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Jack Oritx Poem
THE TOUR
WHOA!
Stop right there my friend!
For there’s no place in where you can run and hide
So stop and listen
Listen to the voices warning you to go back
Screaming out to beware of the horror that flows through this young child’s mind
Opps too late!
You just had to do it
Didn’t you
You just had to enter into the darkness of this fallen soul
Well don’t just stand there come closer since its to late
To turn back now
Ready?
Okay then welcome to the horrors of this poetic mind
For in here you’ll hear and feel what’s like to be me
For you’re in my world now and its not a pretty site
So where do you like to begin
Oh I know
Why don’t we go and see what my heart is up to
Shall we
Heart: this is umm oh I’m sorry but you never told me what’s your name is
Oh well it doesn’t matter
Heart, do you mind telling my new friend here how you continue to beat inside of this old wrap body of ours
My pleasure I may beat but what I really want to do is
Explode from all the voices that whisper to my soul
Late at night
Thanks heart and speaking of our soul
Let’s go see what she’s up to okay
Oh come on don’t try to run away now
I tried to warn you before but you didn’t want to listen
No
You had dare to challenge the demons that rule over
My heart, mind and soul
So let’s just move on
Hello Ms. Soul, I’d like for you to meet-
Damn I really must learn your name anyway
Would you mind telling my friend here
How you continue to live and breathe through all of this everlasting pain
Am I breathing?
For day after day it feels like I’m suffocating from
All this torment pain that flows through this child’s body
For if you’d take a closer look inside of this old soul
Of mines you’d see that I’m slowly dying from the inside out
For maybe there’s a God above who’ll hopefully
One day will forgive this child of mines
Or
Maybe the devil below who can hardly wait to get
His ferly hooks inside this soul
For if we aren’t allow to enter in neither one then
Please I’m begging you please let me go and allow
Us to burn in eternal peace
Whoa!
Even I’m lost for words let’s just move on before
You start whining again
So just sit back and relax as I introduce you
To the most horrifying part of our tour
The disturbing words of this child’s poetic mind
Well thank you for that lovely intro and let me say
How brave your young friend is for coming this far
Frankly I never thought you’d make it
Any way I know that I’m just blabbing for I know
How you must feel I bet you’re just dying for me
To just shut the hell up so you could get the hell
Out of here
Am I right?
Of course I am so let me get to the point then you’ll be free
To go
We come into this world without any guardian angels
To show us how our life is going to be
For I’m just a young child whose soul’s more than happy
To welcome the bright lights of an icy hell that fills
My heart
And before you open your mouth to interrupt
Let me save you the trouble since I know what your
Going to say
You’re going to say
That these feelings will not last forever if I just have a
Little faith
Well let me tell you that forever has been here and gone
My friend
And to this very day this child is yet to believe that her day of faith will ever come
For I’ve shown you all of my soul’s silence
I’ve told you all of my heart’s torments
But most important I’ve shown you the real me
Not the happy outgoing person that I always
Pretend to be
For don’t you think that I’d love to forget how I’ve
Been raped of all my innocence, faith and trust
And have them replace with numbness, shame and pain
But I can’t blame you for the sins of this child’s past
No
That would be useless since I could never be the person
That so many of you wish for me to be
So that completes the ending of this tour
How did you like it
Aww it left you pretty speechless huh
I had a feeling that it’d well don’t just stand there
With that stupid look on your face go get the hell out here
That’s it just turn around and walk away
Oh one more thing before you go I never did get your name
Well it was very nice to finally met you God
Now please get the hell out of here before you get trapped
Within the walls of this wicked disturbed mind
Oh hey wait!
Could I just ask you for one small favor before you go
I can
Hey thanks
Okay umm now bear with me cause this ain’t easy for me
To ask
But okay I really never learned how and nobody ever took
The time to teach me and it’d mean so much
To me if you’d open your heart just for a second and say
A prayer for me then maybe in that same split second I’d learn how to undo all the pain that ever been
For one day if you shall remember me
Remember what you’ve learn here today I want you to look down from that holy thorn of yours that you call heaven
But I warn you, your eyes will burn from all the flames
But don’t be sad
For just as so many have forsaken you I’ve chosen to forsaken you
Since the day I was born
And yes, I’ll burn and forever vanish in a blink of an eye
Why?
