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Sara Murad Poem
whenever i close my eyes and brood
i hear a howl and a roar
in my soul
a howl and a roar that blast me harmfully
for not achieving my goal
i demand to execute my heavenly wants
to cease the thing am here for .
Copyright © Sara Murad | Year Posted 2006
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Sara Murad Poem
From the ablaze of thunder
They all flew;
In front the doors of hell
There stood the crew
Asking for a little bit of mercy
Wanting it to be so true…
Ceasing the demons from stabbing another soul
Is what I want to do
But hatred and anger
What only grew
Ceaseless nights and the darkest lights
Have got into my heart
I smile and I laugh though
I just want my day to be oh so bright…
I'm losing my friend
God I don’t want this to end
Nonsense words were spoken above
Because of this idea that I hate so much
I'm still losing my friend
And my faith in god is what will end…
He's taking her away
I need her badly to stay
I look into her eyes and cry
And wish it's me who is gona die…
The moment I knew
The breeze of fear
The touch of pain
Have dropped on my soul again
I wanted to scream
I wished it was a dream
God this is so mean…
I'm tearing really hard
On my life I want a guard
A guard to help me live again
And cease each and every pain
I want to erase my every sin
Please god help me win
My weary soul can hold no more
Just help her live
And give her faith
And get her smile back to her face
Every night I pray alone
And remain awake until its dawn
I sit on the piano and play
And let my tears free each night
And each day
My heart is very weak
And I will soon
Become so bleak
If this is how life is meant to be
Then what am I and she to thee..?
If this is the way you want to rule
don’t you think it's quiet cruel..?
If in pain and agony you want me to dive
Then why do you want me still alive..?
I'm your worshipper and you're my knight
Please keep her close I want to hold her tight
My constant tears will dry so soon
And you'll see me walking blindly to my doom
Why does happiness never last;
Why does it have to fade so fast?
Keep her god;
I want her near
Keep her god;
I want her here…
I'm so tired my dear…
Copyright © Sara Murad | Year Posted 2008
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Sara Murad Poem
The baleful words you say,
Leave painful scars in me
Permitting them to possess my heart
Oppressively.
Withstanding the bitterness and pain
You caused,
Conquering and diminishing me
By using your atrocity,
Feeling sadness flowing violently,
Warding happiness away,
Filling my eyes with hurtful tears
And meaningful pain,
Feeling the darkness reign.
God,
You’re my ally,
You’re the one I stand still for,
Forgive my sins,
Ease my pain,
Reborn the me in me again...
Copyright © Sara Murad | Year Posted 2007
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Sara Murad Poem
Under his sacred tree he sat
With tears in his eyes
Tired of fleeing away
Scared of being a part
of this cruelty
Under his sacred tree he sat
Asking god to take him away
To forgive his sins
To spare his soul
Under his sacred tree he sat
Looking around him
with despair
Feeling the darkness in his blood reign
Under his sacred tree he sat
With his eyes closed
Thinking of his life
as a huge mistake
Wondering why god
is permitting this world
to torment his weary heart
Wondering when will his painful tears dry
Wondering when will this vain world cease
Then in front of him
he saw the bright face
That relieved his pain
and moderated his agony
with a tear crawling on his face,
with smile drawn on his face
he died
under his sacred tree
he died …
Copyright © Sara Murad | Year Posted 2007
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Sara Murad Poem
The family
am supposed to be a member of,
the house
am supposed to be a part of,
filled my days
with sorrow and pain..
On Christmas,
I sneak out for a while
Watching other kids
Opening their gifts
With a smile drawn
on their face
and they’re parents
giving them a kiss,
then watching me
looking at them
with painful tears
filling my eyes..
I wanted to tell her
how much I miss her,
I wanted to tell him
How much I respect him
I wanted to tell them
How much I love them
But they won’t listen to me
They would hit me instead
And me from deep inside
I cry:
“please stop hitting me please,
Please have mercy
on my innocent soul please”
am a child
that cant bare anymore.
Pain
Is what I always feel,
Swears
Is what I always hear..
I escaped
but then came back
knowing that nobody
would accept
a child like me,
a child with torn clothes
and dirty hair.
I escaped
But then came back
Knowing that
I have to accept my fate..
Am barely alive from outside
But totally dead from inside..
Asking god,
To reborn the me in me
Is what I always do
Although I know
he’s against me too..
hate
is what is see in their eyes..
they made me taste
the bitterness of life
although am still a child
they hate me very much
although am still a child
a weight of a mountain
is on my back
although am still a child..
I always ask god
To forgive my sins
Although I don’t have any,
I always ask god
To moderate my agony
Although I know he wont..
