All My Fault
Here I am without you tears streaming down my face wondering where what when and how did i go wrong? I tried multiple times failed each time hoping to be better next time! Feelings I can't escape or deny. Why did I give up and let my guard down so easily? Many things crossed my mind memories of us back to the very first time we met I instantly knew he was the one and only for me I just had to have him in my life. Soon as I got a chance we agreed on going on a date!! As I sit in that black truck you in the driver's seat music playing as I remember Luke Bryan's CD nightly cruise through the country wind blowing on my face/hair drinking some vodka nothing better to do yet!! Night turns into Am not knowing what to expect! You pulling me closer as Im next to you singing every word to the whole song/CD amazed by how good your voice sounds just like Luke Bryan. As we drank the night away connected falling in love with one anor.. one thing led to another yep luckiest chick alive yur girlfriend! Yur away not by choice as you can imagine me lost miserable ect. waiting for your release date so we can be together again. As it gets closer for you to come home you start acting different accusing me of stuff that's not true! Pushing me away I become friends with someone not wanting anything more than friends! Well one thing led to another not being with any one for 4 1/2 years missing all the things that come with a relationship or more. Never wanting anything like this to happen. The day has come release waiting patiently for a phone call or text and nothing. What can I say it's all my fault i done this to myself!! But honestly if the tables were turned me doing time and him out here on the streets would he be waiting and being faithful?? I don't think so but could be wrong!! Every time my phone rings I hope it's him but of course it's not. 5-6 years is along time to be with someone especially engaged been through so much together like I said it's all my fault can't blame anyone but me! Being in love hurts so I'm devasted life goes on.. So i lose sleep not eat or take care of myself wishin hopen praying delusional I am!!Red i need you As I did then yur My whole life. Everything I dreamed
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