You dare to ask well since the day you’ve placed me
In a place named hell to live
And love don’t you think its only natural that I would want to die here too
Just think about it
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A DARKEN TALE
ONCE UPONE A TIME IN A LAND FAR BEYOND THE REACH OF GOD’S
GOLDEN SKY
THE DEMONS OF MY SOUL ARE CLUTTERING AROUND THIS
COLD AND DARK ROOM PATIENTLY WAITING TO SEE ON WHICH ROAD THIS LOST
SOUL OF MINES WILL TAKE ITS LAST RIDE ON
FOR AM I TRULY ALONE OR PERFECTLY DEAD
I WONDER NIGHT AFTER NIGHT
AS I SIT HERE ON THIS COLD HARDEN FLOOR JUST STARING AT THE WALLS OF
HEAVEN AND HELL
AS THEY CRY OUT TO ME
CHOSE WISLY MY LITTLE ONE
FOR ONE OF THESE ROADS WILL FREE YOU FROM ALL YOUR BUDERNS AND GRANT YOU
ENTERNAL LIFE FAR FAR AWAY FROM THIS FORSAKEN PLACE
WHILE THE OTHER WILL SIMPLE JUST ADORE YOU AS YOUR GENTLY BURNS AWAY
FOR COULD THIS BE MY UNHOLY FATE TO STAY LOCKED UP IN THIS DARKEN ROOM
FOREVER WITHOUT NEVER KNOWING THE REASON WHY
WHY THIS OLD SOUL OF MINES MUST REMAIN SHACKLED TO THIS ROOM
EVEN THOUGH IT CRIES TO YOU
PLEASE RELEASE ME FOR MY HEART IS JUST ABOUT TO EXPLODE FROM ALL
THE YEARS OF EVERLASTING PAIN
BUT I GUESS MY PLEAS HAVE FALLEN ON DEAF EARS
SINCE I CAN’T REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I’VE HEARD FROM YOU LAST
OH WELL
I MIGHT AS WELL JUST TURN IN FOR A FINAL GOOD NIGHT
OH BUT WAIT
WHO IS THIS I SEE FLOATING THROUGH MY WALLS OF TORMENT OF DELIGHT
WHO IS THIS GHOSTLY FIGURE WHO DARES TO ENTER MY DARKEN ROOM
FILLING IT WITH SOME KIND OF HOLY LIGHT
IS THAT YOU GOD
OR
IS IT YOUR BETTER HALF
SHALL I KNEEL BEFORE AND BEG FORGIVENESS
OR
SHALL I KNEEL AND BEG YOU TO JUST PUT AN END TO MY POECTIC LIFE
TO BE HONEST WITH YOU AT THIS POINT I DON’T EVEN CARE EITHER WAY
ALL I PRAY FOR IS THAT I CAN FIGHT ALL OF MY FEARS AND STILL
BE ABLE TO WORSHIP YOU ALL WITH ALL MY MIGHT
OR
MAYBE THERE’S REALLY NO FIGURE STANDING BEFORE ME
MAYBE THIS IS JUST A FIGMENT OF MY IMGINATION AND HE’LL JUST
DISAPPEAR WITH A BLINK OF AN EYE
BUT INSTEAD OF VANSHING THIS MYSTERIOUS STRANGER SUDDENLY
REACHED OUT HIS HAND TOWARDS ME AND SPOKE IN GENTLY MANNER
HE SAID
GIVE ME YOUR HAND COME AND STAND BESIDES ME
DON’T BE AFRAID I’VE COME FROM THE PROMISE LAND TO TAKE YOU
FAR AWAY FROM THIS DARKEN AND TAINTED ROOM
AND AS I WENT TO TAKE THIS STRANGERS HAND
SO I COULD FINALLY BECOME FREE FROM THIS DARK AND DREADFUL ROOM
THAT I’VE BEEN LIVING IN FOR SO MANY YEARS
MY EYES SUDDEN WIDEN FULL OF FEAR AS THE LIGHT THAT WAS BLINDING ME
SUDDENLY BURST INTO FLAMES
SURPRISE!
THE STRANGER SHOUTED IN AN EVIL LAUGH
STOP TRYING TO FIGHT ME CHILD
FOR I PROMISE IF YOU JUST HOLD YOUR WRIST STILL
MY KISS OF DEATH WILL NOT LAST
NO!
