little too determined
Head is still hurting
I feel like an invisible person
But I'm a black guy with all black on
Oh he look mighty harmless
So he's someone we'll pass on
If you say so
Legs feel like play dough
Already dealing with depressive symptoms
Days like this I feel so low
Wife is at work
So I'm solo
I have a different mindset with her vacancy
I wanna get her something nice
She's not making me
It's just how I feel towards her
I feel lucky to have someone so exceptional
F a dime she's like 9 quarters
9 quarters that I have on me
But it's for laundry
And either I pay for this Bluetooth speaker
Or we're wearing clothes that smell onree
I make a different choice
And there no one around to witness my existence
It's been awhile since I've heard my own voice
I'm patient but I'm poised
Earphones to block out the noise
Of these ladies debating about how their daughter shouldn't be with boys
Medicine makes my eyes low
And my mouth moist
When I return to the car in wife's arms
I'll remember this moment and rejoice
Something cheap is what I seak
Got to the bathroom
And I almost laugh at the person in the mirror above the sink
It's myself
Eczema clearing off on my cheek
NyQuil at its peak
Fully awake
But my body wants me to sleep
Wants a deep sleep
Last night it was the Tylenol
Gave wife the night off
Answered to her every beacon call
She deserves it
But me cleaning the whole house sedated
Makes me kinda sorta nervous
Waddle to the kitchen
Give the living room a lil vacuum
It's already 11:02
So gotta go to bed soon
Eyes low and hazy
Wife tells me to go get her a bottled water and other request
But with the tylonal it doesn't faze me
That's my baby
That's my everything
And when I get outta this dark place
She's the 1st one to get a ring
Putting her through this stings
But my world is aphonic
And if there's anyone who will be there to listen
Then she's on it
I love swimming in her waters
But right now i don't feel too equatic
I feel crestfallen
Last week I was crying, snotting, bawling
And when I cry
It takes awhile for to me to start talking
The tears take over
This is my real feelings on display
And I'm not emotional just cause I'm not sober
Thank god tears don't have an odor
And it's hard to keep going sometimes
My other half has to be my motor
Cause it's a conflict
Who else gets depressed on payday
And when they get direct deposits
Trynna remain positive even though I'm not prominent
I'm tired of feeling this way
I'm tired of it
People at work aren't nice to me
NyQuil isn't nice to me
Life is one hyperbole
19 years and 297 days on this earth
And I feel like no one has heard of me
Why are you fighting this medicine
Lay down and go to sleep
Let it win
Let it win
But I'm bAttling
Mentally stranded out in the water
But I gotta keep paddling
Life is obsidian
Am I the reason this is happening
I keep fighting cause I'm disputatious
It won't be dark for ever
And for the events and people who made it dark
You hate this
I'm don't with you feeding me lies
I'm done drinking your ape piss
No room for convulsion in life anymore
My life is no longer spacious
Hugs not drugs
Well right now I need a hug for the ages
The symptoms are disappearing
The end of Wifeys work shift is nearing
And I'm still still
Lord Jesus
I gotta have a plan
Have to perfect my prosthesis
Wear a size 8
But I feel big like I'm wearing Wifeys size 10 adidas
Walk inside the building
Music coming from one
And texts coming from the other phone
Hand wife her umbrella and $5
She hugs me and I feel at home
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I've fallen flat on my face
And I can't get up
I wanna leave this place
But I gotta pick my face up 1st
Looking in the mirror has become the worst
Cause I gotta look at this face
This face that has flat fallen
Tired of looking like this
Tired of bawling
Eventually Ima get up
1st step is I have to start crawling
I've fallen Down
I've fallen flat
It gets harder and harder to get outta bed
But I gotta go make these Big Macs
I tried to get up from my face one time
But I fell
Harry Potter isn't near
But ive been put under a crying spell
Too much time in my head
I often ponder and dwell
I'm a teenage midget negro turtle
And lately I haven't come outta my shell
I can't blame it on Michele
But she's the bulk of the problem
Been going back and forth
Since the autumn
Like blue and red sock em bop em
And I got bopped this time
Give me 10 seconds to get up
And I'll be on my feet on second #9
Not cussing not swinging
Cause that wasn't my upbringing
Fallen flat on my face
My head is banging
cognition is changing
Very very lowly
I've got to get up
Is there anyone to show me
A piece of me Fell off there
A piece of me died there
And I tried to shove it in the hands
Of the broad with the balet shoes and black hair
A piece of me that completed me
I was alright without it for a little bit
But then I fell on my face
I might as well embrace
Covering up would be a waste
I gotta get back up
The drive is in me
There's no going back
I'm public enemy
I just wish I hadn't left piece of my identity
It's right down the street
Louisville isn't that big of a city
But how could I easily forget the place
Where I met the love of my life Whitney
August 18th is when I 1st fell
Skinned knees and rusted elbows
Trynna hold myself together
With gorilla glue and old Velcro
I was eventually gunna get over this
Even though I had doubts about it goin slow
5 months later
Still the same height
But I'm ginormously greater
I can walk past the place
Without putting up any middle fingers
I can't blame you for the whole fall but you did provoke me and push me
Sometimes when you fall
The bottom won't always be plushy
Just cause I'm more emotional
Doesn't mean I'm a Pussy
And I am not motivated by bandos and bushy pussy
Paychecks and my princess are more my speed
She's helps me cause she's not a rookie
Veteran to the vileness
Sometimes when I can't express what I'm going through logically
She's my stylus
When she's by my side
I can safely close my eyelids
She'll be there
No surprise
When I'm face down
And when I arise
I love her
I can't hide this
Beginning to lift my face up
Time to wake up
Salutations
I gotta get my face back up to par
Let me start off by shaving
At least I'm trying
