Details |
Insane Jane Poem
THAT MOMENT WHEN: you get a grip of reality
& the segments of the figment of your imaginary,
turns out to be nothing more than your FANTASIZED creativity
THAT MOMENT WHEN:you come to the realization
you're being simple...but you could care less about a moral or a principal
THAT MOMENT WHEN: you stare in his eyes & visualize
what could be,falsely...the indecency...
THAT MOMENT WHEN: you accept your visual blindness
to be your weakness... the hassel for the Mistress
who is now the Ex
The Example of why you should never TAmper and leave well enough alone when its all said and done He's sure to go Home
Copyright © Insane Jane | Year Posted 2015
|
Details |
Insane Jane Poem
Desparage,more so, less impressive
I've demeaned my opinion of my self esteem,
As a pitbull I too, am bemeaned
On the contrary I am my very own abuser, the ultimate credited bruiser, I am the controlled life time looser
All by choice
in response I begin to question me
Internal & subjectively
Why haven't I advanced yet to a positive conclusion,
My mind frame's allusion is base set on frustration & confusion
At times I don't feel as if I can escape my faith
Im set in my ways, the caotic factors my life portrays
Over the years I've depraised and degraded my uniqueness
I've exchanged my assertiveness for shameless tactlessness
Never minded what was precieved of me
For all I can be is Me right?
Copyright © Insane Jane | Year Posted 2015
|
Details |
Insane Jane Poem
My intellectual being has awaken
Its a total new me in the making
I keep trying to re-event myself
Eliminating all elements and factors of stress
My main focus is to Succeed and Excell
Prosper and Prevail
No longer have I the time to dwell
on the pettiness of life's misfortunes
But change my current situation to a memorable sensation
My mode of living has had its ups and downs
But thru the downfalls i've always had someone in my corner
Someone in my ear lifting me to higher grounds
Thank God for his mercy without Him nothing is even possible but ironically with Him nothing is impossible
Dont talk about it be about... let your life speak for itself
No ones else words could object or detest
Your failure or Your maturation
It all depends on you,& your determination,
Whether vigorous or laguorous... what you retrieve is exactly what you'll recieve so keep God first and let everything else fall rightfully into place
Copyright © Insane Jane | Year Posted 2015
|
Details |
Insane Jane Poem
Its crazy cause I knowing gave my heart to a man who has a better half
At times I laugh
To keep from falling all in my feelings
I've tried to cut all dealings... with this man
But my heart as well as my mind had its very own plan
I tried for the most part to understand but my insight to the situation is void
With my very own feelings I've toyed
Although he says he loves me i kno he loves her more
She's hard core, his obligation; a mandatory chore where as I'm his sideline private whore
That he may have developed some sort of feelings for
But so what I've come to anther conclusion
Instead of my secretive invasions, & my the limited intrusions
I need my very own man to satisfy my soul
Complete me, wind and dine me, sex me, all as a whole
I wanted that person so badly to be you
Although I knew
Our love would never blossom to anything more
Bc Mrs. Chore has it on lock
Regardless to all the tricks and attempts her strong hold always blocks and forces me to Stop
Dead in my tracks thats the kind of love and respect I envy bc that's the very kind I lack
Copyright © Insane Jane | Year Posted 2015
|
Details |
Insane Jane Poem
So I was once told the story of "THE BLACK ROSE".
As Intriguing as It was,so persuasive and mysterious, one would assume they'd already know, precisely how the story goes...
BUT NO, NOT SO...
Get ready for the blissful twist
Which resulted as merely a simple Kiss
Big Daddy you put that real on my mind
Made me see the value to me as well as my time
You stepped in between my normal routine
Presented to me Fool's Gold wasn't at all the actual Thing or Bing
Not even so much the ideal Fling
MADE ME SEE... surely I was such more
Than a simple silly sideline whore
Naive, still I got lost in your words & though to myself he wants the rose
But then too, I thought again.For what, what was his intention or purpose?
Now I've come to accept you my friend were my excape, my destraction,
You my friend said "You'd do" exactly as you said you would
If only I applied myself to be all that I could
You wanting me... made me want you
Which opened my eyes too all actuality
I was caught in Fool's Paradise but now I'm back to Reality
The purity of existing and being all that I can be thanks to you my vision is 20/20
The Black Rose which is me...
Have the ability to apply adjustments to me which brings about me being sencerely Happy
No need for thorns to protect...
