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Best Poems Written by Heather Angel

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Here I am without you tears streaming down my face wondering where what when and how did i go wrong? I tried multiple times failed each time hoping to be better next time! Feelings I can't escape or deny. Why did I give up and let my guard down so easily? Many things crossed my mind memories of us back to the very first time we met I instantly knew he was the one and only for me I just had to have him in my life. Soon as I got a chance we agreed on going on a date!! As I sit in that black truck you in the driver's seat music playing as I remember Luke Bryan's CD nightly cruise through the country wind blowing on my face/hair drinking some vodka nothing better to do yet!! Night turns into Am not knowing what to expect! You pulling me closer as Im next to you singing every word to the whole song/CD amazed by how good your voice sounds just like Luke Bryan. As we drank the night away connected falling in love with one anor.. one thing led to another yep luckiest chick alive yur girlfriend! Yur away not by choice as you can imagine me lost miserable ect. waiting for your release date so we can be together again. As it gets closer for you to come home you start acting different accusing me of stuff that's not true! Pushing me away I become friends with someone not wanting anything more than friends! Well one thing led to another not being with any one for 4 1/2 years missing all the things that come with a relationship or more. Never wanting anything like this to happen. The day has come release waiting patiently for a phone call or text and nothing. What can I say it's all my fault i done this to myself!! But honestly if the tables were turned me doing time and him out here on the streets would he be waiting and being faithful?? I don't think so but could be wrong!! Every time my phone rings I hope it's him but of course it's not. 5-6 years is along time to be with someone especially engaged been through so much together like I said it's all my fault can't blame anyone but me! Being in love hurts so I'm devasted life goes on.. So i lose sleep not eat or take care of myself wishin hopen praying delusional I am!!Red i need you As I did then yur My whole life. Everything I dreamed

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Surviver

At the age 23 I struggled with my horrible addiction of heroin I had tried to stop but its not easy. Going almost four years being addicted to the devil I had many complications and several hospital visits sometimes it was 3-4 days then it could have been weeks as I lay there miserable,in constant pain due to absects from where I just didn't care sometimes and shot up where ever and there would be times that I'd miss I remember several visits to the hospital direct admits to the ICU unit.. The infection was so bad they would have to treat me with antibiotics for atleast 4-5 days then they would have to lance the site of where I injected that meant more antibiotics eventually when I would be sick the hospital would treat me like a piece of crap discriminate and judge me,reminder I'm not there for drugs. Honesty I don't know what all happened I just know I had been sick for a week or two and my parents call 911 to come get me they take me to the hospital I was so sick that phenoium turned into septic shut down all my organs I had flat lined several times so I was life lined to a hospital in Indianapolis Indiana!! Due to me being so bad off and in pain,very high fever flat lined 5-6times a day lifeless unstable I had been put into a coma thats where I laid for 3 1/2 months on life support, ventilator, chest tubes,trachea, feeding tube you name it.. Doctor's told my family I wasn't going to make it and that they was pulling the plug my parents rufused to let that happen. As I'm laying there lifeless 60%dead no control over anything I'm at the gates of heaven its so beautiful there I was so ready to go but my grandpa and other family refuse to let me in.. Due to all the medicine they had me plus a few of the meds they was given me was causing my blood circulation not flow through my legs and feet so when I finally wake up 3 1/2 months later I find out my feet/toes are dead and that ive to have heart surgery to replace the valves and put in a pacemaker. And my toes amputated I was terrified, devasted but it had to be done but I kept canceling surgery's I was alone and scared my parents had just got arrested I had noone. So they send me to a nursing home my sister begged me to have the surgery I so I did july 19 2013 I'm confined to a wheelchair!! Still have not had the heart surgery just to scared.. Being an addict really messed my life up!! I'm not going to sit here and say I'm healthy I'm not. But I am a surviver

