Fighting Nyquil

'm extinct I'm irrelevant Rare off day today Go to to store and see if I can pilfer a couple xmas presents Raise me this way My moms ddnt But my deviation has allowed me Woke up this morning with a headache Plus I'm drowsy Took the wrong Quil And now I'm feeling too gnarly One wrong step and I'll take a spill Against NyQuil you won't win I really need to sit down so my head can cease its spin But I'm a little too determined Head is still hurting I feel like an invisible person But I'm a black guy with all black on Oh he look mighty harmless So he's someone we'll pass on If you say so Legs feel like play dough Already dealing with depressive symptoms Days like this I feel so low Wife is at work So I'm solo I have a different mindset with her vacancy I wanna get her something nice She's not making me It's just how I feel towards her I feel lucky to have someone so exceptional F a dime she's like 9 quarters 9 quarters that I have on me But it's for laundry And either I pay for this Bluetooth speaker Or we're wearing clothes that smell onree I make a different choice And there no one around to witness my existence It's been awhile since I've heard my own voice I'm patient but I'm poised Earphones to block out the noise Of these ladies debating about how their daughter shouldn't be with boys Medicine makes my eyes low And my mouth moist When I return to the car in wife's arms I'll remember this moment and rejoice Something cheap is what I seak Got to the bathroom And I almost laugh at the person in the mirror above the sink It's myself Eczema clearing off on my cheek NyQuil at its peak Fully awake But my body wants me to sleep Wants a deep sleep Last night it was the Tylenol Gave wife the night off Answered to her every beacon call She deserves it But me cleaning the whole house sedated Makes me kinda sorta nervous Waddle to the kitchen Give the living room a lil vacuum It's already 11:02 So gotta go to bed soon Eyes low and hazy Wife tells me to go get her a bottled water and other request But with the tylonal it doesn't faze me That's my baby That's my everything And when I get outta this dark place She's the 1st one to get a ring Putting her through this stings But my world is aphonic And if there's anyone who will be there to listen Then she's on it I love swimming in her waters But right now i don't feel too equatic I feel crestfallen Last week I was crying, snotting, bawling And when I cry It takes awhile for to me to start talking The tears take over This is my real feelings on display And I'm not emotional just cause I'm not sober Thank god tears don't have an odor And it's hard to keep going sometimes My other half has to be my motor Cause it's a conflict Who else gets depressed on payday And when they get direct deposits Trynna remain positive even though I'm not prominent I'm tired of feeling this way I'm tired of it People at work aren't nice to me NyQuil isn't nice to me Life is one hyperbole 19 years and 297 days on this earth And I feel like no one has heard of me Why are you fighting this medicine Lay down and go to sleep Let it win Let it win But I'm bAttling Mentally stranded out in the water But I gotta keep paddling Life is obsidian Am I the reason this is happening I keep fighting cause I'm disputatious It won't be dark for ever And for the events and people who made it dark You hate this I'm don't with you feeding me lies I'm done drinking your ape piss No room for convulsion in life anymore My life is no longer spacious Hugs not drugs Well right now I need a hug for the ages The symptoms are disappearing The end of Wifeys work shift is nearing And I'm still still Lord Jesus I gotta have a plan Have to perfect my prosthesis Wear a size 8 But I feel big like I'm wearing Wifeys size 10 adidas Walk inside the building Music coming from one And texts coming from the other phone Hand wife her umbrella and $5 She hugs me and I feel at home