From neglect or reject but to cautiously correct & know rather than to expect
When the right one does come alone
I won't have to ask because True love will automatically be shown.
Copyright © Insane Jane | Year Posted 2016
|
Details |
Insane Jane Poem
Although it feels I'm far just know I'm near
Physically absent, my dear
But always in your heart, I need you to know I'm here
Torn from my baby boy at 18 months
Leaving you to survive such unthinkable taunts
I've watched you grow over the years and I must say I'm incredibly proud of the man you've become
I know at times my memorial stories are as unhealed scars but when you hang your head low baby look to the stars
For I am your Guardian angel...you are a conquer I'll see you through the pain and the awes
My baby, my son, my one and only prized possession I'm sorry you were Robbed of my love and affection
But your father did awesome as my life ended yours however just begun
Don't be sad my love, don't allow heaviness to grip your heart but instead think happy thoughts and know most importantly I'm far but I'm near
Physically absent my dear
But in your heart shall I continue to live
Copyright © Insane Jane | Year Posted 2015
|
Details |
Insane Jane Poem
Deep in thought contemplating,
more like meditating on us
Everything seems perfect although its built on deciet & deception,
some type of trust
True enough I love you and I kno you care Somewhat for me;
but the cold reality which is we will never be anything more...
My heart has grasp the fact and it must endure
My mind has accepted the fact,& I am now sure
This is not a game & we shouldn't gamble.
How can we knowingly engage in such a scandalous shamble?
Although you appear to be flawless in every way, you seem to be just perfect for me
I've come to the realization, I'm an one woman intrusion,
a well wanted invasion lead to believe such assumptions
through desiring persuasion
Never-the-less Karma has a way of repeating herself
Copyright © Insane Jane | Year Posted 2015
|
Details |
Insane Jane Poem
This agonizing pain I feel, seems to have placed itself permanently in my life.
Such Anguish, Indestructible distress; somewhat like a wife petrified for her life, battered
My brain is disorderly disfused, rather scattered
Optistically I envision uncondensed exhilaration and contentment
Skeptically I attempt to avail myself from such treatment
The hatred, the resentment
The tears over the years
The aching blackness reveals its definite position
To keep me vexed & grieved I believe is its sole mission
TAKEN captive, internally contending to overcome this overwhelming struggle called Life
Finding myself second guessing and always contemplating Twice
My mode of Living is rather quarrelsome, belligerently abound
Vainly efforts only to be bashed back to the ground
But yet Still I must Remain Strong...Keep the faith and Hold
Copyright © Insane Jane | Year Posted 2015
|
Details |
Insane Jane Poem
I've cried so much over the years, and now your absence hurts ever more than it did before
Oct 21, soon to be 10 long years of grief ,however,"the pain I must continue to cope with & endure"
As a child I couldn't understand why God took you from me ,physically
It affected me badly, more so emotinally and mentally
You are missed more than you know if only words could explain, my pain
Although I've tried to find some sort of comfort within anothor's mother
Sadly but honestly I found none
When I say I 've learned my place time & time again (i've come to realize)
When its all said and done you can't compete for a mother's affection when it comes to her kid
They may care deeply for you but you're sadly mistaken if you think for a second you're gonna win
I'VE HEARD YOU NEVER KNO HOW MUCH YOU MISS SOMETHING OR SOMEONE UNTIL THE DAY IT GONE.
I REGRET THE FACT I ANGRILY WALKED AWAY
IT EATS AT ME EVERY DAY, B/C I HAD THE CHANCE BUT DIDNT SAY... "I LOVE YOU " THINKING I WOULD HAVE TOMARROW
unfortunitely for you tomarrow never came LEAVING ME TO FEEL SO MUCH GRIEF AND SORROW
I LIVE MY LIFE TO MAKE YOU PROUD & I HOPE YOU ARE SMILING DOWN ON ME
FOR EVER & ALWAYS WILL I LOVE YOU, TAMMY!!!!
Copyright © Insane Jane | Year Posted 2015
|
Details |
Insane Jane Poem
Who's to blame for my persistent heart-ache & pain
Continuous attemps all in which ending the exact same
The tears over the years
different loves but the exact same experiences
could it be me
So eager to give me freely
But does he truly deserve me
Or even better I'm thinking
Do i deserve his kind of treatment
Knowing i deserve better stuck in my stage of contentment...
I live to love my settlement
My faithful commitment
To be true to you but are you true to me,or will you be the ruin of me
Copyright © Insane Jane | Year Posted 2015
|