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it all starts with the heat of red and ends with the sting of yellow.tears fall empty,
no longer holding any meaning at all..thats it go ahead and take your self to the
depths of the issue..burry it and swollow with pride knowing your small gesture of
self sacrifice.behind bar's is where my soul disolves,let it fade,dont hold on!dont you
see??its only dragging this pain on.you are why you hurt over and over
agian.secretly punishing your self,is this how you justify you actions?yet some how
envy creeps upon you..take a breath ,now just let go...
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not so much anymore,not so much right at the door,not so much a you and me ,not
so much we wernt ment to be...a mistake the act that took place when i saw your
face wasnt fate but disaster with lives at steak..you could be more then you chooz
to be,you could be more but you wont thats why you no longer see me,you did this
but go on blame me...just a broken path leading me to places ive longed to see.but
if not for you id never known the strength with in to start agian..i wish i could
atleast call you freind,i dont hate you thou maybe i should...if you would please just
go away its to painfull to watch as you destroy yourself.its not these words you
should fear its your chance at life and how your simply watching it disapeer....
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deeper i fall into your web of deceit,tangled in all the lies i feed myself..love? weak
for needing this,my addiction is affection and ive destroyed my self for
you..consuming me! slowly evaporating my soul, crimson tides of lonelyness crash
upon me,emptying its self in me untill it washes me clean...regret doesnt even begin
to cover the sorrow silintly caked across my mind..i resent my memory for
remembering your touch..i dont think i'll ever truely get over you because everytime
i hear the word love i feel your heart beat inside of mine..time has away of effecting
everything. see you start to change ,it happens so slow takeing a hold of a part of
you that you diddnt even know excisted before..then by the time you relize it,its too
late because its the core of you..every thing is a blurr kinda coming at you in
waves,struggling to come back from this place inside,its you i see when i close my
eyes...
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im not sure if its healing or if ive simply learned to cope with the hole you left in my
soul...part of me feels guilty for trying to move on like im being unfaithful to my
heart..accepting this is it between us but holding on to hope that eventually we'll
regain the realationship we lost in pride..time seems to pass with out meaning and
ive lost track of my purpose here..friendship?ha! just another empty word used to
fill the title of this strange realationship weve come to develope..your words mean
nothing except everything to me,searching for your voice in the back of my
head,your face etched into my eye lids..ill never forget you.....
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like a warm hug it comforts while swimming throu my vains,helping block out the
silince for its the loudest in my brain and once your gone thats when ill start to
pay..thou forgiving you is easy its myself i cannot face so i turn to you with open
arms you wont judge my lifetime of misstakes...bitter sweet i force i smile im just
one more victim in your game.takeing and breaking all you touch throu your warm
embrace.forever ill remeber just the way you taste.invisible chains link me to you
with no keys youd prefer to keep me trapt in this wasteland...
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the lights are on but nobodys home.ive failed my self ,try and force a smile because
the truth is i never ment to be like this yet still youll judge me while i take my turn
spinning in this slow dance with regret....ill break my self foolishly watching
you simply chooz not to bend.love isnt allways fate..,shhhh if your real quite you can
hear it fade,staining everything it touches allong the way...in the end youll finally
see how time was not a friend....terrified behind wasted eyes we'll find everything
in nothing distracted by our sins... with directions to a place i never wanted to
know, memorys are now the enemy and i am not my friend....
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choke on your words on your sad appolgies because im the one who's sorry,sorry
lifes not all we dreampt itd be.the unknown..an enternal conflict,sick with
bitterness...am i the only one watching as we destroy our selfs?? this is the
begining,this is the world welcomeing you to what will be the end.. with open eyes
youll still see nothing if nothing is what u choose to see.they say to see is to believe
but oh how theres bliss in ignorance.and i fear ill never know the words to prove to
you but then agian who am i to say for i too am here lost among the broken the
sinners and the damnd...liviing,dieing,wake n bake ha! my brian is frying .wasted
time.if im not gonna remember then why cant i just forget?. drowning in a thousand
words i long for answers maybe its my question thats unclear......empty,theres no
comfort to be found in your fears.
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you hate who ive become yet you made me who i am,tramitized by lost time and lies
ive lost my self completely..say goodbye then deny all the words you've said in
vain.the attintion you couldnt give leaves me seeking for somthing ill never find..i
feel like im burning in the water and drowning in the flame,im choking on nothing
while playing this god forsaken game...im afiad of the dark but its like im allergic to
the light.the fear consumes me leaving me alone and scared inside..shatered by the
broken glass gasp for air,deny the past its only real if you say it is ,the truth is what
you make it....
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