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Wake Up Call

Sitting here in this cold dark cell thinking about hard we was liven in the hood!! Never thought I would be 15 years old strung out painkillers doing atleast twenty or thirty pills a day if I didn't have any I didn't get out bed I treated my parents horrible until my life was turned upside down.. Laying in bed i hear someone knocking on the door it gets louder and stronger theres atleast twenty police officers outside front and back. Sheriff's and all come in read us our warrants at the time I'm scared,devasted crying my heart out who in the hell would do something like this to my family? They put me in handcuffs in walk me out the house into the cop car and we all. Meet again as we are being booked all I hear is mom and dad saying babygirl its going to be okay!! No it wasn't judge sent me to a juvenile detention center where I stayed for 3 1/2 weeks can't sleep or eat withdrawals are so bad I just wait to die... Return to court in my orange county jump suit as I face the judge I'm terrified scared wondering what's happening.I see my parents across the room just want to hug them tell them I'm sorry for everything, judge comes out we discuss what's going on luckily he didn't charge me as an adult.. As I'm sitting there he asked is there anyone that could take her in my grandmother stood up and said no so I went to Vincent's Indiana to a rehabilitation center where I stayed for 8months then moved to an independent living program another 6 months I graduated from there and was moved to foster care about 4 times til they found a family for me!! I was so lost and confused. But I found myself but at the age of 17 I was raped and treated like I was nothing!! Even though I lived with the chief of police the judge said I deserved. Not right at all.. Ive so many regrets, mistakes, but I'm only getting stronger but that doesn't mean I'm healed I will never be the same.. Holding grudges scared to go any where alone.. I am being judged every where I go!! I was so upset,mad,devasted, depressed, lost and confused and full of hatred..

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Just a Dream

Why is this happening to me what did I do wrong? I'm losing my mind I can't stop shaking feeling so nauseas and lifeless where did I go wrong I loved you more than I have ever loved anyone in my whole life yes I lied to you a couple times but baby it's the past please ease my mind my heart!! Baby just tell me what I have to do or need to do I im dieing here I'm about to crash just let me go home I can hear voices and  I'm at the gates of heaven its so beautiful and peaceful up here but it just doesn't seem right the angels won't let me in they say it's not my time yet!! Why haven't you came for me? Was I right? You don't care about or never loved me please baby why me? What's that sharp pain in my chest why are you just standing there looking at me say something. Ouch that hurts oh no wait is that you rubbing your hands/fingers through my hair? Now why I am back here was I wrong please tell me i was just over reacting like always! I can talk what happened to me did you do this to me? Something isn't right I can hear you but I'm not able to say anything please tell me everything is fine and your all mine and that you love me and It was just a dream!!!

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So You Think I'M Crazy

Can't sleep mind racing endless thoughts non stop shaking as if I was ill not knowing what's going on or what not terrified and scared all you know is that you don't like the feeling or any of it! It's been 5days still no change only getting worse haven't slept but maybe a couple hours a day if that afraid to not knowing what could happen so the only way I know to keep myself some what calm I talk to myself to reassure my own self that I'm still alive and not dead I been through similar things like this.. I even try and make myself laugh just to feel better nobody knows what this is like what it feels like how bad, difficult and all that this is. Instead they just say I'm crazy and delusion lost my mind!! I think their funny because I'm not any of that I'm just a chick that has many health issues and when things act up this is the only thing thats known to do. Not that I'm afraid to die because I'm not I have been to heaven just wasn't my time!! If this makes me crazy or any of that then so be it!! I just call/ consider what I do to help myself my own kind of medicine or treatment.. some say it's stupid and all but I find it alot better than haven to take all them drugs that the doctor gives patients not knowing if their going to help or make them worse. So before you judge somebody make sure you know all the facts or details all because you just never know..

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Unexpected Feelings

You know your my baby right? You know can't nobody ever take your place right? Your always gonna be my number 1 right? I'm going to be around forever you know this right? You know one day I'm going to put a ring on your finger! Your always gonna have a special place in my heart! You know im falling in love with you every second of the day? I never loved some like this, you know it's getting so real right? I'm loving every second every minute every hour of us even if it's just us sitting here in silence honestly as long as I'm with you that's all that matters to me babe!! I'm never giving up on us you know your always going to be my baby my love my heart my soul my world my everything and that ain't ever changing.. And I hope and pray that you believe what Im saying..