No more sighing, crying, drying
This is my life
Mine mine mine
And Whitneys mine
Heck yea I'm selfish
She's gunna be here if I'm down in the dumps
Or if I'm Elvis
But I'm Johnny
JumpOnEmJohnny
I have to be aware of who's in front of me
Who won't front me
She's rubs my back
I run her tummy
Sorry to rub it in
But one day this darkness will end
There's no doubt
There's no it depends
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In the beginning
All I ever wanted to do is talk it over
But constantly getting the cold shoulder
Causes cold hopes
You made me feel like nothing inside
And egg with no yoke
You can't be mad forever
Eventually it'll all come spilling out
I just wanted to talk
But now we've embarked on 4 month drought
You'll forgive me and I'll be long gone
Don't have Motley message me
And don't go callin John
You'll be back
You'll be back
Me and John are calling that
I'll be filling up people's prescriptions
And you'll still be making Big Macs
What are you forgiving me for anyway
For getting to know you and taking the chance
While you spill your insecurities out about your eyes and tight pants
Are you forgiving me for making think outside the box and laugh
You telling me they was taking forever to remodel your bathroom
And you had to go over your sisters house and take a bath
Was i perfect...no
But that doesn't justify the petty lies
Do you know how many times I blamed myself
Do you know how many times i curled up and cried
I never said I ddnt care about you
But I realized that I have to move on and accept the end
I just wanna talk to carry on
At this point I don't wanna be your friend
I just wanna be cordial and have nothing to do with you
Searching for forgiveness
You act this is an episode of Blue Clues
And I'm tired of searching for the clues of the real you
I rather search for Steve and Magenta
It's just started off as a big misunderstanding
Now 4 months later we have a dilemma
I'm tired of guessing
And hurting
Since I can't talk to you
My tears have to be my spokesperson
Tears talk to
But you might not like what they have to say
Cause they'll be talking about you
Don't come back
Don't come back
My heart you broke that
And in the beginning all I wanted to do is chat
You kicked me outta your life
Left me looking dumb at the door mat
You would snarl at me when I was ringing the bell and knocking
So just walking away was kinda my only option
BevelynKaye said you need some coal in your stocking
Pieces of my broken heart I got stuck sweeping and moppin
From this situation I've cried, I've tried; heart died, matured, grew
When I'm gone I know for sure you'll miss me
Picking on me
Will I miss you...
But the real question is
Should I forgive you
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I'm determined to get better
Intent on improving
If you saw where I was
You would shriek and gasp what are you doing
At 7 countries counseling clinic
This process
I'm ready to begin it
Cause the longer I wait
The longer it'll take
For things to get back straight
You gotta want it
And I want it badly
Hands matching my heart
Anxious, arty, and ashy
Slept on since I woke up in the world
Even the doctors looked past me
It's January and I'm uploading pics from July on IG
But people still add me
Cause all of a sudden
They're interested
Cause happy Johnny is Kool
But depressed Johnny is epic
Getting better is the goal
But it's a lot of black to go through
Heaps and heaps of charcoal
Attitude swole
Trynna swim through
You and I are tired of my moping
And I feel like I'm being chastised
I'm chokin
Why me
Why was I chosen
Bout to turn 20
And things get ballistic and bloody
I just wanna get better
I just want a little bit more money
Only thing that's keeping me afloat
Is my hot and humble honey
How do you feel alone in a building full of people
They down you and degrade you
When they're pose to be your equals
Facial expressions are like bullets
Words are like needles
And they keep stabbin and stabbin
Everything is ha ha numerous
But I am not laughin
How do you feel dark In the middle of the daytime
I wake up and feel fine
Roll to my right and kiss my love that is mine
But moments quickly pass
And so does the time
And I be ready to bust out cryin
A quarter till 9
People act like a grown man wheepin
Is a sign of weakness or a crime
But if I'm not 100
I'm not gone be sitting up here lyin
I don't just get stabbed in the back
I get sliced In the spine
Woah
I dealt with this 8 years ago
But the higher you go up in age
The more you feel more low
Motley says some fire head will help
Motley says a good nutt will help
But how I pose to cumm
When I can't come to a conclusion
The world is so dark
I'm forreal not fooling
When the lil sliver of light does come around
It's safe feeling and soothing
New Year's Eve was a day to forget
All tears no sweat
Hopefully the darkest life will ever get
Crying like I just lost a million dollar bet
Crying like my team is down 2
And I have the mindset that it's already over
Thank god tears don't have an odor
Cause Motleys breast blade would be fonky
I'm up here boohoo'n while she's holding me
She let go for a hot lil minute
And I almost fell on the floor and became a rollie pollie
I told wife later on that day
And she thanked Motley the next
Little did I know while I was crying Wifey was crying 1.4 miles away
Lord Jesus love is so complex
Take me as i am
Take me as me
All the inches standing short
2 quarters and 63
I don't wanna feel like this when I'm 63
Not even when I'm 23
Not even when I'm 20
Cause days till I turn 20
I have 63
Some days be pitch black
Both in reality and figuratively
Onlookers asking what's wrong
Trynna figure me
Belittle me
Strip me down to my emotions
Without even undressing
Everyone is living their life
What's the use of impressing
But I gotta keep pressing
There's no other way to put it
This is flat out cold dog hard depression
Quit holding stuff in Johnathen
I'm slowly learning my lesson
Thank you Johnny for understanding
Acknowledging the problem
And immediately start planning
Thank you Motley for your new year eve events
And also thank you for the advice
But I owe a thousand thank you's and kisses
To the wonderful Whitney my wife
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