Monster

If I told you would you listen If i told you would you perceive me as a monster If I told you would you go and judge My unborn beautiful daughter I'm warmhearted With the potential to get even hotter But why bother I chose not to And from that I'm perceived as moody Keep you on your toes It's my destined duty A couple mean mugs and blank faces I keep a handful in my Arsenal Funny voices and laser looks What is this a carnival If I told you would you scrutinize Feed me tables and lustly lies I'm willing to explain it to you Here I lie Wide open and ready If I have the tenacity to tell you Would you brush it off and forget me If I told if I told you And the sad thing is that I already did And you just looked at me in disgust and called me an immature little kid Should i explain the blank faces and acratic attitudes It would be easy to bloop on you with all my feelings But I dare be a different dude Is it worth being exposed emotionally Do I want my feelings all up in the nude I know all about you down to your ankles, diabetes, And glaucoma Next Ima find out you have tumors Thought you could shoot me down with rumors But I chose to shoot you down with silence And that really got your panties in a bunch Really baffled your bloomers See if I told you You would use it as amo People are F'd up And I know you would stoop that low If I told you Which I have and I thought I was being sensual not stupid I'm tired of going through it Lord Jesus Lewis Blank faces is my cover and I'm proud to be the author You won't even bother to read my 1st page I guess I'm the perceived monster What do you have amnesia The most important time that I need ya You say I need to drink to help me think I'm not even old enough to look at a margarita Let alone buy one I'm shutting down My words are all gone You ddnt listen I learned my lesson Now everybody is asking what's wrong And I can't stand partakers meddlin Ima start holding stuff in My faces are an outcry This is not for play play or pretend Do you think I put on a mask Just listen just listen That's all I asked I thought you was gunna understand Am I kinda unique No no no I'm a monster I'm a freak Don't even hand me a tissue When you see a tear hit my cheek Let it fall Cause that's what my hopes just did I reached out to you and you hid I reached out for the box of tissues And you attempted to reach my heart Access denied To you I cried And you crawled I told you And away you shyed My hopes and heart died And you tried to resuscitate Get those clamps off of me You're a little too late Ugh