I YELLED WITH ALL MY MIGHT I CHANGED MY MIND
I DON’T WANT TO DIE
AND JUST AS I THOUGHT THAT THIS EVIL STRANGER WOULD OVER POWER ME
AND END MY LIFE
A CALM AND SMOOTH VOICE CAME OUT OF NOW WHERE AND ENTERED MY MIND
IT WHISPERED
IT’S OKAY NOW DARLING FOR YOU’RE SAFE AND WARM JUST OPEN YOUR EYES
AND GREET THE EARLY MORNING LIGHT
WAIT WHAT?
THIS WAS ONLY A DREAM
NO IT COULD’NT BE IT FELT TO REAL
COULD IT
OH WELL MIGHT AS WELL TURN OVER FOR ITS WAY TO EARLY
FOR THIS YOUNG POET TO GREET ANY KIND OF LIGHT
AND AS I ROLLED OVER TO FALL BACK INTO THIS TUNNEL OF DARKNESS
I’M GREETED WITH A FAMIIAR LAUGHTER
OH NO
NOT THIS AGAIN
I CRIED TO MYSELF WHILE SLICING THE BLADE DEEPER INTO MY FLESH
PRAYING THIS WILL BLOCK OUT THIS EVIL LAUGH THAT HAS GROWN LOUDER
AND LOUDER WITH EVERY SLICE I MAKE BUT THIS ISN’T WORKING
FOR SOME WHERE IN MY HEART OF HEARTS I KNOW THAT THERE WON’T BE NO
ESCAPING FROM THIS NIGHTMARE
NO NOT THIS TIME
FOR I’M FULLY AWAKE NOW WATCHING AS THE BLOOD FLOWS FREELY
OUT OF MY OPEN VEINS AND DOWN MY ARM
AND AS MY BLOOD SPILLS ONTO THE FLOOR THIS EVIL LAUGH CONTINUE TO ECHO
THROUGH THE WALLS OF MY BEAUTIFUL DARKEN ROOM
I SLOWLY CLOSED MY EYES ONE FINAL TIME AND SMILED
FOR NEVER AGAIN WILL I EVER LEAVE THIS DARKEN ROOM AND GREET
THE HEAVENS GOLDEN LIGHT
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TO WHOM:
Dear, come take a stroll with me and listen
As I tell you a story from one of many chapters of
My so called life
It all began when the laws of the streets became a part of me
And it doesn’t matter how far I run the pain of these cold
And lonely streets are never far behind
And its funny to think that you now think that
You can just open your arms once again and
Have me just fall into them and save me
From all your beautiful spoken lies of how you’ll always
Love me
Did you really believe that I could be fooled again?
Did you honestly believe that just because you say it?
That this makes all the darkness of unwanted memories
That I keep locked away just disappear
Please don’t make me laugh and think again
For there was a time when I did believe in all your words
Believed that they were true when everything made sense
When it came to me and you
But that was another life time ago
Now I see the real you
So you can stop pretending that you even do care
Care of how I’m drowning inside a sea of unseen tears
That my heart is baring
When I look back and remember of how naïve I was to believe
That you’d always be there
For I stand before I want to make it perfectly clear
That the only words that I’ll ever believe from you
Are the ones you don’t say
The only thing I want from you is for you to be honest with me
For once if that’s even possible and tell me why
When I truly loved you
Why did you take my love, my trust to a place I’d never
Hope to find
Can you answer that huh?
