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A Chest of Pain

I can't seem to forget the neglect
Nor the ache of my heart
I can't make the hurts disappear
The sorrow just wont go.

I can't remember a time
When you were even there
I remember only a little girl, 
Who only had her tears.

Words like I love you 
Weren't often said
No, there were no praises
No sweet words to tuck me in.

I can't remember a time 
When you ever did what you said
I can only see you walking.

I never knew a real mother
Because you never really were there

There were always places you had to go
And people you had to see

And you never seemed to care
If your little girl was all right
As long as you got your next fix
The world was all right.

It never seemed to bother you
If i cried myself to sleep
Because you didn't need anyone
Except your coke, weed, and  speed.

And as long as you had 
Your treasures in this world
You didn't seem to care

You never seemed to care, that is,
Until  that girl one day was gone,
And only because everyone
Knew then what was going on.

You promised that little girl
Calls and letters
But all she got was heartache
and more tears added to the others

Now this girl is older, 
shes not so little anymore
And her heart isn't so soft
Shes a bit stronger

Sheloves you with all her heart
God knows she always will
But until the day you act like a mother
You will never see her.

She'll grow a bit farther away
With each passing year
Until the little girl 
You once knew is no longer there.

You'll never have any
memories of a happy childhood
And you'll never know her 
stories of teenage years into woman hood.

No, as long as you have
Your other treasures
Life really isn't that bad.

But in the end is the price worth paying?
You've cut the rope between us
I just can't understand

Why you couldn't be my mother 
And also my friend.

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Black Meets White

Tendrils of hair 
Float over a face
Cleverly hidden
Behind a cloak of shame.

A cry in the night
A voice in the dark
Like a lurking ghost
No one can find.

Saddened, hurt
Shredded heart 
Soul torn in two
bitter and confused.

Eyes dim 
Tough light 
Take flight

Ember rings
Saphire strings
Ebony stones of 
Hardened souls.

Trustless and abused
Wrongfully accused
Sacraficial wants
Sacred love.

Cold heart
Now stomped to dust
Take flight on the 
Moonlight bridge.

soar to new heights
Breathe your first breath
Love and live with out restraint.

White light
Piercing scream
Once again, back to reality.

Troubled eyes
Sorrowed heart
Only light when 
Black meets white.

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Death Came To Me

My hate was as red
as fire for the cruel woman
I called mother

I was to be her slave.
She, my master.
I was to play no games.
I was no longer allowed to laugh.

My hatred grew hotter and hotter
Until I decided I had to either
Kill her or myself.

I had an urge, a dream
A little bit of a fantasy
I took the knife in my hand
And charged it towards my chest.

I laid on the tiled floor
And thought about the joy
I was suppose to be feeling now.

My breath became weaker
Each slower than the last
My eyes began to close
I began to see black.

My family rushed in
With remorseful screams
As they found me in my 
Sea of blood and lost dreams.

My mother held my cold hand
And wept bitterly
She could not understand
Why I had done such a thing

I lifted my head and barely said
"I love you mom. what have I done"?

Its been four years since that night
And I can still hear the screams.

I had hoped for fun.
I had hoped for laughs
but I found a sea of tears.

Death came to me.

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Memories of You

Sometimes I get a little worried
Sometimes I feel sad
Sometimes I start to wonder 
If the pain is really over.

Trying to picture you in my mind
Gets harder each time I try
Trying to remember your words
Whispered saying I held dear
Trying to push away the pain
Always trying to keep you near.

Scared to admit the longing
Afraid to show my tears
Hidden in my bedroom
No one knows their there.

Each night I feel the torment
Taste the tears from my eyes
Grab my pillow in anguish
Let out a deep sigh.

Old pictures torn
Faded from the years
Hold a glimpse into the past
Your once smiling face is there.

Trying to be strong
Holding on to the past
Reading old letters
Memories don't seem to last.

Trying to remember phone calls
Knowing there are few
Quick notes on a birthday card
The ones that said "I love you".

Hearing your distant voice
In the back of my mind
I guess what I'm saying is
Your running out of time.

With each passing of each day
Morning into night
I'm slowly forgetting the
Things left behind.

I love you, I know
That will never change.
I guess I"m wondering
If you feel the same.

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Your Life the Lie

Laughter and fun times
Memories and truths
Lifes most treasured tales
Times without you.

Promises unkept
Lies that were told
Memories made up
Identity unknown.

Gifts on a holiday
Hugs here and there
Kisses as you left
Bottles by the bed.

Late night talks
The ones when you were drunk
Drugs when I wasn't\\'t looking
Hidden in a box.

Feelings always kept secret from 
The one who cared the most
Lost to you forever
No longer any hope

Adulthood too early
A childhood I lost

See you across the desert
Between the now and then
Never to say I love you
Or to feel my gentle hug.

Goodbye to the emptiness
Goodbye to the lies
Goobye to a mother I never knew

Goodbye to my old life

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Path Found

By now my bruised and twisted soul
Should have found its peace
I watched with a wistful heart 
As he traveled a distant sea.
By now my weary heart
Should have found its anchor
I watched with anticipation
As she made her way towards 
Her ultimate destination.
By now my troubled eyes
Should have made their coming home
My ears listened for their return
As they slowly drifted forward.
By now my troubles should have passed
And a peace should be coming
I wait with a drawn in breath
For a moment without a restless spirit

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Confessions

She sits on her bed
Remembering each thing
That has been said

She lights a candle for each tear
Finds there too many to count
collecting in jars that hold letters

Finds that pain
Continues to take up home
Scared of the person who
She needs to be
Scared of the person she has become.

She's longing for something
Though she doesn't know what.
So she'll wait in the shadows 
Till that one is somehow 
Revealed too.

And pain knows her aching
And knows how she cries out
Yet he continues to to take
Up her in her withering soul.

My "life" is no "life" at all
Its simply me trying not to fall
And now that I"m drowning
In despair, no one seems to care.

To say that you understand
Or that you have been there too
Its like telling me  that you have
Walked in my shoes

Maybe you understand
But you've never been there
I doubt anyone wishes to live in despair.

don't give me your sympathy
Because I will just throw it back
Your words are just empty sayings.

pain knows no bounds
And sorrow has no end
And feelings are unwanted 

While I drown in pain 
You watch from above
Shouted down sympathy that pours 
As blood

I am an empty soul
Life has seem to lost its hold.

I'm numb from the inside out
And I am void of all
simply put I am dead and 
Pain has lost its solid ground.

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Love As a Rose

A withering rose can only smile for so long 
A burdened tree can only walk so far
Bitterness is cold comfort
Death is the only reward
Melodies play amongst the burdened souls
As a gentle breeze caresses
Love is a weak gesture
of wishes unanswered.
A single thought can provoke
A need for more emotion
A simple tear tells the end is near
To those with a lesser purpose
Disturbing is the wayward heart
when bitterness it greets
Its the sad tale of a loveless heart that clouds whisper of to the sea.

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This Love To Last

Endless nights of lonely arms
Trying days need to go.
Lovers kiss come to me,
Bring me to heaven on wings.

Love filled songs
Sweet fantasies.
Chocolate covered hearts
For a sweet memory.

Hold me close
Never let me go
Dream with me great dreams.

Dear lover and friend
Comfort me to the end
Sweet bliss with love so great,
Sweet words to tuck me in.

As I say goodnight to you,
I'll kiss you softly,
But not too soon

I'll whisper I love you,
but not too fast..
For I want this love to last.