Day and night I wonder
If she would ever remember me
When I die,
Day and night I wonder
if she would ever remember
that she had a child
when I die..
before I left,
I wrote them a letter
that said:
“mommy and daddy
I love you,
Am sorry
if I had ever disappointed you,
am sorry,
if I was a naught boy,
Am sorry mom
for not finishing my courses on time
the last few days
but I was tired mom,
really tired,
I always wanted a kiss
from you,
I always wanted a hug
From you,
I always wanted to feel
Am your child.
I needed you with me,
I never knew
why you hated me..
and now mom and dad
I’ll leave, it’s time now,
God wants me to be with him,
Mommy and daddy,
I love you”
Copyright © Sara Murad | Year Posted 2007
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Sara Murad Poem
Oh God,
Everything is fading,
I am dying,
My soul is crying
Endless tears,
endless tears keep on falling
darkness all around me,
sadness surrounding me,
For a minute
I think I'm happy;
A smiling soul
But a dead child instead
That needs to be resurrected again
By the touch of love
By the touch of your care my highness…
Im still a child inside,
Im a child
that cant find its way out,
Am alone
All alone
Feeling my heartbeats
race like wind,
feeling my fingers
shiver from fear,
listening to my soul
crying out of pain…
I need your power my highness
I need your power
to be my warrior
in easing my pain
in resurrecting me again…
Copyright © Sara Murad | Year Posted 2008
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Its her and me in the picture I see
But now it’s the end between her and me
Her careless soul
Her vain self
Her tough tone
Brought me back to reality
The rumors she spread
The sorrow she left
The ploy she played
Were insuperable for me
I suspected in her
But then convinced myself
That no way this girl
Would betray
my weary heart
and me with silent words
and painful tears
I sit alone
dying inside
but now I enjoy sitting
by the flame
watching this sorrowful memory
burning away…
Copyright © Sara Murad | Year Posted 2007
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Sara Murad Poem
My mom is dying
And me in front of her
I sit and cry
The tears of endless pain..
My mom is dying
And me fondling her hair
with love,
whispering to her ears
that everything
is going to be fine,
although I know it’s not..
my mom is dying
and me standing out there
under the violent rain
blaming God for
taking her away from me..
my mom is dying
and me contemplating
the pain that’s surrounding
her heart..
my mom is dying
and me hearing her
utter to
god to keep me safe
and take her away soon..
my mom is dying
and me watching
the tears of sadness
sinking in her lifeless eyes..
my mom is dying
and me listening to her
uttering to me her words:
“ don’t live your life miserable
When am gone,
Don’t leave the pain
Kill my heart up there
When I watch you cry,
Live my life.
Live my life and keep going,
Erase your past
And write your future.
I’ll be taken away from this world
But not from your heart,
Not from your soul.
I love you my daughter,
I love you..”
Sitting by the window
Watching the ray of thunder
Hit the ground..
Sitting by the window
Listening to the drops of rain
Fall..
Sitting by the window
Contemplating the darkness
Of the dark..
Sitting by the window
Crying
Crying
Crying..
Im lost
And nobody can hear
my silent scream..
im lost
and nobody can see
my painful tears..
im lost
im lost
im lost..
I got her the chocolate
She always loved
I got her the rose
She used to be
And put them by her grave..
Sitting by he grave
Talking to her
with constant tears..
sitting by her grave
whispering to her
my thoughts..
As a fish needs the sea
To stay alive,
I need her with me to live
As a baby needs his mother’s love
To feel safe,
I need her with me to live
As we all need happiness
To keep walking,
I need her with me to live,
I need her with me
To keep my heart going on..
Sitting by the window again
Listening to the silence
of the dark..
sitting by the window again
contemplating
our happy memories..
sitting by the window again
asking god
to have mercy on her soul
and promising my mom
to make her always proud..
as I fall into my deep sleep
I utter my last words:
“ I love you mom.”
Copyright © Sara Murad | Year Posted 2007
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Sara Murad Poem
Sitting alone,
Waiting for the sound of happiness,
From the passage of my imaginations
And the open door of my heart,
Sitting there hopefully waiting for this sound,
To kill the emptiness in me,
And fulfill my heart with happiness and cheer,
Sitting there hopefully,
For this sound to be near,
But the faithless world kept me,
Waiting for this day until the end,
The end when my heart and soul come by,
And leave them buried under the ground,
Painfully…
Copyright © Sara Murad | Year Posted 2007
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Sara Murad Poem
I felt warm
Deep inside,
I felt happy
Deep inside,
Love melted my heart
Deep inside,
Wanted you always near
Deep inside,
Your voice echoed in my mind
Deep inside,
Your picture was in my heart
Deep inside,
I kept thinking of you
Deep inside,
But ,
You killed me deeply
when I found out your betrayal
you made me suffer
painfully
after the love I gave you
and carelessly
you left me buried under the ground awfully …
Copyright © Sara Murad | Year Posted 2007
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