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Amber Moll Poem
Entangled in a dream, reality is so far away.
Hiding in the closet, wanting not to stay.
What surrounds me, no one knows.
This road I’m traveling, I yes, I chose.
Spinning around me are the problems I face.
Which way shall I go? I can’t find my place.
Growing weaker as the days go by,
I want to give up, I don’t want to try.
I want to deny the feelings I feel,
And the hurt only God can heal.
My mind is swollen with thoughts so deep,
Separating me from this world, I sleep.
Lying there restless, tears flowing from my eyes,
Thinking about God and how hard I try.
Wanting to reach out and take his hand,
Instead I’m stuck in this sinking sand.
Copyright © Amber Moll | Year Posted 2013
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Amber Moll Poem
When I say I Love You,
I'm afraid it will fade away.
To the nothing-ness it was,
When my skies were turning grey.
When you say I'm Beautiful,
I hold it in my hand.
In case it starts to wither,
And run out like the sand.
When you tell me how you're feeling,
And we laugh into the night.
I keep it in my pocket,
Holding on with all my might.
Afraid what I was yesterday,
I may not be today.
Then tomorrow I'll be invisible,
and you'll have nothing left to say.
So I'm holding on to everything
That made me feel happy inside.
To pull it out on days,
When no one else has tried.
To make sure I rememeber,
What I once meant to you.
Just in case its different,
When my Skies turn back to blue.
Copyright © Amber Moll | Year Posted 2013
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Amber Moll Poem
A few Minutes, a few hours, in just a few days;
You have beguiled me with your wisdom and your astute ways.
I get absorbed in these feelings, basking in your glow.
You ease my solicitous mind with your amatory flow.
Curiosity is blazing with the questions I posses.
The wonder of your breath on me, and your vehement caress.
The distance bears no mercy, when I'm longing for your embrace.
You have altruistic tendencies, I see it in your face.
The addiction of your presence, shows no clemency to my mind.
Searching for solace, in your eyes; I hope to find.
The future is unforeseen, yet rushed by all this obtrusive time.
Making each moment so valued, making each moment mine.
Copyright © Amber Moll | Year Posted 2013
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A memory crosses my path, playing scenes of blues and greens, which quickly fade to black.
The darkness brings something familiar, yet sadly a sense of betrayal by the love that I now lack.
An aching from within begins to grow , creeping up slowly until reaching what's left of my heart.
It stabs me over and over and over again, I'm bleeding inside, I'm dieing slowly, I'm falling apart.
Anger tries to follow but is blocked by all the pain engulfing my soul.
I scream inside for help, I scream at the darkness, I scream to be let go.
For a moment, a small sliver in time, it retreats and once again I can breathe a deep rigid breath.
But even my breathing comes with a distant pain and reminder of of what comes next...death.
Copyright © Amber Moll | Year Posted 2017
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Encumbered about with the many twists and turns of life.
Traveling down a long road, picking up every hitchhiker along the way.
Carrying each one alone; being conscientious to not drop one, not even the lowlife.
Contemplating each step, apprehensive of the outcome, will they go or will they stay?
Slowly sinking to the floor, the weight one can no longer bare alone,
Lamentably, there is no one who can to help; all the road signs were ignored.
Struggling with each step, knowing the perspicuous choice, the way has been shown.
Why carry this load that can walk on its own, the facts are there, this is untoward.
Unsure of the next step one by one they get set down disconcerted by this news,
Some begin to lie and claim they cannot walk, so they get picked up again out of pity.
Soon it becomes a revolving door, they begin to come and they go as they choose.
Weighed down again unable to breathe, there’s a need for a break through; a need to be free.
In one colossal move, arms stretched out like the horizon at sunset,
A spinning takes place, like the agitator of a washing machine.
All those hanging on are violently shaken off, thrown too far to pose a threat,
Running at full speed from the chaos of them all, creating all this space in between.
Unencumbered now, breathing never seems so pleasant, walking is now a run.
Flying isn’t far behind, as the relief and acceptance is now at hand.
Adding two letters to a word looks small on paper, like all that’s added is a un.
Per Contra in life it’s a freedom, it’s a matter of the soul, it’s a gesture of taking a stand.
C @ A.L.M. 2014
Copyright © Amber Moll | Year Posted 2014
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Amber Moll Poem
I think you're afraid to love me the way that I love you.
Too much uncertainty to see things through.
You put my heart in a safe, you think there it will not break.
but its suffocating from the fear of the risk you will not take.
Your careful what you say, more careful than before.
Afraid I can't take it, if you can't be anything more.
Don't want to lead me onto a dream you can't fulfill.
Even though there can be a way, if there is a will.
You won't let me in, not all the way.
Conversations left unspoken, forbidding me to stay.
Copyright © Amber Moll | Year Posted 2013
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You told me I was beautiful, you told me that you care.
Then life was more than both of us, and you suddenly weren't there.
You acted as if there was a chance for a me an you.
Then your gone with no explanation leaving my heart so blue.
You said baby I love you, I want you all today.
Then life crept up and scared you and you took your love away.
Now to you I'm worthless, my love meant nothing at all.
You pulled your hand from under me and then you let me fall.
Life was just too much for you, even when its not there.
Your selfishness won't allow you to open up and share.
Instead you push away the ones who love you with all they are.
Now your just a memory, like a distant star.
Copyright © Amber Moll | Year Posted 2013
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Diamond in my sky forever.
I wonder where you are.
You're stronger than any storm I can weather.
Deeper than my deepest scar.
But somehow I made you compare this sky,
To the one you were in before.
Uncertainty in a stable mind, from an unstable cry.
Leaving you searching along the same shore.
My sky grows dimmer when you're not in it,
The night grows cold and black.
The urge to linger, the urge to sit,
But lost from the light that I lack.
I wonder how I broke my sky,
And made my light fade away.
The Diamond wasn't forever, not sure why...
I just couldn't get it to stay.
Copyright © Amber Moll | Year Posted 2013
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I’ve always been the one to pick you up when you fall.
The one who always gave everything even when I had nothing at all.
I’ve always believed that people deserve someone to care,
Then my heart gets trampled on and no one else is there.
I’ve always seen the green when only brown was found,
Wiped your tears and dusted you off without making a sound.
I’ve always been the last to make a judgment and the first to get the blame
Been the one to remember your every need, when you forget my name.
I’ve always taken the chance in loving you but been the only one,
In return my hearts been bruised from you just being done.
I wish I could erase every chance I took on you,
Then maybe my heart wouldn't break each time you beat it blue.
Copyright © Amber Moll | Year Posted 2013
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