So You Think I'M Crazy

Can't sleep mind racing endless thoughts non stop shaking as if I was ill not knowing what's going on or what not terrified and scared all you know is that you don't like the feeling or any of it! It's been 5days still no change only getting worse haven't slept but maybe a couple hours a day if that afraid to not knowing what could happen so the only way I know to keep myself some what calm I talk to myself to reassure my own self that I'm still alive and not dead I been through similar things like this.. I even try and make myself laugh just to feel better nobody knows what this is like what it feels like how bad, difficult and all that this is. Instead they just say I'm crazy and delusion lost my mind!! I think their funny because I'm not any of that I'm just a chick that has many health issues and when things act up this is the only thing thats known to do. Not that I'm afraid to die because I'm not I have been to heaven just wasn't my time!! If this makes me crazy or any of that then so be it!! I just call/ consider what I do to help myself my own kind of medicine or treatment.. some say it's stupid and all but I find it alot better than haven to take all them drugs that the doctor gives patients not knowing if their going to help or make them worse. So before you judge somebody make sure you know all the facts or details all because you just never know..