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Nine Months

It's been nine months since I left you it wasn't easy at all you was such a big part of my life for on and off 14 years i trusted and believed in you that you would keep me safe happy and many other things! Thought you wouldn't ever hurt me lie,cheat,steal any of that! I told you my deepest darkest fears,secrets, asked you to never take advantage of me or my family/ friends. Knowing everything I had been through and all I felt that your the only thing I could turn to and have on my side. Never asked for much!! Myself being lost,lonely,scared,angry,confused all the above. You guided me in as if I was one of your own! Our relationship became stronger we was together at all times our bond was unbreakable the love was stronger than anything I ever had or felt! Every time I put you inside my veins I felt unbelievable amazing all my worries and problems disappeared the feeling of being loved unconditionally it was insane! We became as if we were soul mates like a married couple incredibly in love!! Until you got me right where you wanted me couldn't live without you or even be without you if I was I felt like I was dieing to where I begged for God to take my life because you betrayed me and lied,used, physically and mentally and emotionally abused, lost many friends and family due to you had me lieing cheating stealing and other things that I would have never done in my life. Attempting suicide a few times just so I could end the pain and suffering from being an herion addict needle junkie that I truly hated more than anything in this world. I was alone scared many things nobody to turn to it was either move out of that town or end up in jail/prison and I most definitely didn't want that. I left town without even looking back remind you I had myself totally convinced that I couldn't live without herion/the devil!! Nine months later I'm alive clean and sober getting my life back on track new beginning and away from that town a good 2-3hours away. Only been back there one time and was so nausea and sick to my stomach and nervous) scared because I know what goes on there any so much more. I was there long enough to get the paperwork I needed and that's it no looking back!! But here I am nine months later alive trying to get do whats Best for myself and others if they need my support I will be there to help and support in any way possible. I survived not knowing I could all you have to do is want it more than anything and hope and pray and God heavenly father will be there no matter what. I'm still a working progress but bettering myself and many others!! Have faith never give up.

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One Love

Before I met i was just a lost lonely n many other things 27 year old female thingsoking for a relationship or anything like that. Continued to hang out watch movies together many other things then you both started liking each other but you still stayed Just friends then one night it happened you both agreed to no relationship but feelings just kept getting stronger.. Eventually you both was in love. She moved in with him thinking everything will be just fine for this first month or so it was then be changed! But every time asked what was wrong his reply would be nothing.. She knew better but she continued to stay because she loved him with all she has in her!! Crying all the time trying to starve her self thinken that if she may have lost some weight he would feel completely different different about her. Just so you know this girl had already made some changes for him changed her hair color two different colors then cut it. She went with out a phone for a month to prove to him that she could and would for him. Now she sits at thy foot of the bed crying her heart and soul out wondering what she can do to fix things!! Unfortunate she fears its done to late.. She continue praying hopen for answer never getting any so she's so devasted and broken but still stay.

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New Beginning

Never thought I could possibly go this long without you i don't think that I ever did but changes have been made ones that should have been done years ago when I was given a second chance at life. But that didn't happen until two years later took alot to just up and leave my home town some family and friends but I needed it. So I moved three hours away cut ties with many people they didn't deserve to be a apart of my life. At first i didn't know what to do or how to act considering never being this far from the home town so I just went with only communicating with a few people from here but I learnt they really ain't who they say they are started hanging out with a special someone and it made since that's a sign from God.... This special someone supported and believed in me helped me become who I am today.. Don't get me wrong I will always have the monkey sitting on my shoulder whispering things into my ears as to using but that's when you either block it out or say no!! That special someone is my boyfriend my heart soul my world my everything!! We help each other in many different ways that's what we are for.. Moving away from my home town and getting clean was the bestest thing I ever done with God's help just like the signs from God.. If I would have not made these changes I would not be where im at today in life Clean and sober going strong since September 2015 and with the love of my life and still bettering myself.. Many more changes and updates to come

Best Poems Written by Heather Angel

Nobody Knows

All My Fault

Surviver

Wake Up Call

Just a Dream

So You Think I'M Crazy

Unexpected Feelings

Nine Months

One Love

New Beginning