Fighting Nyquil
'm extinct
I'm irrelevant
Rare off day today
Go to to store and see if I can pilfer a couple xmas presents
Raise me this way
My moms ddnt
But my deviation has allowed me
Woke up this morning with a headache
Plus I'm drowsy
Took the wrong Quil
And now I'm feeling too gnarly
One wrong step and I'll take a spill
Against NyQuil you won't win
I really need to sit down so my head can cease its spin
But I'm a little too determined
Head is still hurting
I feel like an invisible person
But I'm a black guy with all black on
Oh he look mighty harmless
So he's someone we'll pass on
If you say so
Legs feel like play dough
Already dealing with depressive symptoms
Days like this I feel so low
Wife is at work
So I'm solo
I have a different mindset with her vacancy
I wanna get her something nice
She's not making me
It's just how I feel towards her
I feel lucky to have someone so exceptional
F a dime she's like 9 quarters
9 quarters that I have on me
But it's for laundry
And either I pay for this Bluetooth speaker
Or we're wearing clothes that smell onree
I make a different choice
And there no one around to witness my existence
It's been awhile since I've heard my own voice
I'm patient but I'm poised
Earphones to block out the noise
Of these ladies debating about how their daughter shouldn't be with boys
Medicine makes my eyes low
And my mouth moist
When I return to the car in wife's arms
I'll remember this moment and rejoice
Something cheap is what I seak
Got to the bathroom
And I almost laugh at the person in the mirror above the sink
It's myself
Eczema clearing off on my cheek
NyQuil at its peak
Fully awake
But my body wants me to sleep
Wants a deep sleep
Last night it was the Tylenol
Gave wife the night off
Answered to her every beacon call
She deserves it
But me cleaning the whole house sedated
Makes me kinda sorta nervous
Waddle to the kitchen
Give the living room a lil vacuum
It's already 11:02
So gotta go to bed soon
Eyes low and hazy
Wife tells me to go get her a bottled water and other request
But with the tylonal it doesn't faze me
That's my baby
That's my everything
And when I get outta this dark place
She's the 1st one to get a ring
Putting her through this stings
But my world is aphonic
And if there's anyone who will be there to listen
Then she's on it
I love swimming in her waters
But right now i don't feel too equatic
I feel crestfallen
Last week I was crying, snotting, bawling
And when I cry
It takes awhile for to me to start talking
The tears take over
This is my real feelings on display
And I'm not emotional just cause I'm not sober
Thank god tears don't have an odor
And it's hard to keep going sometimes
My other half has to be my motor
Cause it's a conflict
Who else gets depressed on payday
And when they get direct deposits
Trynna remain positive even though I'm not prominent
I'm tired of feeling this way
I'm tired of it
People at work aren't nice to me
NyQuil isn't nice to me
Life is one hyperbole
19 years and 297 days on this earth
And I feel like no one has heard of me
Why are you fighting this medicine
Lay down and go to sleep
Let it win
Let it win
But I'm bAttling
Mentally stranded out in the water
But I gotta keep paddling
Life is obsidian
Am I the reason this is happening
I keep fighting cause I'm disputatious
It won't be dark for ever
And for the events and people who made it dark
You hate this
I'm don't with you feeding me lies
I'm done drinking your ape piss
No room for convulsion in life anymore
My life is no longer spacious
Hugs not drugs
Well right now I need a hug for the ages
The symptoms are disappearing
The end of Wifeys work shift is nearing
And I'm still still
Lord Jesus
I gotta have a plan
Have to perfect my prosthesis
Wear a size 8
But I feel big like I'm wearing Wifeys size 10 adidas
Walk inside the building
Music coming from one
And texts coming from the other phone
Hand wife her umbrella and $5
She hugs me and I feel at home
Copyright © Johnny Williams | Year Posted 2016
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