Facing Reality

Its crazy cause I  knowing gave my heart to a man who has a better half At times I  laugh To keep from falling all in my feelings I've  tried to cut all dealings... with this man But my heart as well as my mind had its very own plan  I tried for the most part to understand but my insight  to the situation is void With  my very own feelings I've toyed  Although  he says he loves me i kno he loves her more She's hard core,  his obligation; a mandatory chore where as I'm  his sideline private whore That he may have developed some sort of  feelings for But so what  I've  come to anther conclusion Instead of my secretive invasions, & my the limited intrusions  I need my very own man to satisfy my soul Complete  me, wind and dine me, sex me, all as a whole I wanted that person so badly to be you Although I  knew  Our love would never blossom to anything more Bc Mrs. Chore has it on lock Regardless  to all the tricks and attempts her strong hold always blocks and forces me to Stop Dead in my tracks thats the kind of love and respect I  envy bc that's the very  kind I  lack