That’s okay
Cause it doesn’t matter anymore
For those painful scars that you’ve created inside my heart
And soul are slowly healing
And this may not mean anything to you
But to me its everything
Since now when I look at you I don’t see the person
That I did once upon a time ago that I hopelessly truly loved
I only see someone that will never again have the power to
Hurt me
For this day forward there’s nothing that you can say
Nor do that can hurt me
Cause form this day and beyond
I’ll always see you for what you truly are
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DON’T
High above the roaming golden shore a young girl stands on top
Of a rocky cliff
Looking down and just as she was about to leap into the icy waters
Of a welcoming twist of blind faith
She looks up to the heavens one last time
And says:
I might be blind but I can see that you never gave a damn about me
For deep within that taint twisted black heart of yours
I’m nothing more but a throw away puppet whose hearts strings have made your hand bleed
And now as I stand here ready to leap into these icy waters of heaven and hell
I can feel your silent tears fall upon me
But I beg don’t you stand there and say that you understand how I feel way deep inside
For you never did before and for you to say that you some day will would be more then laughable
So don’t suddenly start acting like you care when we both know that when I look into your eyes
It’s the sight of me that we both can’t stand
Don’t say how much you love me for you don’t even know the meaning of that word
Don’t try to comprehend my feelings
Cause that would be just a big waste of your precious time
For you don’t know nothing about me
You never even tried
And I’m so sick of you keep acting like I owe you some speck of everlasting emotions
I’m telling you now I’m moving and picking up the pieces of what’s left of my shattered heart and throw away the rest of your un needed love
So you see my love
What’s done is done
For I never been the person that you thought I was
The very thought of you only sickness me
And its pretty sad how easily you were fooled into believing that you could ever beat me in my own game
For in the morning I’ll be soon one leaving you alone to remember that I’m everything that you could never be
Remembering all the times you chose not to believe in me
That you chose to ignore my open arms
There’s nothing left to prove except to pay the price of own self inflected love that we both created a love that we once believed would last forever
And now an I take our love and leap into the icy water of hell
I’ll give it one final kiss and watch it slowly fade away
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DEATH
MY LAST WORDS:
Since the beginning of time it’s well-known that without life there’s no death
And
Without death there’s no life
And now as I fly through the many shadows of life and death
Death and life
I know my so called life was nothing but a perfect little dream filled with pictures of perfect little lies
For if you’d look into these blacken eyes of mines
You’d see a sick soul that has forgotten how it feels not to have her heart slip away and drown in a sea of spoken lies
A soul who is so tired of waking up each morning to look in the mirror
But instead of seeing her reflection all she sees is pieces of what she believed in smashed up
For I know it’s all slipping away from me but what the hell why should it come as any surprise
That just when everything was starting to make sense
Just when I was feeling that instead of giving in to it
I’d be strong enough to wash away all the pain
You came along and took all the trust that I was more then
Willing to give
All the love that I’ve been dying to receive and give
You came along and helped betrayed it all away
But please don’t get me wrong and think that I’m
Blaming you
For I’m way pass that since you made it obvious to me
You’ll cover up all your what you believe are truth with nothing
But more lies
And throw the rest of what you refuse to hear nor see
Back for me to believe
So how can I blame you
For if you’d really thought about it
You’d see that I should be thanking you
For if it wasn’t for you I won’t be sitting here
Right now trying to forget all the things that you
Now chose to remember
Trying to forget how you extended your hand out
To this lonely soul and lead her to believe that you
Truly cared
That you truly understand what its like to suffer inside a bleeding
Heart
And maybed you were never real in the first place
Maybe you were just a figment of last hope that only
Lived inside my head
For I still can remember the day we first met
When were both the same and I ask myself
Where did that day go
What did I do that was so bad that I’m the only one to blame
Did that day even mean anything to you
Did I
Well did i
Well I guess not
Cause after today nothing will ever be the same
For after today you’ll continue to live your happy life
Not caring of how after today I’ll continue drowning in all
The tears you’ve made me shed
For this will be the last you’ll see or hear from me
For after today as you continue to live your new life
Mines will soon be forever destroyed and gone
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A SOUL PRAYER
Not long ago on a dark and stormy winters night
A cold and empty forsaken soul watches as the light of the moon shines away the tears that roll down her pale young face
And just as she was about to close her curtains and tucks herself in
She looks up to the crystal sky one final time and begins to pray
Gods hiding behind a sky so blue
I hope that someday you’ll remember and pray for me
Cause in a few seconds or so I’m about to set free my soul and let her float away to greet you
So please forgive me
For I did what I had to do
For it was the only way I knew how to rid it of all the pain that burns inside of me
And please forgive me for a life filled with sin
As they bow and sing songs of sweet poetry of what a living hell my life truly is
But please don’t get me wrong
For I know that deep inside your heart I’ll always be consider your child
Just like you’ll always know that deep inside your soul your love for me has become completely blind
For in the morning when I awake I’ll be finally be able to see your loving face
For in the morning I’ll be standing upon your golden kingdom
Waiting patiently to greet my unholy fate
But until then as the light from the moon begins to slowly fade away
I’ll shed one last tear and pray my soul away
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